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[jhderm]

Mary Ann

You are the best. Thank you for the support re attitude. I am going to start going to OnaMi for lessons

Good day yesterday- PT had me work out 30min so hard I was sweating in the end, all simple stuff you can do at home.
Today, I am SORE. Scale still not moving

Will keep going- scale MUST budge at some point, right? Suddenly, even though I don't eat much, it LOOKS too much on paper (since the scale is stuck). Everything is relative, said Einstein.

Be back later. Have a wonderful warm FL day.

Judi

[jhderm]

Scale doesn't budge. Ready to scream! but NOT ready to give up. Will go to OnaMi for brainwashing session lol

[Beaching It]

Yah my stupid scale doesn't budge either, no matter what... blah! Oh well, I continue to plug on as you do. Sounds like you're doing awesome with the PT!! Good for you. Exercise makes me feel sooooo good, so even if the scale doesn't move, I still feel awesome.

[jhderm]

And still the scale doesn't budge.
I am eating about 7-8 oz protein, 1-2 fruit max and veggies, no starches.
WHY?..oh WHY?.... am I in P0 (anyone remember that? started that thread a long time ago).

Hope everyone is doing well.
Lisa, I wish I could be like you and LOVE to do MORE exercise, although right now, I am doing a lot 2-3 times a week.
Will NOTHING make a difference?

OK. Vent over. Back to eating right...

[OnaMi]

Judi, don't beat yourself up so much (hug) that scale will drive us crazy if we let it. you're doing everything right and will find that balance of the correct amount to eat in order to lose.keep looking for answers and working the Plan.Sent you a PM. keep on fighting!!!!!

[masm2]

Hey Judi,

I hope you had a good weekend. DD went back to school yesterday. She starts a part-time job today so I am not sure if she will be able to come home at the next break. Plus she starts an internship this summer-so this spring break was special to me. I was glad that we were able to take our little trip together.

My fiber experiment has been going on now for 2 weeks. I think I am going to continue to take 2 capsules before each meal with a big glass of water. I have not felt bloated at all and I am eating less at each meal. DD felt that it helped her with her IBS symptoms. I did read that if you take any prescriptions that you should take the meds 2 hours before or 2 hours after the fiber. I guess that would be the same advice for vitamins.

Take care,
Mary Ann

[jhderm]

I am depressed. Did great all week, then started slipping Fri night (patient brought a big plate of cookies, at some after everyone left and I stayed to finish writing charts and was hungry and lonely...). Did OK on Saturday but Sunday night had diet candy for dinner, way too many. Did OK Monday, but exDH visited last night and brought sugar free candy and almonds, definitely not in my plans but had some of both (way too many almonds). So at the end of the night, I lost it and ate 3 (not one, not too but 3) English Muffins. First starch I lost it with in a very long time. This is why I stall, it takes a sustained effort and no slips to keep moving.

I am also stressed out about my dog, she has some persistant cough that the vet can't figure out why. XRay clear, but cough doesn't respond completely to antibiotics. She may or not have bouts of "collapsed trachea", doesn't show on XRay or on echo she had but there is some minimal narrowing at one place- I don't think that's what it is though. So I am distressed every time I hear the cough.
Also, I was so sore the whole weekend I could hardly move- the PT worked me out very hard, I think too hard and I didn't feel like moving for 2 days after.
I am also feeling stressed out by DS's career issues, promoting his music, taking or not taking on an agent and who that should be, etc etc etc. Just too much.

So I don't know. Life seems pretty dull between work work work, being Mommy (the only part that brings joy) and not much else on the personal level. Didn't know it will be this way. I think aging and loneliness are horrible prospects to look forward to as the future.

Sorry for the gloom- but had to put it out there some place.

[Chris55]

Hugs, Judi! It's so hard to be a parent, even when you have a partner. My hat goes off to you for raising a together talented kid. But he's ONLY a freshman, ease up. I know the competition there must be insane, but let him learn and grow, get experience performing, and don't sweat the promotion stuff so much. He may need an agent for gigs, but for selling CD's there are plenty of online options these days.

So, if you're going to cheat, why English muffins, lol! I know, they were there and you don't normally think of them as unhealthy. I'm saying this while I'm staring at a loaf of Italian bread. Give me strength!!

We need to find better ways of pampering ourselves when we're depressed. I'm not doing so well here, either, job hunting is mega frustrating. Would love to go back to grad school but we're too under water financially for that to happen, and I'm getting a bit old to be postponing everything until we can get our finances in order. So for now, just hanging in there, doing volunteer work, improving my computer skills, and hoping I get a break somewhere. But keeping my hands out of the bread and cookies is very very difficult. I'm with you, Judi!!

[masm2]

Ditto to everything Chris said. I am sorry the vet can't seem to help your dog. Hopefully, the coughing will stop on its own soon.

Hang in there and start today fresh.

Take care,
Mary Ann

[jhderm]

Hi Chris, MaryAnn

Well, yes, why English Muffins?.....bec it's all that was there (and not that fresh either). It was just a bout of self attack as a result of all the stress and the plateau.

I am of both minds re DS's music- bec he is so young, it's good to promote it now, as he stands out....and bec he will most likely be around and keep going, maybe it's easiest to take the pressure off myself and let it be...but I am not sure it't the best for him.

The dog....we LOVE her, and I hope she will be OK. DS would be devastated if not.

Chris, the cookie jar will not help you find a job (if anything, on the contrary....) so better if you are able to stay away. Put it out of sight, that's what I try to do. Easier said than done, right?
I just want to get rid of 15 lbs and feel better. Is that SO much to ask for?

[Chris55]

I want to get rid of 20!! I just got home from my computer class and am unwinding with a glass of red wine and snacks. So far have had some leftover turkey breast and some almonds, but they're my second portion for the day. Better than the crackers and bread that are calling to me, though!

I am soooo frustrated with the job hunting. My computer class is going at a snail's pace, which is good at times and bad when we get bogged down because one of the math phobic people can't handle Excel. Ugh! Not happy about the prospect of starting at the bottom of the salary rung again. Really pissed that I'm actually bragging about my typing ability, whereas years ago I told employers I couldn't type because I didn't want to be stuck in a dead-end job. So much for women's progress. But even entry level work isn't looking so promising. Thus the wine and two servings of nuts. Your English muffins were probably fewer calories, but at least I'm not triggering carb cravings. So I'm joining you with the stressed out mid-life crisis. A few more sips of wine and off to try and get some sleep.

[masm2]

Hey Judi,

I will also say hello to Chris here too!

Stress is no fun. I just want to say that I seem to handle it much better when I am eating right. Comfort foods seem to not be so comforting to me after all. I like to be 100% beachy, but honestly that does not happen. I know tonight will be pizza and beer, and tomorrow I will have a PI breakfast.

I hope we all have a good weekend and we all stay strong together!

Take care,
Mary Ann

[JeffInJax]

Oh Judi, where oh where can you be? I get a few minutes to post finally and you're not here for me to harass a little

On a serious note though, the scale is stuck for me as well right now, try not to get frustrated and remember this is a long term program, not one of those you lose it fast but end up gaining it back even faster. Stay strong, stay motivated and keep it beachy

[Beaching It]

Hey Judi, hope you're doing well. I could relate to your comment about the last 15 pounds... I hear ya on that one! I'm so tired of spinning my wheels. All my vacations don't help anything either. I know you don't feel sorry for me on that one.

Hope Michael is doing well with the music. That's so exciting.

[masm2]

Hey Judi,

Just stopping in to say-we miss you!

Take care,
Mary Ann