Well, I wasn't sure if I was going to start a journal or not, but since I seemed to be talking to basically myself on the fitness thread I was involved in and my P2 thread is really slow too, I guess I'll just talk to myself in my own spot!
About 4 years ago my collar bones left me. At first, I thought they were just taking a short vacation and would be back soon. Since I knew they weren't going far, I didn't think to look for them, or report them missing. Every once and a while I would intensify the search, but would give up after a week or two. I would tell myself that I didn't have the money, resources, or time to find them, and that I knew that one day they would be back. Honestly, my heart just wasn't in the search. I just wasn't ready to find them, until now.
Here's my long story on how I lost my collar bones... I got married a little over 5 years ago. After a year of sharing an apartment, and paying off our wedding, my husband and I bought our first house. Once we moved in, we immediately started trying to have a family. I got pregnant right away, but 8 weeks later it ended with surgery to resolve an ectopic. I fell into a depression and gained about 10 pounds in 3 months, because I just didn't care and ice cream made me feel better. Shortly after we had the go-ahead from the doctor to try again, I got pregnant with our son. After I was done being miserably sick for 16 weeks, the only thing I wanted to eat was chicken strips and fries with honey mustard. Needless to say, I gained a lot of weight with that pregnancy. For some reason, I figured it would just kind-of melt off after having him. I've never had an easy time with my weight, so I have no idea what I was thinking? I didn't go back to work after having our 1st, so I had no drive to get back into my work clothes. I just kinda bummed around in sweats, and cooked and baked a lot. Also, with us cutting our income in half, I dropped my gym membership. I tried counting calories, but found that to be a big hassle. I tried the Special K diet, but was starving all the time. I didn't stick to anything, and honestly, it was because I really didn't "want it" enough. I wasn't ready. A few months after my son turned one, we started trying again, and were soon pregnant with our daughter. Amazingly with her, I didn't gain much and lost it all within a few weeks. I thought after she was born that I was ready to lose the weight. We had decided that our family was complete. I joined the fitness center at my husband's work, and diligently went there 2-3 times a week for an entire year. In that year, I gained 10 pounds... Finally, one day this year in the middle of January, just days before my baby's 1st birthday, I decided I was done. I was done being heavy. I was done not having collar bones. I needed to do something immediately and the change needed to be drastic. I made a poor decision and started Atkins. I lost about 10 pounds in the course of a month, but I hated food. I hated exercise. I hated cooking for my family. I knew I couldn't continue, but didn't know where else to go. My brother-in-law's wife mentioned South Beach when we were talking about Atkins. I researched, and very soon after, made the switch.
I've now been on the beach since the middle of February. I'm very happy with what I've been eating, and cooking for my family. I'm fully in P2, down about 20 pounds now, and consistently losing 1.5-2 lb. a week. I still work out 2-3 times a week, and am starting strength training now to tone up as well. Ideally, I'd love to lose another 30, but if I don't, so be it! My goal isn't so much related to the numbers on the scale. It's to find my collar bones again.
Eating beachy since February 2010.