Nims' SBD Journal

[Nims99]

Hi everyone,
Finally got around to making a journal. So here it is. Lets see...I am 26, almost 27, and I work at a job that is just a job...trying to (still) figure out what to do (lame I know). Heh.
Lets see..I've been on the beach twice before, but it didn't last as long as this time. The first time, I did phase one, then didn't know that phase two was supposed to be a gradual shift, not all at once...and it threw me off and a few parties later I had totally fallen off the bandwagon. Then I tried it again, but I was trying to be vegetarian too and it was too many changes at once so I slipped up that time too.

Then a couple things happened. My dad has always been kind of overweight and he was looking to try something new, and mentioned sbd. I pulled out the book and ran over the basics with him, and now he has lost over 40 lbs and counting! So that really inspired me to see him have such success.
And the other thing was that I discovered this board! While I was looking up more info about SBD after seeing my dad's success, I happened to see the forums and checked out some of the posts and before after pics (man I love those!), and I was hooked! It really has been a great place to find motivation, inspiration, and get those specific questions answered. I also love the recipe section too. And now I have discovered the challanges...oh man...I am so into it.

So anyway, I started this time on may 21st and have stuck with it mostly since then...I even went on vacation in july, and thought it was all over after that, but I really shocked myself when I got back on track! That's when I knew I could really do it.

So far I've lost just about 20 lbs, and I'd like to lose another 10-15 more. I have a very short torso/short waisted so I look a lot heavier and wear bigger clothes than other people the same height and weight. Weird.

Lets see...this week so far, Monday I was not a beachy eater. I did go for a short run but it sucked. (How can a run sometimes suck and sometimes be good? I don't really understand it!). Yesterday I was good and beachy but I didn't do any cardio besides walking around which I don't really count. Then today I went running after work...it was great. I think I forgot to take two puffs of my inhaler & only took one (I have asthma) so it was a little harder to breathe than usual. But I perservered and busted out on some hills too! Running is totally my new thing. It has been the most amazing thing to see myself improve and do things I didn't think I would ever truly be able to do! Oh yeah, I also did weights, sit ups and pushups, squats, lunges...all that little strength stuff.

Alright, well I feel like I wrote a mini novel here! Just ate my dinner, little mixed green salad with olive oil and lime juice dressing and a baked chicken breast. Yummmmm. Time for the dreaded dishes. See ya!

[Nims99]

Oh man, this weekend was a disaster diet-wise (but a blast!). It all started with my friends' good bye party, and then turned into french fries and beer. Got to stay clean today. It is really hard when I go out to eat because I don't know what to get , and I figure it is a fancy/celebratory time, so I get whatever I want...horrible. Luckily for my thighs my wallet is skinny and I don't eat out often.

I also think I eat way too much popcorn at night. I guess it isn't THAT bad compared to like chips or even pretzles, but it is a crutch and a habit that I have started. Sometimes I will not eat dinner and will eat popcorn instead. I cook it with Pam spray on the stove and mist olive oil onto it instead of butter or icbinb. and i put nutritional yeast too so that adds some b vitamins.

anyway, i had to drop out of the warrior challenge today and i am really sad about it cause i think it is a great one and i loved the people on it too. i just don't have the internet at home. and i felt too flaky about checking in only once a week. maybe for my birthday i will get a new computer so i can do an october challenge. bummer.

[Nims99]

Yesterday,
B: Eggs with cheese and tomatos, emergency drink
S: none
L: Bagel sandwich with turkey, lettuce, tomato, mayo, mustard
S: Strange little trailmix thing, tried to eat only peanuts (approx 15)
D: Popcorn (approx 2 cups)

Tons of H20
1 cup coffee
Exercise: general walking around, and 1hour hike.

Today
B: Fried egg with salsa & emergency drink
S: SF Hot chocolate mixed with coffee
L: Veg (Broc, garlic, onion, green bean) & tofu stir-fry with 1/2 apple.
S: None
D: I'm thinking of making a big thing of bean soup.
S: Popcorn probably.

I need to go grocery shopping and running today seriously. But I will probably hold off on the grocery shopping because I have totally overspent my budget.

