Finding My Collar Bones

[smay]

Been struggling with weekend eating. I do well on the weekdays, but when the weekend comes around I have problems. Just going to take it one day at a time, though I feel so flaky about it.

Got a good run in last night. Did week 4 day 1 of the program. I think I'm done skipping ahead days now. I was sweaty and beat after that run. I had to grocery shop afterwards and I was happy to have a cart to hold my old rear up!

Registered for community ed yoga this morning. 6 weeks, once a week, and it's in the evenings. Her regular regular studio hours didn't work with my schedule, so I was excited to find a class time that did. Before I had kids I regularly went to her classes, and am excited to go back! It's an Ashtanga Beginners class, which is good since it's been too long since I've went to a class. I'm hoping for a little toning/firming.

[Kyan]

Ooooo Smay - yoga! Awesome! And you already know the teacher and like the class - that will be great! It sounds to me like you are really doing good... don't be too hard on yourself! (((((Hugs)))))

[JeffInJax]

Weekend eating can be rough, believe it or not i actually eat too little on the weekends =/ I sit there and get paranoid since i dont have a plan (i only plan food really) then ill eat too much, and at the end of the weekend i look back and realize i didnt eat enough! We're kinda backwards

Yoga sounds like fun and good for you too. I never actually have tried it before, maybe one day ill go to a non-ratty gym thats a little more expensive and actually has classes like that of some type.

[Kyan]

Jeff, you would love yoga! There are quite a few guys at my candlelight yoga class. I think either last week or the week before there were more guys than ladies! (Or at least 50% dudes!)

[smay]

Things have been going good in my world, thankfully. Still avoiding standing on the scale, but not feeling too terrible about myself. Wore my skinny jeans yesterday, not to be confused with my "skinny jeans that I need to weigh probably 5 lb. less than I do right now to feel comfortable in" jeans, but my actual skinny jeans that taper to the ankles jeans. My thighs didn't feel ginormous, so I was happy, and I didn't even wear my knee-high boots with them! I would prefer the other jeans to be comfy, but I'm not back there yet.

Yoga started last week, and I have class tonight again. It was so nice going back. I haven't went to a formal class since before having my oldest, and he's 5 now. Went to the gym and did the elliptical last night. Just haven't felt like running lately. My parents are bringing me their old treadmill next week when they visit, so I'm hoping to get back to running on a better schedule when I don't have to leave the house.

Food has been on target for 10 solid days now, with no cheating, which, honestly is a big deal for me. I probably haven't ate this "clean" since I re-did P1 last August. I guess the reality of swimsuit season has hit me full-force, and I seem to have regained my will-power against food. I do feel hungry a lot though. I am eating when I'm hungry like I should, but I am wishing I didn't feel so hungry in the first place.

I have a ton of baking to do this week for my son's school's annual auction/fundraiser, but I am planning to keep my fingers out of the baked goods. Also, we still have probably 5 lb. of easter candy (all of which is chocolate based) sitting in the house courtesy of the in-laws. Haven't cheated!

I really do need to update more frequently, and visit some journals too, so I'm going to do it right now!

[SBMike]

5 pounds of easter candy left??? You poor dear. PLease visit my website, it has complete instructions on how to open the bags of candy so that you can access what's inside.

Good to see a success story - thanks for sharing!

[smay]

Hey Mike! Sadly, I know all to well how to open candy wrappers. Chocolate is a huge weakness of mine, but at the moment, I feel more strongly about fitting into my pants!

Rough day today. Found out yesterday that a former co-worker of mine past away. Found out today that he took his own life. Just a crappy situation. Funeral is Saturday, so me and husband will be going. I'm a comfort eater, so it's been a struggle today, especially since I am knee deep doing my baking for the school auction. Lots of temptation, but I'm still holding strong. Also, I really want to bake a pumpkin pie. Every fall, he and I would have a pumpkin pie baking contest to see who had the better pie. I'm an excellent baker, but I almost always lost to him. He made good pie.

[Chris55]

How sad! I guess it's good that you have a project to keep you busy, but keeping your fingers out of the batter is going to be tough. Sipping tea or chomping on gum might help. Every time something like this happens, I look around at my family and count my blessings.

Hope you find some peace and can bring some comfort to his family.

[bethy]

Oh, smay. Salty tears in your batter. Sincerest condolences.

[Kyan]

Hey Smay!!

I'm so sorry about your former co-worker! My dad's best friend's son just killed himself last week and I was telling a friend of mine and it turns out that her husband's friend from high school did too. It must be a very hard time for a lot of people right now. Soooo sad.

I'm glad to hear that the Beach is going well for you, though! You will be back to where you were in no time!

By the way... I am always hungry, too. No matter how much I eat! I could eat half a cow (cannibalism! Eek!) and a garden of veggies for dinner and be hungry a half hour later. What the heck????

[SharleyBloom]

I hope today finds you happy and healthy and determined and stress free.
What will you do today to keep beachy?

[smay]

I know it's only Sunday afternoon, but I'm considering the weekend to be "survived" and a success. Went to a friend's daycare fundraiser on Friday night and basically ate dinner before going there, as there was practically nothing beachy being served. Had a bun-less cheeseburger and water there. Saturday morning was the funeral, and I have to say, it was one of the nicest funerals I've been too. I was very impressed by the pastor. He brought the suicide into the open during his homily and related it to dying of a broken mind, just like someone would die of a broken heart if they had a heart-attack. No condemnation. It was quite beautiful, and I hope that it helps his family. Husband and I skipped the church lunch and went out to eat instead. Went to our favorite Mexican place and I enjoyed fajitas without the tortillas, and completely bypassed the chips. Had a few hours at home before the school fundraiser started, and I got to veg in sweats. Then got dressed up again to go out for the night. We didn't win my son's class basket on the silent auction (we decided we would go up to $100 and it went for $120), but we did take home another "gourmet" basket that was sports themed. Watched a bunch of the live auction, which was crazy. Most of the bidding on items started at $1000. My only indiscretion of the night was a beer. Not a light beer though, since I don't understand why anyone would willingly drink light beer. I enjoyed my Schell's Dark. In-law's left this afternoon, but not after brining a dozen bakery rolls/donuts into the house for breakfast, including my weakness of apple fritters. My FIL shoved 3 dang apple fritters in the box. I DID NOT EVEN TOUCH ONE, and thankfully all 3 have now been consumed. Had a good lunch today of grilled pork chops, oven roasted asparagus, and coleslaw. And we have enough left over for dinner tonight, so I get to be lazy (outside of the massive amounts of laundry I need to do) for the rest of the day.

I'm thinking of stepping on a scale sometime this week. I do plan to indulge once this week, as I turn the big 35 on Wednesday.

[Kyan]

OOooooo birthday coming up! My twins's birthday is tomorrow!

What are you going to do to celebrate? Hopefully go out to dinner? And if so - where?

[SBMike]

Wow, you are doing amazingly well! And happy birthday!

I remember 35. I wish I had never left it.

[smay]

I am spoiled. My husband is taking the day off on Wednesday and is going to smoke me ribs! I'll make my beachy calico beans to go with them, but use regular bacon instead of that turkey crap. And for the last 2 hours of rib cooking, the dutch oven of beans will sit below the ribs in the smoker. :drool: And we'll have some beachy coleslaw and my beachy bbq sauce to go with it all. Dessert is still up in the air though. I have to figure out if I'm going to bake myself a cake or not. My parents will be coming for a visit too (they live 7+ hours away, and it will be the first birthday I've spent with them in years) so if I make a cake, we won't have too many left-overs.

Still haven't ventured to the scale, but did consider it today.