My before pics

[SarahW]

So these were taken last night and are my official before pics!







Pics can be an emotional minefield don't you think? What little confidence I have (which really isn't a lot) can be destroyed in a milli second by a dodgy pic. As I've said in other posts, I'm always cropping my arms n bottom half off pics before I show or post them!! Here's some of the few pics I like of myself at this weight (the camera does lie lol):







And here's a couple I hate!!





That last one was taken at a pole dancing lesson. It was part of my friend's hen weekend and was such a bad experience for me. Even though I was with friends, my self esteem and confidence is so bad that I found it really hard to get up and do it front of them. I felt stupid in what I had on and felt so fat. I was well upset when I saw that pic. I can't wait for the day when I can look at pics and really like myself!!

[Scarlette]

You have a beautiful shape and a beautiful face, you really have nothing to be insecure about. But I know exactly what you mean about cropping bottoms and arms, lol. Oh, and I almost always try to stick my chin out so it doesn't look like I have a double chin in photos. Lol

I'm actually back on the beach because of some recent pics. I was doing really good for a long time, and then had a relapse this year.

Good luck! I can't wait to see your next photos!

[SarahW]

Aw thank you Scarlette. I don't mind my face these days lol but when I was younger, I thought I was ugly. I've defo bettered with age facially and attitude wise!

I've always had terrible self esteem though. I used to think I was fat when I really wasn't. I think I've said on another post, I can remember crying because I was 154lb (I'd put on 14lb) and was due to go on holiday. I feel so stupid for that now. I've always seen something bigger and uglier than I am I think lol. This time I know I'm over weight. The charts tell me I'm obese and my belly hangs over my (UK) size 18's. I haven't been below 180lb for a few years now and it's time to shed some lard!!!

Good luck to you too!!

PS Don't you just love the crop feature?!

[alyhas2drop50]

Hey you,
What are you talking about...you're stunning! I feel exactly the way you do :somewhat insecure because of weight issues. Even with the pounds I already lost I feel better, sexier...you know what I mean.
Believe me...if losing weight is going to help you feel better in your skin...then you're on the right track!
I'm so excited for you!!!

Aly

[SarahW]

I know exactly what you mean Aly! I know that I'll feel so much better about myself when I've lost some weight. I let it affect me and my life so much right now, that's why I'm here

[yourenotinterested]

You are a cutie ... best of luck!!!!

[SarahW]

You are a cutie ... best of luck!!!!

Good luck to you too!

[Meizer]

OOOH...sexy Sarah in the red dress with the wind machine and all! You look mah-velous dah-ling!

I believe there is strength in numbers and with everyone encouraging everyone, there's nothing we can't accomplish! We're all in this together and I know we can do it! Right? Right! The only question I have though is this: Can I keep the boobs? I mean, I've never had boobs before (32A for life) until I gained this weight and I was just getting used to having cleavage! I fear as soon as any weight comes off the first thing to go will be the boobs. He giveth and he taketh away..Such is life, eh?

Meizer

[SarahW]

The wind machine pic is so cheesy isn't it?! You'll be pleased to know it's not the reason I like the pic lol. The reason I like it is cuz I somehow look slim-ish!!! I know it was a professional shoot (I won a make over) but even so, the pics aren't air brushed or anything. It's all about the poses I guess. I look awful on some of them. I have about 10 bellies on the sitting down ones lol.

It seems there's always a down side to every thing good. I've always been fairly busty. When I was at my slimmest I wore a 36C. I'm now a 38FF! I'd like them to shrink a little cuz if my body does and they don't, I'll look a bit silly Not too much though!!! I hope you get to keep all of yours!

[yourenotinterested]

on a related note... I want my man Boobs gone... Any one want them ?

[Scarlette]

Lol!

[cherish1303]

I have had the same feeling as you have. Being out with friends and being uncomfortable in your own skin is hard to deal with. Don't panic. You are on the right track. Just remember patients and perseverance will pay off. This wont happen over night but everyday will be closer to the goal. Even if you don't feel like it, your body is changing everyday that you eat right and stay on track. Cant wait to see your after photos!

[SarahW]

It's a horrible feeling. I always have a wardrobe crisis cuz I feel so fat and untrendy compared to most of my friends. There they are, stick thin and able to wear what ever they like. Then there's me usually in the same old thing (black pants or jeans, black top of some description) feeling like a porky pile of crap! I usually end up getting quite drunk early on in the night, just to give me some confidence. I don't seem to care when I'm drunk and will dance and have fun. If I was sober I would be stood in the corner. Sad but true.

The funny thing is, a lot of my slimmer friends are envious of my boobs. I don't think anyone is ever totally happy with themselves, especially us women!! My friends go mad at me for how I slag myself off but I can't help it

I'll be honest, I haven't found P1 easy at times and did fall off the wagon on Monday night when I ate out but other than that, I've proper fought my cravings. I use the thought of being slimmer and not feeling this way to spur me on. It's been a long couple of weeks lol.

[SarahW]

on a related note... I want my man Boobs gone... Any one want them ?

LOL!

[Meizer]

lol! yournotinterested: we call them 'MOOBS' around here! You'll get to where you want to be, I'm sure. You just keep at it.

Sarah, FF? Wow, I can't even imagine. It seems those who have them don't want them and those who don't, do. Funny, eh? I just find that suit jackets and other certain clothing items actually hang on my frame a little bit better with the added cup size. Oh well, it'll be back to padded bras for me again if it all goes away while on SB. Such is life.

Stick with it Sarah and you'll get where you want to be too.

Meizer