Tired of being Tired

[Chris55]

Thinking about you, Maureen! Hope things are going OK with your little guy. ((((Hugs!))))

[Beaching It]

Happy Mother's Day Maureen!! Glad to hear on FB that your little guy did so well with his surgery this week!! How did you do with the visit and the food? Hope you're enjoying a wonderful weekend.

[happymo4]

Happy Mother's Day to you girls too! I had a great day on Sunday! Beau did awesome with his surgery which surprised everyone! We came home the night after actually after convincing the doctors that we could care for him at home just as well! My other daughter had surgery on Friday and did well also to remove 2 birthmarks that were changing and have always bothered her and she did well too so I am remotivated! Now that the surgeries are done, I feel like a weight has been lifted and I can concentrate on my health and it has been going well for the past few days. I did 2 workout classes yesterday then came home and ran 3 miles with DH. I was phase 1 except for 1/2 banana and some watermelon. I woke with a headache and dreamed of italian food all night long so I might make zucchini lasagna tonight. It was crazy! I was dreaming that I would walk into the kitchen and open up the fridge and it was filled with all kinds of pasta with cheese sauce and tomato sauces and meatballs! I must have opened the fridge in my dream about 5 times! lol! SO I just did a body combat class which was awesome and another 15 minutes on the elliptical. Going to clean and make soup and zucchini lasagna. Drinking a ton of water too!
Wt was 146.2 lbs which isn't great but better than its been lately so at least it is going down!

[happymo4]

This is my third day on phase 1 plus fruit and I am feeling healthier but kind of irritable. I am craving a soda so badly but I am not going to have one. I know that it will not make me feel better because sodas are the reason I am here to begin with and I definitely was not happier when I was drinking them. I am weighed 145.8 lbs so I am down another day which is encouraging. I know that I will go back up but I have to keep in mind that the trend will be down if I stick with it. My jeans don't feel as uncomfortable which is good. They still don't feel great but at least not as tight as before! I can't wait to feel good again! Gotta go drink some water and workout.

[happymo4]

So I am on my 4th day of no soda and doing P1 plus fruit which I guess is technically phase 2. I feel better today than yesterday and I have more energy and no headache. I actually went down another .2 lbs which I really did not think would happen. They had 12 packs of soda on sale at the grocery store and I just walked right by them thinking how good I am going to feel when they are totally out of my life! I played tennis for awhile today and tomorrow I am hopefully going to run and do a bodypump class then I go to DS's school for his mother's day party. I can't wait to go, especially after everything we have been through together. He brings tears to lots of eyes when he does his little part and I feel so proud that he is my special little boy. I have tons of vegetables in the fridge and I am excited to eat them. I am so relieved that I feel better today and I can't wait to feel even better the longer I stick with this WOE and make it my natural way WOE! Wt. was 145.6 lbs today. Can't wait to get under 145. I am sooooo tired of losing the same lbs over and over again !! gggrrrrrr...Need to say goodbye to them for good this time!

[jhderm]

Maureen, you are on a serious good streak! I generally live on P1 plus fruit (minus almonds and other fats). It's not so bad at all. But when I go OFF, I do it w just the opposite of what I normally don't touch.

I admire the exercise you are doing, I am SO lazy it's not funny. Have to find a way to get myself STARTED.

But I am inspired by what you are doing. I am also tired of losing the same lbs over and over. The difference is, now I am oscillating 20lbs higher than 15 years ago (before DS was born).

Keep up the good energy. Hope DD's moles were fine. If you were in NY, I could have helped you w those

[happymo4]

HI Judi! SO nice to hear from you! Yes, I am on a good streak finally. I am eating well and definitely prioritizing my workouts. I feel like a different person than just last week. I have only lost about 3.4 lbs so far but yesterday 3 different people told me that I looked good. They didn't ask if I lost weight, they just said that I looked good and I really think it is because I am happier that I am in control now and I don't feel as anxious or guilty for eating badly or drinking soda. I jumped out of bed this morning and hurried up to go to the gym before anyone else woke up and it felt so awesome. When I was in my funk, I would just lay there not wanting to start my day and I would give up before I even got out of bed. It was awful. I know a lot of my positive thinking has to do with my son making it through his surgery so well and having that stress done with. Now I just have normal stress and I am coping with it in other ways than eating. My daughter's surgery went well too. She was under general anesthesia for 2 hours which I thought was long but the plastic surgeon is supposedly very good and thorough. They had to remove a large birthmark called a congenital hairy nevus on her front thigh and they thought they would have to do a skin graft but luckily they did it without. She has a huge bruise though and a really tough raised bruise right under the incision that I might call about on Monday.
I am still 20 lbs heavier than I should be but I am moving in the right direction and seeing that even though it is going so slowly, it is going. I am looking more forward to the summer since I am starting to feel better. Life is too short to wait to restart. I want to feel comfortable in my body when I see people instead of feeling self-conscious. If I know that I am making smart choices, I will be rid of the guilt and more at peace. I felt stronger today at the gym on Saturday than I did on Monday which is such a motivator. I can feel my muscles twitching and growing which is much better than my extra layer of fat just sitting there without purpose making me mad and sad. Have a great weekend everyone! Going to drink my water and eat my veggies!
My weight today was 145.0 lbs which is down again and it shocked me because I had a slight cheat of 3/4 slice cheese pizza and I enjoyed every bite of it. My old self would have probably 2 1/2 slices and some fries and soda or beer. I had 3/4 slice pizza, salad, and water! So much better than giving in totally and feeling guilty and full and I still lost! So excited!

