It's a horrible feeling. I always have a wardrobe crisis cuz I feel so fat and untrendy compared to most of my friends. There they are, stick thin and able to wear what ever they like. Then there's me usually in the same old thing (black pants or jeans, black top of some description) feeling like a porky pile of crap! I usually end up getting quite drunk early on in the night, just to give me some confidence. I don't seem to care when I'm drunk and will dance and have fun. If I was sober I would be stood in the corner. Sad but true.
The funny thing is, a lot of my slimmer friends are envious of my boobs. I don't think anyone is ever totally happy with themselves, especially us women!! My friends go mad at me for how I slag myself off but I can't help it
I'll be honest, I haven't found P1 easy at times and did fall off the wagon on Monday night when I ate out but other than that, I've proper fought my cravings. I use the thought of being slimmer and not feeling this way to spur me on. It's been a long couple of weeks lol.
I just spotted this post of yours. You really are pretty!
I know exactly what you mean about wardrobe crisis. I say I'm naturally a loner but if I'm honest, one of the main reasons I don;t go anywhere is because of wardrobe crisis. Plus I am broke and can't afford clothes anyway. Okay, I'd never be dancing in a club but I do hide away and sit there quietly when on social events. It's a vicious circle, you don't go out so you lose confidence, so you don't go out so you don't meet people, so you don't go out....
Not that there's anywhere to go round here anyway lol... but I do tend to stay in and spend time alone.
Yes, we're never happy with what we've got. I can never understand this boob envy. I'm a DD myself and I remember a post I made on LJ about something else that involved mentioning my boob size and people we're all "wow, you must get men hitting on you all the time as you go down the street". Hmmm... not round here! Presumably there are streets in the world you walk down and men are throwing their phone numbers at you
Besides, I'd give a man the middle finger if he was only talking to me because of my boob size. Talk to the face and all that.
Back to the point... try and hold onto the thought of being slimmer if you can. You might take a while to get there, but I have faith you will get there!