"Running when no one is chasing you, lifting heavy objects that don't need to be moved." Tried treadmill, exercise bikes, mall walking, dog walking, weight training, circuit training - just cannot get over the boredom of it all. Tried MP3 for music or a book on tape, and I slowed down to nearly a halt because I found movement distracting to the enjoyment of what I was listening to! (Cannot walk and chew gum? Hmm . . .) Enrolled in Aerobic Dance/Jazzercise classes for 8 weeks - didn't get results and hated going. Tried volleyball, tennis, golf, and bowling. Hated it. Well, bowling was OK, but that was probably just the pizza and beer feature. Tried YOGA. That was positively the worst. I kept saying to myself - "How long do we just have to STAND here? Let's get on with it!" Swimming was a disaster. I was unable to force myself to endure the ritual of driving to the pool-changing into/changing out of swimwear, and of being cold and damp when I didn't enjoy the swimming part with the itchy red eyes, plugged ears/ear plugs, and dry hair and skin. And no weight loss after all that?
Bought a step for step areobics, a Pilates Ball, Rubber bands, free weights, and a Universal gym - could not force myself to use them for more than 6 to 8 weeks -either on my own with a video, or in a class at a gym. While I complete classes, I have walked away from untold dollars in memberships. I have never lost a pound while enrolled in an exercise program. Since I don't have trouble walking or climbing stairs in the first place, any gain in "fitness" wasn't noticable.
However, I don't mind packing boxes, carrying them up and down the stairs, etc. that I did as a part-time job once. I have the need to be DOING SOMETHING - thinking about organizing the stuff plus the physical labor made the time fly!
Maybe I should get a job with UPS?
And a question, no matter how long and how hard I exercised = with and without the benefit of a personal trainer, I have never experienced the "endorphin rush" that people say they get that makes exercise addictive. People also tell me that exercise makes them feel energized and ready to go out on the town! All I ever feel is disgusted and want to get in the shower then go straight to bed.
Is it possible that I lack the endorphin hormone? I am I the only person who feels this way? It seems like it would be so easy to be fit and trim if I could find something to look forward to, that I want to make time for, rather then dread, blow-off, then feel guilty about. I am definitely more stressed and a less happy person while on an exercise program - just ask my friends!
I am concerned that as I age, my lack of exercise will eventually be my undoing.
Sorry if this sounds so negative. I actually laugh at myself about it and hope you get a laugh out of it as well. And thanks for the space to rant. It felt rather good.
