Have You Got Nothing To Say?

[anneg1116]

Well, after being around here for about 10 months I was thinking that there are times I have this random junk, or sometimes even coherent thoughts, swimming around in my head that I think I want to dump out somewhere.

Seems this may be the dumping ground. My brothers would immediately snicker like Beavis & Butthead "he he, she said dumping." Sad part - me too.

Anyway. 10 months. Down 77 lbs. Down a gagillion sizes. Whoop-tee-do Basil, what's it all mean? On the right track I guess. Actually, no guessing. I feel better & feel better about myself than I have in years. Like since I was in college. Ok, those hangovers weren't so great back then, but the rest was.

There are days (most of them) that I can't even believe that I exercise and want to find a gym or some such thing. All this cardio stuff at home is great considering what I used to do (NOTHING) but I want to do more. I want to do weights/resistance & tone & such and see if I can't prevent a little sagging and get stuff looking normal again. Hopefully I am thinking along the right line here for that. Suggestions anyone?


Today's pet peeve: all the entitled kids back at school today from their vacations in the tropics. Oh yeah - well my mom made me Boston Cream cupcakes over vacation!


If you're passing by please say hello. Or atleast share a good dirty joke or something.

[anneg1116]

Back for another day of fun.

I was thinking about those Boston Creme Pie cupcakes.... mmmmm... but I only had one, and that one goodie was enough of a "treat" to last me quite some time. I had no desire to have more goodies last weekend, and I am not sitting here wishing I could have some cookies or ice cream or something. Well, ok, on some level who doesn't want ice cream? But having somethng like that now and then doesn't seem to kill me.

I was VERY strict (that's right, strict, not strick) when I began all of this. I very rarely had even the teeniest bit of something like cake, etc. I had a little ice cream on my birthday (which sent me straight to the bathroom), and between the end of June & Thanksgiving could count what treats I had had on one hand, and probably had fingers left. But since Jan/Feb I have been a little more lenient with what I will allow myself to have. If I decide it's something I REALLY want then I have it. So what. Move on. It was enough. I think it took a good 6 months of hard work and 50 lbs to get me to be comfortable with that and to break some sort of emotional tie with food or something.

I was telling DH how when I used to make cookies I would come home from work (school) and eat a couple for an "after-school" snack. Then I would maybe have another because 3 sounded better than 2. Then I might even eat another one or two while cooking dinner before he came home. Then I would have 2-3 for dessert. Hence the scale topping out in the 260's. Now, A cookie sounds good and I would eat it. But my head now gets stopping at 1-2 and I can't imagine eating 6-8 cookies, ever. I think that making a change is what my mind needed as much as my body.

[anneg1116]

Today's eats:

B: Uncle Sam cereal w/ strawberries (& splenda); cheese stick; V8
S: cottage cheese; red pepper slices
L: Salad: baby spinach, r & g peppers, cuke, black olives, feta, tomatoes, hearts of palm & grilled chicken
S: Sugar snap peas; banana
E: 1 hr cardio
D: Grilled turkey burger, cauliflower, salad, quinoa "casserole"
S: ??



I'm diggin' Larabars.

[LegalBeagle]

Hello! I am glad you started a journal! Congrats on the weight loss so far - amazing!

[*~Lia~*]

Hi, I was just browsing journals and wanted to say congrats, 77lbs is amazing! Good for you

[anneg1116]

Thanks for stopping by LB. I tend to lurk in & around the different areas around here and enjoy reading your posts. You are doing a great job yourself!

lmb - thanks! It takes a lot of determination, but it seems to be better than taking on more fat!

[RedRox]

Go Sawks!!!

Keep on keepin' on!! Sometimes this process does seem like a lot of MOTS (More of the same.) I don't think that is always a bad thing. It allows for our other interests and parts of our lives to reestablish themselves as we learn that eating healthy supports everything else we do and if we just eat well and exercise for the sake of eating well and exercising, then perhaps we are missing part of the point of it all? It's not necessarily a bad thing to shift the importance of our new lifestyle from a primary position to at least a co-primary or even secondary position. It doesn't mean we can just forget about it, just that it may not take as much active work as before which opens space for other things to fill up our consiousness. Anyway, just some philosophical mumbo-jumbo to confuse you!

When did you live in Glenwood?? We love Glenwood, even without a DDs! My daughter's 6th grade class trip is to Glenwood this year in May. My wife signed up to chaperone.

[anneg1116]

Hi Red. That's right - cheer for those Sox!

When we were in CO we went to a Rox game one Saturday. It was certainly not the same as Fenway, that's for sure. It was one of those things where we were up early Sat. & decided the 3 hour drive seemed ok so we hopped on-line, bought some great seats, made the drive, watched the game, then drove home again. What a long day. But it was something to do. At that point we had been there about 9 months and knew we wanted to move back to MA so something fun to do was needed. Anyway, the stadium is very nice, seats were MUCH cheaper, but certainly not the same energy or excitment as Fenway.