[happymo4]

So I made it 7 whole days without a soda!! I am so proud of myself. I didn't think that I could do it and I almost caved a couple of times but I made it through the week and I feel so good about it. It was such a habit for me to get a soda when I was stressed, happy, sad, driving in car, first thing in the morning, etc.....I really hope that I can stick with it. Someone told me 21 days to break a habit so I am a third of the way there already. The hardest day was the first day and the fourth day. Now I am on day 8. Don't even want one right now.
My weight was 145.0 which brings me down 3.4 lbs for the week. I was hoping to be under 145 and I was sooooo close but maybe by next week. Man it takes a lot longer to lose weight the older you get. I am working so hard at the gym and eating so well. I need to be happy with any kind of loss though because at least I finally had the willpower to restart. My DH and I are supposed to golf with a few other couples on Saturday and then have dinner and I have a nurse for my son so I am so happy to have some fun, social plans but I get anxious about how heavy I feel, especially if people are watching my golf, so I really need to do well this week. My golf shorts were a little snug last time I tried them on so hopefully, with these few lbs. off, I will feel more comfortable. I think that just 5 days of eating healthy before my date will make me feel different, even if the weight doesn't come off, I can feel more toned if I get my workouts in. I will also watch my salt intake more closely even though I don't use a ton of it anyway. Also, lots and lots of water should help! I am off to a pilates class and then maybe a treadmill workout and then cleaning my messy house before the kids get home. Gotta get moving on this rainy Monday!

[happymo4]

My weight was 144.8 lbs today. I am so excited to get under the 145 number finally. My eating has been really good and I am still soda free! That is my biggest accomplishment so far since this restart. I can't remember the last time I went a whole week without having a soda. I don't even want one right now which is also huge for me. I am craving salad and especially peppers and onions this week, also anything that is hot and spicy. Maybe to take the place of my soda bubbles! I just did a body combat class and might go back later to do a body flow class because my back feels so tight now. I really need to stretch a little more. Pilates felt good yesterday and made me realize that the stretch is just as important as the fast paced moving and muscle pumping! Gonna go get some water and have my chipolte turkey and black beans with a big green salad. YUM! Oh, and I wore a t-shirt today and it felt like it fit better than last week! Very motivating.....

[happymo4]

So my weight was up a smidge today to 145.2 lbs and I was disappointed at first because I am eating really well and exercising a ton but then I started to think about how much better I feel waking up every morning without guilt due to my eating habits. I feel proud and motivated and am grateful that I somehow found the energy to do this again. I am on my 11th day without a soda and I feel so good about that! I am not really thinking about it much anymore so I think that habit is slowly fading away. I am drinking a ton of water and occasional green tea without sweetener. I don't feel smaller in general but I feel more toned and like I am standing taller. I also have a little more energy at night which is great. My kids are eating healthier too which makes me even happier! They loved the south beach chicken parmesean, it definitely feels like a cheat meal. We had that with spaghetti squash and a large mixed green salad. SOOoooo Yummy! Gonna have leftovers today and maybe make some black bean soup. Gotta run, I need to go to my son's IEP. I played tennis for a workout this morning and I have to say that I am so much more energetic on the court now that I cut back on the sugar. I move faster and feel stronger when I eat for health rather than emotions!

[mrsgjr]

Hi Maureen!!! SO Awesome to see people I know and doing well. Stopping by to sprinkle a Lil' Love so ... *sprinkle-sprinkle*!!

[happymo4]

Hi Wanda! What a nice surprise to see you here! I have been in and out and I have to say that I do much better when I check in here to see how everyone is doing. I am proud to say that I am 19 days pepsi free so far! That is a long time for me to go without any kind of soda and I feel so good about it. I used to wake up and have a pepsi first thing since I don't drink coffee so I would start my day feeling guilty but now I start my day with water and exercise. I thought that I would lose a good amount of weight from just cutting the soda out but it is not coming off as quickly as I thought. I am doing a lot of weights so maybe I am just building lots of muscle! I feel stronger and faster when I exercise and I definitely don't feel as bloated. My weight was 144.4lbs which is better than the beginning of the month but not my best. It is coming off slowly but at least it is not going up right now. I gotta stick with this this time! Going to drink my water and eat my veggies!

[Beaching It]

I am still 20 lbs heavier than I should be but I am moving in the right direction and seeing that even though it is going so slowly, it is going. I am looking more forward to the summer since I am starting to feel better. Life is too short to wait to restart. I want to feel comfortable in my body when I see people instead of feeling self-conscious

Wow Maureen!! Where have I been??? I've been missing all of this... I'm so glad to be back and motivated, and to have read all your posts. I can totally relate to your post quoted here. I feel like you and I are kindred spirits. We came on this board right at the same time, and seem to keep pace with each other, except you're 10 1bs lighter than me right now. I feel very self-conscious right now too... it's a horrible feeling - one I haven't had for a long while, and one I really don't want!! So I'm starting P1 tomorrow and kicking it in the rear (once again). I'm so glad you are here and have kicked the soda habit. I turn to Perrier with lemon when I want the bubbles. It helps me out a lot.

Checking in again with you tomorrow.

[Beaching It]

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