Thank you everyone for your kind words! It was a long week and I felt so blessed to come back to the ones that are cheering me on

I have missed you all more than you may ever know
Work and home have been stressful and just taken me off my game a bit but this week is a new week. My s-i-l and DH had some words last week but not enough for me. Don't want arguments but civil conversations so that we are aware of the situation in its entirety. My view/thoughts initially were, "What if it were my sister/brother?!" Indeed I would want DH to be there for me and my family so this is why I felt we needed to open the door. God blessed us so that we were able to do that and I will let His will be done. HOWEVER, when will this end? There is no plan in place and even though I don't reflect this in my eating, I consider myself to be an organized person. I've worked since I was 15, going to school and working 2 jobs at one point, lived on my own since 18 as I became a parent early and have responsibility to my husband for 13yrs now. She is single, no children, and works each day at a decent salary but can't seem to organize her finances at all. There have been times where I have been down and may have needed to reach out to family but feel somewhat taken advantage of at this point. Just a little bit further, my b-i-l & his 2 boys used to live together so the boys (well one until next week) will be here as they start school next week. I have prayed that He allow me relief in knowing this is His will so that I can be comfortable with the situation. We do love our family but have been used to 3 of us and now there are 6 which is putting a strain on both finances and patience. I ask for prayer and deliverance, Amen!
A little bit of positivity. We have the air & water show in Chicago around this time each year and it was this past weekend. On Friday when my meetings were over, my God-daughters came over for the weekend. Each year I do something with them and they are now 10, 11 & 3 (new one

. So this year we decided to go the this event which is CRAZY crowded but is free so thought, hey, what a better deal can you get?! We packed up a nice picnic lunch and were headed down for the 10:am-4:pm show at 8:am arriving around 8:30 to claim our spot for the day. Even though the day started out a bit warm, right after 11am it broke and what a beautiful day for an air & water show. It was still crowded but we got a Great spot right in front of the water under a shaded tree, the kids napped as they got up around 6:30am, ate, enjoyed the show and didn't depart until 4:15pm. While it was a long day, I haven't had a more relaxing day in such a long time it was awesome
On 8/3&10 I gained a lb, so a lb each week. Yesterday, I'd lost those 2lbs! I know that the scales don't measure your progress but felt good to know that I could still lose some lbs especially after you see my menu for last week

What has been going on are cravings. Even though I'm trying to make sure I include veggies and/or salads at least 3-4 days a week so that I have some intake, which has been a struggle. When they do come on, I don't get crazy but I do indulge and that wasn't so in the past weeks. Believe I've said in the past that I feel that alcohol triggers the cravings but haven't seemed to completely stop drinking. Not doing so every day but doing so on the weekends. Someone posted a question asking if you get enough food in on the weekend because you end up sleeping late, etc. and a response was: prepare more portions on Thursday and Friday so they are readily available. I think that was worth trying so will being this week doing that. We get up pretty early but then may lie back down but then I miss brekkie (which we know if my problem in the first place). So I hope this will work for me and will, of course, check back in on that but give me a few weeks to see how/if it does work.
Exercise was a total wash this past week

The good news is that I did get lots of walking in...on purpose. I know I was gone and doing lots of drinking but let me tell ya I'm not looking forward to the pain I just opened myself to! When I do the workout again, it's going to feel like the first time

Did it to myself though so can complain but then I'd have to blame me and that's no fun
Since I have LOTS of menu posting I'm going to end here. I wish you the bestest of Tuesday and hope your day and week is SB friendly filled
8/10/09
b-coffee w/ non-dairy creamer, equal (4), ww english muffin w/ pb & ICBNB
l-chipotle salad
d-turkey sausage w/ peppers, onions & garlic on rye bread (1 s)
s-sf vanilla pudding w/ lite cool whip
8/11/09
b-coffee w/ non-dairy creamer, equal (4)
l-chipotle salad (literally only 4 fork full’s..busy day)
d-pizza (sausage & cheese), 5sm squares
8/12/09
b-coffee w/ non dairy creamer, equal (4)
l-turkey blt on ww bread (1/2 of 1/2) and roasted red pepper chowder soup
s-pb & chocolate chip cookie, 1
d-chicken vesuvio, peas, 1 piece of bruschetta, 1/2 tomato & onion salad, 1/2 baby potato and a bottle of merlot
8/13/09
b-kashi blackberry graham cereal bar & coffee
l-au bon pain potato leek soup (sm)
d-beef sandwich (sm 1/2 roll), 1/2 c spanish rice, 1 chicken wing ding, sm side salad & several vodka tonics w/ lime
8/14/09
b-kashi blackberry graham cereal bar, starbucks grande iced skinny hazelnut latte
l-tavern on the park fish & chips (2 served but ate 1), 1 c of shoestring fries w/ glass of wine
d-hb helper stroganoff 1/3 cup
s-sf vanilla pudding w/ lite cool whip
s-ghyslain dark chocolate pistols
8/15/09
b-coffee w/ non dairy creamer, equal (4)
s-bag of chips 1oz
l-turkey sandwich w/ ff cheese on white bread
s-bag of chips 1oz
d-steak tacos on corn shell and 1 c of beef nachos & cheese
s-ghyslain dark chocolate pistols
8/16/09
b-coffee w/ non dairy creamer, equal (4)
l-turkey sandwich w/ ff cheese on white bread & bag of chips 1oz
d-grilled chicken wing dings marinated in lemon pepper and balsamic vinaigrette
s-ghyslain dark chocolate pistols
8/17/09
b-coffee w/ non dairy creamer, equal (4)
l-giordano's salad w/ balsamic vinaigrette dressing & 1 sm square of cheese/sausage pizza
d-baked chicken leg, onion, red pepper, green beans, 1 TBSP white rice and slice of garlic bread
s-sf hershey caramel candy 30 calories
8/18/09
b-missed completely
l-grilled chicken salad w/ tomatoes & ff cheese, balsamic vinaigrette dressing
d-baked chicken leg, onion, red pepper and green beans