msmom95's Journal

[msmom95]

So, been on phase 1 for 6 days now. Going pretty well. Prior to joining SB, I lost 25 lbs (really thirty, but gained 5 back). I could feel myself slipping back into old habbits and was not about to go back to the me 30 pounds ago. Hoping that SB can provide the structure I am looking for to keep going. So far, so good. I have lost 8 lbs since day 1. That was the incentive I needed to get past those 5 lbs I had been gaining and losing for the past two months. Now I am ready to keep moving down, eventually to HS weight of 175 (I am 5'11" so that is pretty thin for me). Mini goals are 230 (loss of 45), 200 (loss of 75) and 175 (loss of 100). I can't believe I need to lose that much! Seems so crazy. I took a picture of myself at the beginning of the year and one tonight. Dare I say I actually am starting to look nice? I remember the last time I lost a lot of weight. Sadly, when I started, I was lower than I am today, and lost 40 lbs. I felt great. At least I have something to look forward to

I wonder why I don't tell anybody that I am doing this diet? If asked, I just say I am on a diet, but never specify SB. For some reason I don't like to discuss diets with people. When people ask me how much I have lost, my response is always "Not Enough". Or if they tell me I am looking good, I just say thanks, but never offer more. I guess I can't stand those that tell everybody and their dog about their diet. This forum is one thing - everybody here is here for the same reason, so I don't mind.

Going on vacation in November, so I should see a significant difference by then.

Wow, some seriously random thoughts there. Will be checking back soon. This really helps. I can do this instead of eat

One more thing...crazy how when I am eating better, everything else seems to be in better order as well. House is cleaner, bills are up to date and orderly, dinner is cooked on time, I am early for work. And the opposite is definately true as well. When I am way off the wagon, everything is a mess! Just another reason to keep on track!

[lorka150]

Hey! Welcome and good luck. I've been on phase III for about three months now, and lemme tell you - best thing I ever did was this new life.

My blog is http://lorka150.blogspot.com , by the way, if you are interested.

What does your nickname mean? The reason I ask is because a lot of people in my life have MS and I wonder if that has anything to do with it?

Good luck on the beach - I'm looking forward to reading your journey!

[msmom95]

MS stands for my son's name. Ultimately, I am doing this to set a good example for him as well as to slim down. It's easy to brind the healthy lifestyle to all the meals, so he is benefitting as well. (obviously adding fruit and grains to his). Thanks for asking So if you are in phase three, obviously it's working for you. I will have to read your blog. Looking forward to it. Off to the mall today, which will be the biggest test of all! However, I am down two more lbs this am and wouldn't want to mess that up!

[lorka150]

Mall is always fun! I know there are temptations, but just bring a snack and get yourself a drink. I learned that coffee is a great treat at the mall, instead of snacking.

How old is your son?

[msmom95]

Seem to be gaining and losing that same 1 pound. I know I focus way too much on the number, but it is just a comfort for me and a way to keep on top of progress.

No idea why it bothers me so much when people tell me I am looking thinner. I guess it's nice unless they make a big deal and ask me a bunch of questions. I guess I just feel silly. On the flip side, it also annoys me when I feel like I am having a particularly "skinny" day and nobody says a word about me losing weight. Can't win with me apparently! Oh, and one more vent...when people say "Keep it up", I know they mean well, but I wonder if I am the only one that finds that rude? It's one thing for fellow dieters here on the board to say that, because they understand. But when somebody at work says it, it just implies that I NEED to keep it up. Again, stupid, I know. I can't wait until I go back and read this and feel like such a moron. I think I am just having a grouchy night. The good news is, as grouchy as I feel, I have no desire to turn to food!!!

[msmom95]

The last few days have been easier, but I am anxious to add some bread to my diet. I have already planned to break phase one slightly on Saturday night at a party by having a few glasses of white wine. I plan to bring a vegatable tray to the party so I will have something good to eat. This is the first diet where I don't long for other things while cooking my son's dinner if he is having something different than I am having for dinner. While I understand that occasionally I will have a bite of cake or a cookie, I no longer feel the need to have the whole piece of cake or the whole box of cookies. I realize that one taste is plenty. I am keeping this journal to remind myself of these thoughts should I ever feel myself slipping. I lost 40 pounds a few years ago and gained it all back - and more. When I was trying to get back in shape, I tried to remember what it was that got me going last time and I could not remember. Now I will have a record of my progess to refer back to from time to time.

So far...13 pounds down in phase 1...so that is 38 in total to date.

[msmom95]

Okay, 7 weeks from this Wednesday is vacation. For once, I have been working out and watching it for a while, so I am not in panic mode this time. However, I feel that I can really step it up at this point and take advantage of these next seven weeks. For once, I have realistic expectations and they are actually attainable by the time I leave for vacation.

