RedPanda - of course you are right - I should have just told them, but I am really struggling with telling people. I have so long been the one who scoffed at diets and dieters - reveled in the fact that I wanted to enjoy eating whatever I wanted and being a glutton, that I am struggling with shame over admitting I was - heaven forbid - wrong about something. Hard for me to be wrong, harder to admit it! Must be a consequence of being an eldest child - dutiful daughter syndrome - matured into a control freak - and now I have to acknowledge that part of my life, while I thought I controlled it, was really controlling me. Agh - long sentence - got that all out in a rush!
I really have no one to blame by myself for eating what I know is bad for me - should not transfer that to family - know they would support me, and if fact they did pretty much when we got talking about the fact that I was starting to do something about my weight. Of course, I didn't get into all the details - didn't want them to jump to conclusions too quickly that maybe this is just a fad. My sister is a long time weight watchers follower, pretty healthy person. I guess I want them to notice the results and I want to be sure I can keep it up long term, so don't want to go into too much in advance - my silence is my safety net in case I fail! Too much self analysis for this early in the day! maybe for any time!
- Even if I did try and fail, family would still love me - so next visit home, I will honor them by sharing my diet needs in advance. I know they will support me.
To the issues of today - changing the exercise program. I posted on someone else's thread asking for help in starting exercise when over 50 and out of shape. luvs_torun gave some great advice on beginning toning exercises and then PapaBanucci hit the topic with a low-down on what makes a successful exercise program - so much I never knew. I was going to copy stuff here but will just put in a link so I don't lose track of this http://www.southbeach-diet-plan.com/for ... hp?t=55126
. Wicked info and I am still trying to digest.
I want to get the benefits of increased metabolic rate, had heard about adding a minute of high intensity followed by recovery, but had never seen a program like he proposes - the rising intensity measured by physical response. I tried to add cycles like that to my walk this morning - killer - and my heartrate went well over the top level he recommended - up to 155 when measured just after the most intense minute. Could only do 2 cycles and have to post back to that post for more clarification, but clearly I can be doing more just with the treadmill. Adding the weight training will also work - just have to get something consistent between these recommendations and what DH thinks I could do. So treadmill today was 30 minutes - with 1 intensity cycle and 1 abbreviated cycle - need to develop a chart to keep track of the times for this - much more complicated than what I was tracking.
Food today - the thought of all that exercise puts me off of even thinking about food -
B- 2 egg scramble with spinach - it really is not an omelette even though that is what I have been calling it. Added an oz of ham cuz I was cutting some for lunch, and V8, glass of milk. Am getting my first glass of water in by drinking it before breakfast - really have to pee by the time I get to work now.
S- 5 almonds and tea
L - ham slices, tossed salad, celery, V8 and raspberries (no sugar)
S - cheese strings
D - left over chicken stir fry in WW tortilla with guacamole and salsa and more tossed salad - romaine was on sale this week!
desert - going with a sf, lf fake dairy bar