hmmmm been reading Red Panda's journal. Melancholy now. There are many issues to be dealt with. We all know that calories are not our only weightloss issue but why we overeat. This is one of the first times I have run into stress and have not been able to gloss over things with eating, self medicating chocolate. Yes, I have been PMSing. Tho there is this thing in the back of my mind saying this WOE is not going to work.
For some reason nothing sounds good to me. There is no food I want to eat but that goes for junk food too. I rebelled today and had a taco salad at taco bell. I was just eating too plain. I was dying for something different. I even ate a little of the shell( oooo my rebellious self!) I could not finish but half of that salad.
Depression trying to make it's way upon me. I am fighting diligently. It is odd how even tho I know this is a WOE and not a race I let little things bother me. I need to get off the legalistic wagon, or was that attitude the one that made me fat.
It seems that I have come head to head to myself. Just who is holding a gun to my head to eat anything??
This is up to me and no one else. And the fear of failure overwhelms me. I admire all those that stick thru thick and thin to this WOE, knowing even w/o a loss that it is still working.
Oh well. Having family issues. I am blessed and family is jealous. SIL'S seem to always be so. I am the fattest one so it isn't because I am beautiful roflol!! Mom has a big mouth and things better left unsaid make it out of her mouth. Sigh....
It is a different kind of day today....