We lived on 4 Mile Road - the road that goes up to Sunlight Mt. It was a great place - out of the way & quiet. And beautiful. DH's office was in the Hotel Denver - there's open space off the lobby that some of the interior rooms look down onto and this was his office space. Hence the frequent trips to the pub since it was also off the lobby!

And thanks for the mumbo-jumbo. I am getting to that point where I'm not eating well and exercising just for the sake of it. It is becoming more secondary where I can move into other things I want to do and it's just a part of who I am, not just what I do. I think before (losing weight) I never did much because I was so uncomfortable with myself. And then I spent a great deal of time making this all work for me. But now that it works I am more comfortable working in other activites, and even being more spontaneous - knowing I do not have to worry about food choices because there is generally something I can work with.

Ok - I seem to be rambling way too much here.

[anneg1116]

Tonight's fun...

Cook dinner. Surf. Call mom. American Idol. Read a few pages. Sleep, but not well without DH. Just me & the cats.

[anneg1116]

Another day, another dollar. And as a teacher a dollar is really what it seems like.

Today's eats:
B: Shredded wheat; kiwi; cheese stick; V8
S: Yogurt; sugar snap peas
L: Salad (baby spinach, r & g peppers, cuke, tomatoes, black olives, hearts of palm); 1/2 sandwich w/ ham & 2% swiss
S: Cheese stick; banana
D: Grilled chicken; asparagus; salad; leftover quinoa "casserole"
S: Maybe pudding


Made a yummy discovery last night. Ate a fantastic piece of dark chocolate (single-origin Chocovic Ocumare) followed by a great cup of mint tea. The chocolate-mint combo was to die for. Better than even those damn Girl Scout cookie thin mints I say! As a side note - I always thought the serving for thin mints should be 1 - 1 sleeve that is!

My latest NSV: My belt needs another hole added! I bought this belt in mid-Feb. during school vacation. It has 5 holes & when I first bought it was on the 2nd hole. I moved onto the 3rd quickly, and then the 4th, and now the 5th. But really, at the 5th it's not tight enough and it needs a 6th. Sweet.

[*~Lia~*]

Hello again, your kitty is sweet, I love cats! Got 2 of my own

I also love mint chocolate combo!! I buy the Ross SF chocolate mint bars as a treat sometimes, but I have a hard time not eating the whole bar at once..

Congrats on the belt hole!

Have a nice day

[anneg1116]

Hi again Lia.

I have two cats also, but that was the latest cute pic. I've had them for 9 years and they are my babies. DH and I do not have kids yet & we spoil them rotten.

I have not tried any of the SF chocolates. I do have SF hard candies, but have stayed away from the SF stuff. If I decide I want chocolate I go for the real stuff and have some good dark chocolate. How is the SF stuff?

[*~Lia~*]

Mine are my babies too..and I do have 2 kids , not to mention a spoiled dog also. My oldest cat is 16, and was diagnosed with diabetes last year so we give him shots 2x day....the youngest is about 3 or 4 now. He is black, looks and acts evil too

How is the SF stuff?

I have to be careful with this because they are very good, I also like the chocolate orange and white chocolate, but I don't buy them often as I tend to over induldge! I think the whole bar is about 190 cal.
Also, I am trying to cut out art sweetners from my diet altogether someday...

[RedRox]

Great NSV!! Love those!! And FWIW, I'm a dark chocolate fan as well. Don't do much single origin types though. We like the Endangered Species brand. Our new fave is the "Bat Bar" (they are all named after animals if you are not familiar with them). It's like a 75% cacao with cacao nibs in it. Dipped some in my PB last night! Better than a Reese's cup I say!

And yup, completely different experiences with Fenway and Coors. Fenway is all about baseball and has all the history. Coors is more about entertainment and has virtually no history. But there have been electric moments, but in general it's not really a baseball crowd, especially in the early years. It was more a place to go to be seen and party. Here's an example. I remember being at a game and I happened to be scoring it which I don't do regularly, but once in awhile when I was going to 6-10 games a year I'd keep a score sheet just to keep me in the game and it's fun to do once in awhile. Anyway, it's the bottom of the 9th and it's a tie game and Bichette is coming up with a man on third. I check his line and he has a home run, double and a triple and needs only a single to hit for the cycle. I'm thinking to myself, "OMG I could see Dante hit for the cycle!" and I may have been the only person in the park (other than the players and coaches) who realized it before it happened. And then it was weird because he hit a ball that was a double (might have even bounced over the fence for a ground rule double) but was scored a single because the man on third scored and ended the game as soon as Dante crossed first base safely. And I was listening to the radio broadcast trying to figure out whether it was single or not and it took a few minutes for them to sort it out and mention it on the broadcast and most everybody was pouring out of the park likely oblivious to what had just happened. Hitting for the cycle isn't all that unusual, but it's still rare enough that when you get to see it, it's kind of a cool thing! I think if Manny or Ortiz were in the same situation in Fenway, most folks in the stands would be aware of it and you'd hear the whispers going through the stands.

[NykNaksMomma]

Hey I just wanted to stop by. Amazing weight loss btw! That is so inspiring. I would love to be down 77lbs within 10 months. I have been on for 3 months and am only down 15lbs. Anyway I just wanted to say hi.