msmom95's Journal

[msmom95]

B- 1 egg, 2 Egg whites, 2 Turkey sausage links
S - none
L - Turkey Chili, Green Beans with Almonds, NSA Fudge Pop
D - 2% Cottage Cheese, Chicken Stir Fry with Peppers & ANOTHER NSA Fudge pop

[msmom95]

My son was telling me today how much his friends like me (he is 11). He was saying that so & so thought I was nice and so & so thought I was fun. That was all nice, but then he told me that one of his friends said I was fat. I could tell immediately that he was sorry he told me, but the words were already out there. The kid that said it is a complete mess as is his homelife (and manners!!) but it still stung to hear it. In one of my earlier posts I mentioned that I would not miss wondering if I embarrass my son. Now I guess I do not have to wonder anymore. So anyway, it felt like crap to hear it, but you know what? I am fat. Much less fat than I was....but I AM fat. In fact, according to my BMI, I am obese and will be for another 20 lbs. Oh well, I need to use this little set back as incentive to move forward. In the past, I would have run home and eat some more. Not now. Now I realize that I am stronger than a bratty 11 year old's words. I wasn't even going to journal this...but I want to be able to go back to this and view it as a success.

[msmom95]

B - V8, 1Egg, 2 Egg Whites, 2 Turkey Sausage links
S - none
L - Chicken & Shrimp Fajita (no tortillas) tiny bit of sour cream and guacamole
S - 1 tasting square Dark Choc (about 55 cal..2g fat)
D - Green beans with almonds, NSA Fudge pop

[msmom95]

Down another lb today

B-V8, 1 Egg, 2 Egg Whites, 2 pieces Turkey Sausage
S- 2% Cottage Cheese
L - Grilled Chicken Salad / Ranch Dressing (< 1TBS)
S - Pistachios
D - Small Wendys Chili and side salad w/ <1TBS Ranch Dressing, NSA Fudge pop

[msmom95]

Down a lb today.

B- Apple
S- None
L - Salad with 1 scoop tuna salad on top
S - None
D - Cottage Cheese & one piece of dark chocolate

Crappy crappy crappy (did I mention crappy?) day. Needed to eat more, but I am just going to freaking bed. On a good note, I worked out tonight

[msmom95]

1 lb from half way point.

B - Yogurt
S - Apple
L - Salad w/ 1 Scoop Tuna - No dressing
S - None
D - Green beens with Almonds, NSA Fudge Pop (too late to eat large
dinner)

I have some serious work to do on my veggie intake.

Well, the last couple of days have been very tough, both personally and professionally. I really need to put this week behind me. I have learned some things about myself. I really thought I was getting a handle on this moderation thing, but I really now feel that I am going the direction of not eating enough. I see the scale dropping and am so afraid that I am going to gain, or stop losing, that I tend not to eat nearly enough. In looking at the last couple of days, I can really see that. So I need to fnd that balance between over eating and under eating. Sigh...

[msmom95]

Wow - half way there today!! So many people have commented in the last couple of days. I think I am finally getting to that "noticeable" point.

B - Apple
S - Nothing
L - Salad w/ 1 Scoop Tuna Salad - No Dressing
S - 80cal Chocolate bar (testing myself on managing moderation here)
D - Salad w/ Grilled Chicken, Fresh Motz, Roasted red peppers, < 1T Ranch dressing
S - Haven't decided yet

Must go to the store tonight and purchase some V8...been out for days.

[msmom95]

B- Yogurt
S- None
L - Salad w/ 1 Scoop Tuna Salad - 80 cal Choc bar
S - Apple & Cottage Cheese
D - Turkey Chili, NSA Fudge Pop

Most definately a tougher eating day. For some reason I struggled with eating a little more today than recent days. I read someplace the other day (maybe here) that a craving passes in 15 minutes. Today I ate a small piece of candy and immediately wanted more...lots more. I got really busy and kind of forgot about it. About 15 minutes later, the craving had pretty much passed. Still, was fairly rough in terms of eating. Still dealing with some personal issues and a bit bummed out (damn boys)...so maybe that is it. Will probably head to bed early tonight and try to sleep this funk off. TGIF

