Conquering the UNconquerable!!!

[brandywine1974]

Weight: 280

B: half of a ww english muffin/turkey sausage sandwich, V8, 1% milk. My appetite was not so good this am. I have never been much of a breakfast person and some days it still doesn't settle well with me.
S: walnuts, water
L: half of a multigrain pita with ham/swiss cheese/little bit of ranch, cherry tomatoes, cucumber slices, water
S: nectarine, 2 slices of swiss cheese, water
D: (Denny's) mushroom swiss burger/no bun, side salad with ranch/no croutons, ice tea.
S: 1% milk

Excercise:
Walk: 30 min
Yoga
Steps: 10160

[hikerchick]

Hi Brandywine, I just read through your journal and just wanted to point out that when you started in May you were struggling to break 300 and now only two months (and 12 pages later) you are breaking through 280. I completely understand *scale rage* (I liked that ) But from an observers perspective you are doing fabulous! I can relate to the rollercoaster emotions tho. I think it is interesting that your cycles have changed since losing weight... what we eat definitely does affect our hormones. Probably more than I like to think about...
I read something on your first page that I can relate too... I love to eat healthy (and feel good doing it) but I do so love junk food. How do you deal with cravings? I mean, I know that our blood sugar is more on the level to deal with the sugar cravings but I mean the psychological craving for junk food? Me thinks that is a key issue I need to deal with... have any words of wisdom?
You are doing better than you think and are inspiring others in the process. One day it's not going to be a battle but a flow, and we will just go with it!
BTW, I am a massage therapist but I am starting nursing school in (cough, cough) four weeks.(crapola!) I noticed you mentioned obesity in nursing on another thread, why don't we take care of ourselves?
Wow, I really laid a lot on you here! But I just wanted to point out that you are doing great!
~Wendy

[wickd03]

I will never be able to hear "Gimme Three Steps" again without thinking of you.......
Gonna cook something yum delish with them blaring this evening!
Come on by...I will set extra plates!

[brandywine1974]

Thanks Hikerchick!

Wickd, if I lived close you would be so sick of me showing up a dinner time.....you would probably throw your extra plates away. HAHAHAHA!

Weight: 279

B: ww enlish muffin with smart balance, swiss cheese, ls V8, 1% milk
S: walnuts, banana
L: half of a multigrain pita with swiss/ham/ranch, cucumber slices, cherry tomatoes, water
S: strawberrries, 1%, milk
D: (Red Chimney) turkey, pinto beans, salad/ranch, ice tea
S: 1% milk

Excercise:
Yoga
Steps: 10045

The nerves are starting to get to me about the surgery. My gastritis has been acting up the last 2 days. Anxiety always goes straight to my stomach. I may have to lay off of the nuts for a few days because they have really been bringing the stomach aggravation to a whole new level. Had to drink Mylanta in between surgeries at work today just to keep going. I will be soOOOOooooo glad to be back home and on the road to recovery....bugging the crap out of all of you because I am stuck at home with nothing else to do.

Today was one of those "if it can go wrong it will" days at work. Still despite this and the stomach issues I remained in a pretty decent mood. Just tired.

Peace,
B.

[hikerchick]

Hi Brandywine,
Thanks for your comments I agree about the nursing thing, we do tend to take care of others first. Gotta strike a balance, right? Not watching TV is a fabulous idea. I turn it on initially just for noise and then I find myself watching some crap like Bret Micheals Rock of Love. And the whole time saying "I can't believe I am watching this."

What is the date of your surgery? (Sorry to make you repeat yourself but I couldn't find where you said it) Those pacemakers are pretty interesting. Think of it as one step closer to being bionic woman

Hope your day is less acidy! Take care! Wendy

[brandywine1974]

Yeah, balance has never been my strengths. I have a bad habit of being an all or nothing kind of woman.
I am really working on that though.

Surgery is scheduled for 9:00 am on Wednsday the 5th of August. :insert vomiting emoticon here:

Stomach is still acting up a bit today. I know it is just stress and will pass. Interrupted my walk though. But when you gots to go you gots to go!!! Was going to do 30 but only made it 26 mins. Close enough.

Weight: 279. I only have 2 more days to drop that frickin' pound to reach my goal by the end of this week. It may not happen this week. BUT it will happen.

