so yesterday i did a really good thing, eating wise, and realized that i didnt have anyone to share it with! my boyfriend, who is also on the wagon in this woe, is very supportive in his own, quiet way, and sometimes, thats not enough for me, as narcissistic as that may be. anyways, i figured that its been 3 weeks and i think in a year from now, i would love to look back on my journal and my thoughts and see how much i have changed and grown, and i also think there is something so interesting about people's stories, and i have been enjoying everyone elses so much, and i think that i should share my own!
i am 22 years old, a current counseling psych graduate student/admin assistant/case aide for the county. i live in silicon valley with my boyfriend and our really cute dog, kasama. i like music, reality tv and animals. oh and art (i work at a museum). and tivo... where would i be without my tivo? my family is the most important thing in my life.
exercise-wise, we walk the dog every evening after dinner, and i use my elliptical 5-6 days a week. its really nice right now since its getting colder here at night, the room where my elliptical is is a very comfortable temperature, and i can even start with a sweatshirt on and take it off about halfway through, and when it gets close to the end, i am just beginning to get really warm. i love it! anyways, i would also like to get into some stretching and strenght training. i was going to curves for a long time and was amazingly helpful for me, healthwise, but as a college student, i was eventually unable to afford it anymore... i probably could have kept paying, but truthfully, when i moved in with my boyfriend 2 years ago, exercise kinda fell down on my priority list, and only recently have i begun to get back into an exercise routine, which is making me feel so much better about myself. i cannot fit into the outfit i wore on our first date, and i would really love to do that!
ok so i am 5'1" and not sure of my exact weight when i began sbd, since we just recently bought a scale, but the last time i was at the doc's office i was about 165. i had been sick with something no one could figure out, so i was getting lots and lots of blood tests, and my doctor told me my blood sugar was a little high. i got scared, and that is how i got interested in the sbd. i have to go back in for labs in about 2 months, and am excited to see how things look then.
today i weigh 157, and honestly i cannot remember the last time that i was under 160, so i am feeling great so far. i would like to eventually be down to somewhere around 120, but i am in no rush to get there at all. i know that this is not an overnight change, and it took me 2 years to gain all this weight, so it will take a while to get rid of it as well. i know that i can do it, and when it is done, it is done.
today is my 4th day of p2, and things have been great! i have been having steel cut oats for breakfast as my grain this week, and i am so happy. i missed cereal, but i realized that 3/4 c. and an egg for breakfast did not fill me up. on the other hand, i eat oatmeal and probably could go until 4 pm before needing to eat again. i dont, but i think i could. i dropped my unmicrowaved turkey bacon on the kitchen floor this morning, right onto the dogs favorite place to lay while we are cooking. i was a little saddened by that. sorry, random side note. it will happen often.
i have realized that i love to cook, and i think the reason why i didnt before was because we simply didnt have anything to cook with. before we began this new woe, i would just eat whatever i felt like, without thinking about it. now that we plan out our meals and shop for those ingredients that we need, i am in the kitchen so much. ray is always complaining about how many dishes he does. i really should do more dishes, but sometimes i really just dont feel like it.
wow ok this is really long. i hope that my others following this wont be so bad. im going to go make big breakfast cookie bars for this weekend. art sale friday night and estate auction sunday. yay!
lastly, here are a couple pictures!