The Journal of ParadigmShift

[Lee Lee]

ParadigmShift, hugs to you. Don't listen to those who are jealous. God is good with his blessings. Hope you are having a good weekend.

God Bless.

[Blue Eyed Angel]

ParadigmShift~
My friend, you are an inspiration to us. I see the enemy attacking you big time. You are a blessing and you can do this. Just put one foot in front of the other one day at a time. No one says you have to be perfect. We are human. Don't let the enemy tell you different.

Heavenly Father, In Jesus Christ Sweet Glorious and Precious Name, I pray to you to surround Paradigm with your big loving and caring Daddy's arms. She needs a special hug today. Daddy, you are a Great Big God, and you are bigger than the enemy. I pray you bind up that Spirit of Depression off of ParadigmShift, and you replace it with your tender Daddy's soothing words of encouragement. I pray Daddy that you take away the enemy's words of Defeat that the enemy is throwing through her mind Daddy and fill it with your love and let her literally feel your spirit in her. Give her your tender mercies and relieve her of her stress Daddy, lead her to give it all to you and put all her cares in your hands. Daddy, release her from the fear of failure and show her the only way you can fail is when you quit, and she's not a Quitter Daddy, she's a Fighter, I've known that from day one. When she is up against the world, the world doesn't bowl her over, she stands up for her family and friends to the end. Daddy, let her do the same for herself. Let everyone who crosses her path bless her with encouraging words and support. And let her continue to feel the admiration that we all have for her. Daddy squash that Jealousy, keep it away from ParadigmShift and not let it phase her. She has such a precious, gentle spirit and she is full of love and You Daddy. When she is around others they become convicted because your life just Shines in her. We all love that in her daddy and we glean it off of her. Bless ParadigmShift in her comings and goings and let her feel you with her everywhere she goes. She's a Winner Daddy, give her an Extra Big SQueeze from us. In Jesus Name. Amen

One of the things we always teach our unit members in Mary Kay is to never compare yourself to others, because when we compare ourselves to others we compare our weaknesses to their strengths, and always come up short. If we have someone else compare us to someone else, we come out on top. So put your blinders on and run your own race, girlfriend. That's what's so Awesome about Yello's Journal. We are all in competition with ourselves and rooting each other on. It's friendly competition with love and support from others. Don't compare yourself to anyone else. Any step you take in the right direction is an Awesome accomplishment for yourself. Sometimes you just have to get through one meal at a time. You can do this! I believe in you!

[yellobeuty]

Paradigmshift,

I don't know how much you know of my story. and I am not going to get into it here. but, I have 145lbs to lose. So, I know it is hard. I know it can really get you down. I also experience deep depression during tom, and sometimes a lighter depression during ovalation.

I have never read redpanda's journal. so, I can't comment on that. But, if it brings you down or makes you melancoly don't read there. support her and post support there but, don't read the meloncoly posts.

here is the deal: YOU NEED TO PRAY. YOU are an awesome Christian no doubt about it. so #1, you need to pray. ASk God is this his will for you to be doing southbeach? if the answer is yes. then stick with it.

I believe no matter what this is where I am suppose to be. that God wants us to be eating this way and make it our life. I may have to modify it some to fit my personal needs. but, knowing the Lord himself has called me here keeps me here.

trust me, over the years I have revisited that question with him many times. each time he tells me yes to stick with it. sometimes he gives me new insight sometimes he just says keep doing it. so, that is what I do.

you say it is hard to do this and see no results. That is correct it is HARD. LIFE IS HARD. AND doing God's will is sometimes hard.

Maybe you need to focus on the fact that it is God's will for you instead of if you can do it etc. and maybe you can't do it. But, God can help you. right?

pray and ask your heavenly father what is His will? and if it is this woe, than everyday make your first action when you open your eyes be a prayer for God to help you accomplish His Goal.

I am not giving you an easy or pat answer. I know where of I speak! I agree it is hard. but, there are many blessings too.

remember: Faith is the evidence of things not seen. so, have faith that you are getting results in your body that you just aren't seeing. and leave the rest up to God. Make your hope be in the integrity of your ways. Hebrews:11:1 and Job (?)

and if you look at the list of challengers in this months challenge are you not one of the few who has actually lost??? that is progress to me.

[yellobeuty]

oh yea, about your wonderful inlaws.

Jealousy is an ugly sin. it makes people mean and hurtfull. I will pray God protects your heart and soul from any mean spirit thrown at you!

and if for no other reason then a selfish one. STAY HERE BECAUSE WE NEED YOU!

Prayers and hugs!

[ParadigmShift]

Thanks ((((((((((((((((( MY BUDS)))))))))))))))))

I am so flip floppy. Angel God knows just what I need. Yello you too. Kick my behind.. I love it don't stop. Sometimes I need it.

Last night went to SIL's got on the conv about SBD. She said that her friend has lost 97 lbs. I was shocked cuz this guy was sooo big!! It seems that when I am down the Lord seems to send encouragement.

Now Yello the only thing I HAVE HEARD from the Lord is to NOT go on a diet. This is not a diet. How can I have fault eating better. He did say I have not called you to this also. What that means I don't know. Perhaps releasing me from fear of failure? Actually is like I got permission. I don't really know. It has come to my attention that perhaps I don't even know what He is really saying about my weight. Perhaps I have this huge blindspot.

I am moving forward so rapidly in this season and my life has gone a complete overhaul. You guys only know a part of it. So I am not really being fair. It is just that I didn't want to bore you with the details nor dhould I reveal all since the enemy lurks.

It is one of those seasons that you didn't see it coming but you think something is coming and it is really big big big!! But when it comes you think it is TOO BIG!! GOD, YOU want me to do WHAT??

