I really appreciate your visits here. Your support means a great deal. I actually look forward to reading your posts when I get up in the morning or as I wander to bed. Thanks for noticing my picture. It was one of the few moments I was having fun, last New Years, I believe. My eldest DD is 26, married to a software engineer, has 3 babes (8,2,1) and was a stay at home mom until she decided it was time to return to college. This is the DD that we currently live with. My 2nd DD is 23, married to a firefighter/paramedic, is a paramedic herself and has a son (2) and expecting her second child in May. My DS is 18 and he moved into the dorms for his freshman year at Western Michigan University the same time we moved out here. He is a writer at heart, but is up in the air regarding his major. My 3rd DD is 13 and is with me. She's adjusting beautifully to her new school and is a wonderful girl, being a teenager not withstanding. All that said, at the beginning of being single it was a struggle, but it was a kinder world then. As it continued, the challanges grew and a darkness began to set in. Sometimes I still see the edges hanging around. But, that's okay. I can deal with it when I see it coming. I have tools that I use such as sleep and diet and activity to keep it at bay. I have always said that my sole goal was to raise the children to become civilized adults and I believe I'm 3 for 4 at the moment and the 4th one shows promise. I'm not going to kid anyone and say that I am responsible for their successes. I claim that they've become wonderful people inspite of my best efforts to sabotage them with the poor choices I've made in my life. (My support system says different, but what do they know!)
I am a writer at heart but unfortunately my employment has always been by necessity rather than choice. Eventually the economy caught up with me and change became necessary at the same time it became necessary for my DD. So, here we are. I basically am reinventing myself and I'm not going to lie, it's damn difficult.
YOU are making it easier. Sometimes it's easier to connect with people that can't hold your history against you.
So, as I am typing this I am going to thank you again for taking me down a path I needed to visit. By responding to you, I am realizing that now that I am the Grandma, I could be writing one of the five books stuck in my brain during naptime!
So, tell me about the transition from musician to physician. What an interesting choice. Did you wake up one day and think to yourself "Skin, I want to do skin."? (I'm figuring probably not! LOL!) I can relate totally to the work-to-controlled-chaos schedule. That's been one of the harder parts of my adjustment. I'm learning I don't have to be go, go, GO all the time. It's really, really, really strange! What do you do for YOU? Inquiring minds want to know.
Yes, I would absolutely love walking the beach with my new friend. I'm done with the pie (and no it's not gone), but I'm determined to be done because I'm saying I'm done, not because I don't have any. I can't do the out of sight, out of mind thing or I'll have a recipe for disaster when I do come across it. I have to just understand that I don't eat that way anymore when it's sitting right in front of me. It is what it is.
Recipe for the chicken I had tonight because it was so Yummy and EASY.... Mix 1/2C or whatever close amount of s/f Welche's Raspberry Jam with 1TBS dijon mustard, salt and pepper in bowl. Place chicken breasts in baking dish, paint top with mixture. If you don't contaminate the sauce in the bowl, you can use the rest after it cooks to dip the chicken into. Bake until breasts are done on 350 degree oven. This was amazing. The recipe I found on here says to cook the breasts on the grill and paint with the sauce as it cooks. I'm far too lazy for that.
This week's add in has been a carb. Kind of mixed this around a bit to see what I like and don't like. I wish I liked wine. Sadness.
Goal for tomorrow: Stay SB compliant for the WHOLE day, and decide which book I'm going to start writing. Can't wait to hear from you!