Okay, so I said I'd start a journal as one of my 5-week challenge goals, so here I am. Ta-da!!! This could get ugly, but I said I'd do it (in print, where many people could see it), so, here goes ...
I am 36, a wife of nearly 12 years and mom to 3 amazing kids - a son, 9, and boy/girl twins, 3. We live in an old house in SW Michigan, and I teach music at 2 elementary schols in the area. My husband's a band director and teaches private lessons in the evenings, so our lives our crowded with music, people, and constant activity.
I've used food as an emotional solace since way before high school, though I didn't dive fully into binging as a lifestyle until college. I gave up chocolate during high school in an attempt to control my out-of-control habits, and it did help - some (and yes, I still keep that up!). Unfortunately, I kept eating like a kid whose parents were out of town for the weekend, married someone who had no problem with that lifestyle, and off we went.
Three kids later and still 30-ish pounds heavier than is healthy for me, I am truly trying to make a new start. I originally started SBD in January of '06 - did a clean P1, lost a good bit of weight, then jumped into P2 based on the book's menus and have been struggling ever since. Many family issues (illnesses, deaths, divorces) have made it a stressful year, and I often dealt with the stress by diving into those comfort foods - for me, anything baked is my "drug" of choice, and we have some amazingly good bakeries and such around here. Also a Hostess outlet store directly between my two buildings.
I had done so well since doing a clean P1 about 4 weeks ago, but dove off big-time this past week and a half. I'm back on, and hoping this challenge will help keep me accountable and pointing the right way! I know I can do this, it's just the unlearning of a lifetime of crappy habits surrounding food that's taking me a while to learn. No excuses here, just plain old BIG learning curve on my part.
So, that's me in a nutshell, sort-of. I'm sure other things will surface (um, I'm often to be found on the game threads?), but feel free to post, give me a hard time, or just say hello. I've had fun being a semi-lurker, but now I'm in it for real.
Okay, I'm ditching my ticker because after last week's fun and games, it is FAR from accurate. Also, I need something not so cutesy. Perhaps a person crawling across the desert toward an oasis. Will have to search.
B - 2 sausage-eggbeaters mini-quiches, 1 light babybel, 1 c. V8
S - forgot it at home, but drank lots of water
L - enormous salad (4 cups or so) with chicken and 2 sticks of string cheese cut up, raspberry vinaigrette
S - not there yet (didn't have one)
D - little sirloins on the grill, roasted asparagus, green beans
S - 2 c. milk, warm, with vanilla Sf syrup; 2 "bean-ana" muffins w/ NPB
All is not lost ... I am currently wearing shorts from last summer that are actually a little big, the daffodils have popped into bloom, and TOM showed up right on schedule ... we're off to a great start! Thanks for reading, and attempt a pleasant Monday. Or don't. Entirely up to you.
Last edited by ljmusicmom
on Tue Mar 27, 2007 1:01 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Vita brevis ... carpe diem!