Let's just say I have been launched into a new ministry. The enemy is braeathing down my neck. My responsiblities in my life have quadrupled. NOthing has come little in the last couple of months. Bad timing on weight problems hey?? But this is for my mom for the most part. I have to admit that I would never have chosen this WOE with out looking into it for my mom. I guess it is a perk for support. The Lord knows I need it just as much as she does. But there is a way that there is no failure for me since not alot was riding on my success. I DID want to change the war I ate. And it makes it a whole lot easier with support. You all are invaluable and the Lord has shocked me with you all. I never thought I would find this on a secular board in a million years! I am so blessed.

Thanks, more than you could know!(((((((((((((((( HUGE HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

[InChristAlone]

Congrats on you PBD ! HIPHIP HOORAY !

Hang in there! ! Praying for you! ((Hugs))

[yellobeuty]

YAY, YOU GOT A PBD! WHOO HOO GIRL YOU GO!

SEE AND I BET IT WASN'T EVEN HARD. LOL

We are really blessed to have each other here to support us. when I was reading your last post a horrible thought popped into my head. lol

You all are invaluable and the Lord has shocked me with you all. I never thought I would find this on a secular board in a million years!

lol, what does that say about all us Christians there are so many overweight.lol

Seriously though, I agree with your sentiment 100%

[ParadigmShift]

Ummm us Christians like fellowship and FOOD!!! And we dont' even have potlucks at our church I know it is terrible isn't it. We have many many big women at our church. They are powerful tho!!

[yellobeuty]

yay, but those potlucks are killers sometimes. lol

[Blue Eyed Angel]

Girlfriend!!!! I am glad you are back. I don't want to say I was concerned about that, (how do you like that word concerned replacing worried), tehehe, I sure didn't want to get back on this board and not see your rofloling. I was already missing you and checking to see if you had gotten back on. I was just thinking, and I don't even have a # to give her a call and say what's up? Saved me some time of trying to figure out how to get you! You know one of my problems with the my business, every day you go to work and you go to a party, food, food, food! Hummmm.... Good thing alot of the people have veggies there!

[housekeeperkb41]

Just wanted to stop by and say Hi, hope you are feeling, better, I get depressed at times, but the Lord brings you through everytime. God is so Good -----all the time.

Speaking of potluck suppers, we had a chile dinner at church Saturday night. It was really good. I took Yello's advise and made some sugar free jello, with lite cool whip to share. Everybody was eatting it, and loved it. I don't think the times posted on here are correct. Anyone else have that problem? But my clock says 11:48 pm. Well guess I will go to bed. Nite.

Love in Christ,

kb

[toese]

Aloha!!! I am pms'ing w/ you so you are not alone. I have to take effexor for my pms'ing because my moods are so bad and I tend to get depressed as well. I will keep praying for you. I know it's so hard but there is something inside you that wants to break free. You can do this I know you can. You just need to grab that will power inside you and control your mind. Don't let the devil win ok???

[praising_god_4ever]

Well my friend...I feel like praying, so I'm going to ask the Lord for an encouraging word for you...ok here goes...

LOL...God is so funny. OK...I prayed for you and I had a picture of you standing, holding an axe. Your right hand was resting on the handle and you were standing, putting your weight on the axe. Your left hand was waving to people. So I felt the Lord was saying, You are a mighty woman of God. I have given you tools and you know how to weild them. You have the power to destroy the enemy with one swipe. Now, I felt the vision was also a warning. You were standing, waving and smiling, but in doing so you weren't swinging the axe. I felt the Lord was saying that there is a time to be in the public eye, but right now it is time to just get deep down into the gritty work that only the Lord sees. He knows your determination and you will be rewarded in heaven for your good works.

So, hang in there and keep fighting! Lord, teach her to fight and yet to rest. Peace is a weapon!

Have a blessed day mighty woman of God!

Praising

[ParadigmShift]

I had a picture of you standing, holding an axe. Your right hand was resting on the handle and you were standing, putting your weight on the axe. That is one of my calls as a battle axe roflol!!!Jer 51:20 Thou art my battle axe and weapons of war: for with thee will I break in pieces the nations, and with thee will I destroy kingdoms;




Your left hand was waving to people. Yup, prefer to wave more than war LOL!!

You are a mighty woman of God. I have given you tools and you know how to weild them. You have the power to destroy the enemy with one swipe. So I have heard....

Now, I felt the vision was also a warning. You were standing, waving and smiling, but in doing so you weren't swinging the axe. OOOOOO the sting of conviction....


I felt the Lord was saying that there is a time to be in the public eye, but right now it is time to just get deep down into the gritty work that only the Lord sees. He knows your determination and you will be rewarded in heaven for your good works. Sigh hidden is my middle name, actually prefer it that way LOL!!

So, hang in there and keep fighting! Lord, teach her to fight and yet to rest. Peace is a weapon! The Lord is teaching me to rest in war....



Also to all of you worried about me going AWOL. This is my journal and I shalt venteth. This really helps. I was really busy Saturday. Hubby jealous of the puter, translated, dont be on it when he is home...

I whine I cry I pick myself up and dust off. But it was really nice to have you all lift me up when I was down. I just have to get a reality check on this weightloss thingy and just eat like I am supposed to. I can get really legalistic on diets so I have to watch out. I can get really hard on myself and quit and I think that this time He wants perserverance and not perfection. After all WHO IS perfect?? I am glad to know I have some friends who are not just fair weather. You are all a blessing to me.

I just need to vent once in a while and then I am over it!

[toese]

Hey, you are allowed to vent anytime in your journal!!! It always makes me feel better when I do it in mine!!