So, after eating a brownie and a little potato salad last week, I committed and succeeded to total SBD perfection for the next days until...
... I made a big mistake. I got on the scale and saw that I GAINED two pounds, which means that in the two months that I've been on the SBD I have only lost a total of two pounds.
How discouraging! My clothes don't feel looser, so I can't treat myself to the thought that I've gained muscle. I really wanted to just quit the whole thing. I mean, eating this way is definitely not causing me to suffer. In fact, I like the way I eat less and am not hungry ever. I love not having to cater to my frivolous cravings.
But, while I'm not suffering, I'm definitely making huge sacrifices. I took my kids to Stone Cold Creamery the other day and I ate nothing. I peel the bread off my burger when we go to a cookout, which is kind of embarrassing and messy. Some kids were selling fresh squeezed lemonade and I was thirsty, but I just offered a donation instead.
See, a couple of months ago I would have said yes to all of those pleasures in life, but I'm choosing to say NO because I want the pleasure of being thin again. A well-worth-it sacrifice, for certain.
But for TWO pounds? Hardly a reward if you ask me.
Then yesterday I blew it big. It started at lunchtime when I served my kids fresh corn on the cob and there was a piece left. I ate it. Then I ate some toffee a friend sent me in the mail. Then I ate some organic brownies I had stashed away for my kids. Then I ate... well, you get the picture.
The morning I woke up and my entire insides were on Red Alert! My body knows I did something awful and it's in a panic. I crave cereal, and chips, and orange juice. A peanut butter and jelly sandwich!!! Must have NOW!!!!
But no. I made scrambled eggs with Canadian bacon and some steamed asperagus. I'm going to try returning to phase one to make the cravings stop. It may not take a whole week, but I may do it for a week anyway.
So, let's assume I get it together. Let's assume that my weight is 146 today and I stay loyal to the SBD for the next month. If on July 6 I am not feeling satisfied with the amount of work I've done for the amount of weight I've lost, then I'm going to reconsider this diet altogether.
But what other diet is there?
I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.