I am back and I can't believe it has been over a year since I was here.... What a year it has been...
My husband and I separated in September and the divorce is expected to be final June 17. Shattering. Not the outcome one expects when so much prayer goes into a marriage.... But I trust in and lean on the everlasting Sovereign God, and if nothing else I am anchored more deeply than ever in my faith and commitment to Him. If it's not what He has planned for my life, then I don't want it...
In the meantime, Casey has started preschool and is thriving, and handling the absence of daddy pretty well. (He left entirely for 4 months, and has recently returned to the area and is trying to be a daddy as best he can.) She will be 4 in September and I can't believe how fast the time goes by.
After months of seeking an additional part-time job or something full-time, the door has finally opened and in a direction I was not even looking. Tomorrow I start working at a well-known insurance company and am studying for my insurance license. I have worked as an admin for financial advisors for many years, so it is not completely foreign territory, but I am in a whole different position being the one selling! God is pushing me out of my comfort zone in many ways.
My dear mom has been in poor health all year, almost lost her a couple times. It is a real eye-opener to see what a lifetime of obesity and just generally not taking care of oneself will do. She doesn't smoke or drink, but still a ticking bomb with so many other obesity-related issues. So it has made me take a good look at myself - again - and ask where I want to be when i am only 68 years old - just 21 years from now....
With major changes on the home and job front, I am feeling very challenged to evaluate all areas of my life and just take back control in all the areas where I have just given up. The marriage issues have been resolved, I guess, as much as divorce can be a resolution. (Thank God for a wonderful counselor that has been coaching me and giving me some great life-tools to use.) The job situation (I was not in a great situation, both from an ethical/integrity stance and just in general the way I was being treated) has been changed. Finances are a mess, huge credit card debt racked up between just making ends meet and extensive retail therapy... Going to take a while to get that under control, but I am taking the first steps anyway with a job that has potential to be pretty lucrative down the road. Just trying to take fuzzy dreams and turn them into solid goals with concrete steps to reach them...
At least in all of this, it is encouraging to come here and see that I am 17 lbs lighter than I was when I first tried SB last year!!
So I am starting anew to follow the SB eating plan more closely, get rid of the starchy stuff that has crept back in (ooo the evening snack attack!) and more sugar than I have been eating for some time now.... Got to dig up some of the SB recipes I was using before that I enjoyed...
Well I am off to get things organized for tomorrow... Been a long time since I had to be out the door at 7:30 am!!
Be blessed and healthy!