So, tonight, went to the gym. Followed the program to the T, and avoided temptation. Unfortunately, tomorrow is my B-day and I know there will be cake! I will probably have a bite or two so as not to offend anyone.

Whoopppee...cant wait for the beach!! I need the beach to get to the beach

[msmom95]

Hmmm...I remember writing all of this and I remember why I did. I am glad I wrote it because now that I try to get back on track, it helps me put things in perspective and remember what weight I was at and what frame of mind I was in at the time.

Day 3 of phase one and going strong. As of this am I am at 245, 7 lbs heavier than my last journal post over a year ago. Not happy about that, but I am glad that it is not 30 lbs. My guess is that I will lose that other seven by the end of phase 1 and then continue with phase 2.

The one thing that continues to resonate with me is how much more in control I feel of things (emotions, life in general) when I am eating right. I know that I am definitely a much more patient person when not eating junk. That is no coincidence.

Well...off to run around for the day.

[msmom95]

Well, 4 days and 4 lbs. May be water weight, but whatever, it's motivating. I have been struggling to get under 240 for months now, and now I know it is just around the corner. Hopefully I will do that before starting P2. I'm sure I will since P2 is still over a week away.

I have been on track so far. I can't really say if I have cheated or not. Yesterday I had a scoop of Natural PB but had already had my 1 serving of nuts for the day. So technically I guess I have. I have not, however, cheated in the sense that I at something off plan, just a little too much of what is allowed

Headed out of town on Tuesday. Will need to think of SB friendly things to bring with between now and then. Maybe I will just stop at a grocery store once I arrive.

All for now...

[msmom95]

I posted these under another post...but went back several times to re-read them. So, I decided to post them here as well so I could remind myself without having to search for the old post:

Top 10 Things I won't miss:

1.) My Muffin Top
2.) Laying down and STILL not having a flat belly
3.) Always insisting the lights are out AND the TV is off!
4.) Wondering if I am the fattest person in the room
5.) Expecting men to still look at me the way they used to...and then remembering why they don't
6.) Seeing a picture of myself and realizing how bad it really is
7.) Wondering how somebody so attractive could be into me
8.) Avoiding running into people that have not seen me in a while
9.) Wondering if I embarass my son
10.) Spending a fortune on dining out

[msmom95]

Another positive day...possibly a few too many nuts and some unnecessary Hummus....but compared to what a normal day used to look like...not half bad.

Lucky enough to run home between work and school to make an appropriate dinner ( egg beater omlete ) so I didn't end up trying to chose the lesser of multiple evils in a fast food place.

Thursday will be one week...traveling tomorrow through Thursday. This will be a significant challenge due to the difficulty of traveling and finding healthy choices. I will definately be stopping at the grocery store for some healthy options prior to arriving at the hotel. Thank goodness for Grilled Chicken salads and Veggie Omletes..those seem to be on every menu.

[msmom95]

So far so good today...NOTHING decent in the airport, so I just had the V8 in the car on the way to the airport and my pistachios on the plane. Of course when I arrived at the hotel they handed me a warm chocolate chip cookie, which I promptly thew out (after a minor mental disagreement with my growling tummy).

At the moment, I am eating an amazing chef salad here at the hotel. I am sure there will be one or two more of these this week!

[msmom95]

Well, back from my trip. I did extremely well while traveling and and very happy with myself. Currently I am on day one of week 2 and feel great. Have lost 7 lbs so far. Only 11 lbs from goal #1. I feel so good and am finding it easier and easier to resist bad things every day. I am sure I will have my days where it is harder, but making steady progress makes it so much easier for now.

Off to the grocery store.

[msmom95]

Today was a rough one. My son had a friend over and they wanted pizza for lunch...Sausage with extra cheese....I had to lock them in his room with it while I ate my salad!

To top that off, they wanted to go to a movie. Of course two 10-year old boy must have popcorn so I had to sit right next them smelling their buttery movie - theater popcorn. I just sipped my diet coke and concentrated on the movie.

I resisted all day, but for some reason I feel guilty, like I overdid it today. Looking at my menu... I did pretty well. I don't think I ate too much of anything. I might have gone about 20 calories over my sweet treat limit. That sounds so strange! Worrying about 20 calories! I think I just dont feel hungry, so I think that sometimes makes me feel guilty because I associate the lack of hunger with just having eaten a big meal, which I would have felt guilty about. Even though I didn't do that, I think that may be it. I know that makes no sense....strange how my mind works sometimes.

[Leigha]

Hi!!
Just wanted to drop by and tell you that you're doing FANTASTICALLY!! Well done on the 35 lost!!
have a great day,
Leigh