[Nims99]

weird, i thought i added another entry, but it isn't here. anyway, i have been only maintaining my weight, not losing. I have been eating Halloween candy and drinking whiskey too. I guess I am depressed and living alone doesn't help. Gotta keep the motivation! Soups, Salads, Chicken, Fish! It doesn't help that all of my spending money these days goes directly to groceries...blah blah, budgeting sucks.

[Nims99]

YES! I finally got a new computer at home, at least for a little while. A friend of mine is letting me borrow one. I am very excited, not only for this forum but to be able to learn computer programming! I want to teach myself C++, and I want to learn about graphic design. I was going to take a class but honestly, I can't afford it so I will teach myself. Anyway, enough dorky excitement and on to the diet...
Well, I am not a very beachy girl. I am just not eating very much at all, I usually have a big lunch and then for dinner I have been having popcorn and trail mix. I hate to admit it on this forum, but I might as well be honest. I'm just really sick of grocery shopping and cooking...lazy of me!! The grocery store is just such a boring chore and cooking has really become boring for me too, even though I once enjoyed it.

[Nims99]

wow, i haven't been on the boards for a long time!

Today i went jogging for the first time in a long long long time. It was so hard and i mostly only walked, with only a couple minutes of jogging. It literally felt like I was carrying weights around with me. I guess I am carrying about 25 more pounds on my body. It felt gross feeling my stomach bouncing around, my thighs like jello. Ah well, you have to start somewhere. It will only get better from here (I hope!). I decided to keep it really really easy so that way I will stick with it, instead of pushing myself too hard in the first day. But now I am wondering if I did enough.

Yesterday, food-wise I started out great, but then ended up drinking beer. I have a really hard time saying no to my friends when they want to grab a beer. I know I guess I didn't have to have one too, but it is a habit, that I just have to break. At least now I am starting to become aware of these unconscious habits.

[Nims99]

For the past two days i have been exercising! yay! its enjoyable once i get out there, and then i feel proud of myself.

although i started phase one again, i have been being very very bad with the alcohol consuption. i think maybe i am in pre-phase one. I am starting to think about my meals, think about having breakfast, snacks, lunch, and dinner. i used to skip breakfast and not eat until 2 pm, (and i get up at like 6:45! So i was basically putting myself in starvation, then i would go home and eat a bunch of crackers, or nachos at the bar.

now i am making more choices that are friendly to sbd, but as of now, i wouldn't say that i am fully on it since i keep drinking.

yesterday:
b: soup
l: wendy's grilled chix sandwich, got rid of bun. didn't know it came smothered in horrible sauce, so tried to scrape that off. ate 5 french fries!
s: brocolli with hummus.
d: baked chicken with arugala salad.
other: drank a bottle of wine and 2 pints of beer, ate about 5 twizzlers, had 4 fish sticks.

hey that's honesty. not proud of it but it is true.

also went jogging/walking for 30 minutes, came home did squats and lifted weights (not for v long, maybe only 5 minutes)

today:
b: egg whites (3), coffee w non fat milk
s: light string cheese, 4 mini tomatoes.

[Nims99]

I am eating some really good chicken i made for an early dinner.
I took the breast, covered it with thyme, oregano, garlic pwdr, onion pwdr, pepper, and spike. rubbed that all in, then saute in ~1 tbs of olive oil. When it was done, took chicken out, dumped out most of the leftover oil, the sauted a little bit of arugula. YUM. It is really good you guys! Plus it was v easy.

For a snack i had hummus and broccoli again.

I am very tired, for no real reason. I just want to take a nap, but I can't !

Happy Mother's day to all the great mom's out there!! <3 <3

[Nims99]

Today I weighed myself, unofficially, and I am 146! Yay! But I hope it will stay true for Thursday when I have my official weigh in.

[Nims99]

Meh, last night i went out for dinner at a mexican restaurant...my fav! Well, I just got a chopped salad with grilled chicken. It had cheese on it tho, and tortilla chip pieces. Then I also had some tequila.