B: ww enlish muffin/swiss cheese, ls V8, 1% milk
S: apple, string cheese, water
L: (Mcdonald's) side salad with ranch, angus delux burger/no bun, ice tea
Early Dinner: hubby surprised me and picked me up at work to take me to dinner. How I love that man. (Pecos Diamond Steakhouse) grilled halibut, large salad, pinto beans, grilled zucchini, water
S: 1% milk

Excercise:
Walk: 26 min (hehehe)
Steps: 10921

Going to go take a bath and lay in be and watch "So You Think You Can Dance?"
Peace,
B

[southbeachedwhale]

good luck that 1 pound will be gone soon!!

[GrammaKD]

Brandy, Sending some sunny no-tummy-pain thoughts your way. Keep looking at the big picture of your new life...and you'll agree, you're doing great and right on schedule. Praying for your surgery; but I know God's got it all under control! Hugs.

[wickd03]

Hey there.....
Being a nurse makes for soooo many more jittery nerves before surgery....you know the things that can go awry....and to think they say being informed it a good thing....(not so much in this case.)

But!, you have a lot more things in your favor this go around...your weight is down a significant amt. Plain and simple.
Your fluid retention is less...and that is key.....
Be extra careful in the next days that your sodium intake is low.....you know all this but I have to say it to you too. Take time for your head also...do something you enjoy....TAKE ALICE FOR A SPIN!!!!!

I am thinking of you and wishing there was something more I could do to help you with the anxiety....

[brandywine1974]

OMG! They just called and cancelled my surgery because the open heart surgeon will not be available that day for back up. So the office girl said she would call me back tomorrow with a new date/time. If they only knew how much I am having to psych myself up to even show up for this surgery..................

Not to mention I spent the afternoon in human resources filling out all my leave of abscence paperwork...

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!! I just want to get this CRAP OVER WITH!!! I feel like being a big ol' crybaby.

[brandywine1974]

Thanks for the vote of confidence Mr. Whale! I don't think it is going to happen this week though. Stress level is TOO high. But soon enough....

Wickd, I adore you. I feel like you are my sister from another mister. I cannot wait for the day when we can meet in person.

Gramma....you are like a cozy sweater that always makes me feel better.

I feel better after doing my yoga. Just disappointed that this has to drag out even longer. Oh, well. Can't change it.

Weight: 280

B: ww english muffin/chedder cheese, V8, 1% milk
L: (Sonic) grilled chicken salad/ranch/tobasco, ice tea, pear
S: orange, string cheese
D: (Roja's) beef taco salad, water. Found a bone chip in the meat. Grossed me out. Couldn't eat after that. Sometimes meat disgusts me.
S: sleepy time tea, 1% milk

Excercise:
Yoga
Steps: 10017

[wickd03]

Good God...you have luck like me.....

[TMMBBW]

Awesome job! Isn't sleepy time tea the best? I just hot a pedometer, you've inspired me

[brandywine1974]

TMMBBW, my pedometer has been very enlightening and has definitely pushed me to UP my movement. It has been an invaluable tool for me.

Now for accountability.....
First off to Wickd: I realized today that it was the last day of my southbeach week and I failed to cook at all this week. This was not an intentional slip up. Time just got away from me and by the time I realized it today...I had already had 2 meals out.

Now to myself......today was not the most productive day in the world. I have been somewhat lax on my excercise this week. Today being basically my second "rest day". But we had a girls day out and I needed the mental health of it.

Weight: 280

B: (Pecos River Cafe) huevos rancheros (green) with pinto beans/salad, no tortilla or hash browns, V8, coffee, water
L: (Red Chimney) turkey, salad with ranch, pinto beans, ice tea
S: almonds, water
D: (Furr's) chopped beef patty with salsa, salad/ranch, black eyed peas, spinach, water
S: 1% milk

Excercise: none
Steps: 2231

[brandywine1974]

Weight: 279

B: ww enlish muffin/chedder cheese, ls V8, 1% milk
S: nf plain yogurt/blueberries
L: (Chili's) chili, salad/ranch/no croutons, ice tea
D: (Denny's) grilled chicken salad/ranch/no croutons, 2 grilled shrimp skewers, ice water
S: 1% milk

Excercise:
Walk: 40 min
Yoga...My 50th session!! I have never done 50 sessions of ANY excercise.
Steps: 10052