[msmom95]

B - V8, 1 Egg, 2 Egg Whites, 2 Turkey Sausage
S - Nothing
L - Chicken Fajitas (No tortillias) with green peppers and onions. Side salad w/ < 1T Ranch dressing, cheese, tomato
S - 15 SF Jellybeans (@ the movies)
D - Green Beans w/ Almonds, Cottage Cheese, NSA Fudge Pop

Still blue about by crummy week. Trying to keep my mind off the "relationship" issues.....ah well, next week is a new and fresh week. Don't want to jinx myself, but I think I might meet my (2nd) Valentines goal of 220 before the end of January. My original goal was 210, but I revised it after my Christmas indulgences. Let's see how close I can get to that by Valentines day....

More to come. Incentive to stay on plan....date Tuesday night.

Ah yes...traveling next week and the week after as well. Always a struggle to manage eating habbits when traveling, but I think I will be ok. Just need to do a little prepping ahead of time. This might be where I need to pack some of the SBD packaged snacks to use in a pinch.

[msmom95]

I know I can be obsessive or compulsive about this stuff, but as it I climb over the hump to my goal, I want to make sure I stay motivated and on track.

I have mini goals of 230 (achieved), 200, and final goal of 165...but I am going to throw in a few additional mini milestones in here as well and edit this once I achieve them:

275 - Starting weight
230 - Mini goal #1 (achieved 1/3/2007)
225 - Half way point (achieved 1/11/2007)
220 - 20% weight loss
214 - BMI is no longer considered "obese"
206 - 25% weight loss
200 - Mini goal #2
199 - Hello 100's
192 - 30% weight loss
188 - lowest weight I have been in 10 years
178 - BMI is considered "normal" & 35% weight loss
175 - Final Goal (maybe?)

[msmom95]

B - V8, Yogurt, 15 Pistachios
S - None
L - Turkey Chili, LF String Cheese, 1 piece dark chocolate
S - Cottage Cheese and 15 Pistachios
Must get lots of veggies in at dinner...why am I so hungry today???
D - Chicken & Veggie stir fry, 2 NSA Mixed Berry Creamsicle


Going to start tracking exercize here as well.....

2 1/2 Miles Walk / Run
Pilates

[cortcase]

Hi, MsMom! Just dropping by to see how you're doing. I was reading a few posts back, and I felt so bad seeing what your son's friend said. Sometimes kids can be so cruel...I remember that from my own days of being bullied on the playground. But it's good that you're turning something negative into something positive by letting it motivate you. That's awesome that you have your minigoals planned out...minigoals really help you feel like you've accomplished something — and you really have! Look, your ticker is past the halfway point...that's awesome!

Have a good Sunday!

[msmom95]

Thanks for stopping in Cort! Nobody ever visits me here

Ya, that kind of sucked. Kids can be real jerks, but often speak the truth. That is new to me as I was a very skinny kid growing up. In fact, I didn't ever experience weight problems until I had my son. I think that is why I ended up gaining, because I never had to worry about what I ate, so I never learned how to do it properly. So here I am at 34 trying to learn how to make it all come together.

Lot's of compliments the past few days...so that helps. Also the mini goals, though a but excessive, help me keep on track . Plus, have a "date" with an old boyfriend on Tuesday...so I will definately stay on track this weekend. He has not seen me "like that" in months, so it's a good incentive....I know TMI!

[msmom95]

Ok, hmm, just did the Pilates workout I bought yesterday. Either I did it wrong or I bought the wrong one, because it just felt like one long relaxing stretch. It definately did not feel like much of a workout. I will have to do some digging around here for what I can expect from a Pilates workout and what some good ones are....

[cortcase]

I wish I had a personal trainer. I always question whether I'm doing things right. I have an abs DVD with the stability ball, and half the things seem too easy, and the other half, I'm falling off the ball, rolling around on the floor, feeling like an idiot, lol.

I'll bookmark your journal so I can come back and visit!