Today, I went to lunch at a chinese restaurant, thinking I would get some soup, but all they had was beef base soups, which I don't eat. So i got this chicken broccoli lunch special. It was ok, but it was covered in sauce, and came with a side of fried rice, fried noodles, and a fried egg roll. I was so bummed cause i was really hungry. I should have ordered it with out sauce or something but they were really busy, and I was scared to speak up. Good thing is I only ate about 1/4 of the stir fry, a bite of noodles, and yes I ate the egg roll. i was so hungry and unsatisfied. But at least I didn't blow the whole thing and eat it all.

So I went jogging when I got home to make up for it. I feel better about myself now.

It is so hard not do drink tho, b/c I guess I am always surrounded by it. Its kind of how my friends and I hang out. Usually at a bar with greasy food. So I have started cutting the beer and greasy food, but I do still drink.

Slowly, friends....slowly. I am comitted tho, and I know the program works cause I've done it before, that's why I'm tweaking it, or easing myself into it. But I have def. made a lot of changes already.

[Scarlette]

Hi Nim! I'm back after a couple years too! It's interesting how we learn to adapt this way of eating to our lifestyles the second time around. This time around I don't always follow the diet to the absolute letter, but I do offset all of my "exceptions" with exercise. It's working so far!

I also have problems turning down a couple beers with friends, but I found out the Corona Light only has 99 calories and 5 carbs! I make myself workout and extra 10 minutes for every one I drink. Lol!

Good Luck!

[Nims99]

Hi Scarlette!
Thanks for the good ideas. I really agree that exercise helps so much! I'm going to have to try that Corona Light. That's pretty low in calories for beer! I tried that one, I think its Michelob Ultra, but I didn't like it at all. I do like Corona tho, so I'll look for that next time. Working out an extra ten minutes for every beer sounds like a great plan - i love that idea!

Today I feel especially ... large... I have these pants on that used to be really loose and comfortable, now i am spilling out of them, tight as hell! I feel like I look pregnant! I am at the point where I need to buy new larger clothes because everything is so tight, but I really just want to lose the weight...so what to do? Wear tight clothes and hope I start losing weight soon (more than one or two pounds please!), or just go buy some bigger clothes?

[Nims99]

Heh, its funny looking at all those old posts I made. I did so good with SBD a couple of years ago, then I had a really sad time in my life, and kind of had a emotional crisis. I stopped exercising, stopped eating right. I would just lay on the floor and drink whiskey and eat junk food and cry. I deliberately sabotaged myself because I felt that I deserved to be fat and disgusting. I ate tons of sugar, and would go out and get wasted and eat fried things, and I was overall a huge mess.

Luckily, things started looking up not too long after that and I got myself on track emotionally, but continued with my bad eating habits, my lack of exercise, and excessive drinking.

I realized recently that my drinking is kind of a problem, so i've decided to go 90 days with out a drink. I figured since I am also the fattest I have ever been in my life I wanted to get my entire health under control, so thought i should do sbd again. My sister tried to get me to do weight watchers, and i tried it, but i can't handle the points and counting etc. Thats one of the reasons i love sbd, just plan ahead, and make healthy choices and you can eat a lot of great food!

Yesterday I had...
breakfast = egg, 3 slices turkey bacon
snack = pumpkin seeds
snack = tomato soup
snack = turkey deli slices, coffee w non fat milk
lunch = large brocolli and spinich salad with sunflower seeds
dinner = large mixed green salad with grilled chicken, diet coke
snack = coffee, soda water with lemon, black tea

I went out with friends and they all got beer and nachos...it was hard but i had a diet coke and salad, and once it was in front of me i didn't even think about missing out on the beer/nachos. Then my friends had cookies and coffee back at their place, and i just had the coffee, although i am such a sucker for cookies.

[Juniper34]

Good job for getting back on the "wagon" Nims!

I think I am definitely in the same boat as you as far as the drinking thing is concerned You should take a look at my last post in my diet journal!! I am a sucker for alcohol and when I get around all the bar people (I work there so I really can't get away from it ) It is quite difficult to say no.

Serious kudos to you for saying no (multiple times no less!) Good luck staying on, and for cutting out the alcohol. I hadn't had anything for 2 weeks but I didn't work last weekend or the weekend before so that would be why

[Nims99]

Thanks for the encouragement Juniper! It means a lot