WOW...2 Months down and half way there!!!

[futurethinmama]

Hello all, I am new to SBD I just started two days ago. After years (all of my life) of failed and/or crazy diet attempts I have decided that SBD is the way to go. I say failed and crazy because I was so desperate in 1/03 I had gastric bypass surgery. I lost 80 pounds but I WORKED for every pound after the first 20. I have slowly gained back 16 pounds and want to get a hold on this before I creep back up to 274. My current weight is 210. I feel as though my surgery was a failure. I say that only because for the past year or so I blamed myself and have finally realized I am not to blame. I knew I could eat like I had a "regular" stomach from a few weeks after my surgery. I could eat almost as much as I did before, needless to say the surgeon that performed my operation has had numerous complaints about this and has since "been asked" to not perform this type of surgery anymore. I am grateful to say he has since decided to comply. Anyway I am dedicated to this and so far things are going great. I get plenty to eat and enjoy making these new fresh recipes. I ate the portabello mushroom pizza tonight and almost peed it was so good. Are you guys sure that it is phase 1 approved? I believe its the best pizza I have ever had. Ever and trust me, being a big girl I have had my fair share of pizza LOL. I am so grateful for this forum, you guys seem very "in the know" and willing to share your knowledge. Thanks for that. Well I guess I will give ya the basics, I am 28 and divorced with 2 precious sons. I am 5' 5" and weigh 210 and my goal is 170. I know to most that sounds heavy, but I am a big boned girl. I can honestly say I would not want to weigh any less then 170 lbs. I have never been less then 190 ( I hit that right after middle school and never looked back LOL), and if I get to 170 and think I need to lose more I will change my goal bu for now 170 is ideal. I was wondering if I am supposed to have the BLACK BEAN CAKE? I made that tonight without even thinking and have not eaten any yet. I will try to stay away from it until I know. My 7 year old had it with cool whip and said it was delish. Any input is appreciated. Also some encouragement every now and then would be a blessing. My 8 month old was just diagnosed with scoliosis and I am a very emotional eater. This has been a difficult few days but I feel I am strong and need to get healthy to help my son, as he will be needing lots of physical therapy and that would be easier for me to do with him if I had about 40 less pounds to pack around. Thanks again I am glad I found this place.
On a lighter note, I just discovered that many of my questions have already been posted...by other folks. I also discovered that even if beans are baked in a cake the gas is no sweeter. Sorry 'bout that but YUCK! I think I better run out and get some beano for future boughts with tha beans lol. If I carry on like this I will surely never find a husband. i will post more tomorrow along with my menu for the day. Bye for now!

[Rachael83]

Hello, and welcome to the beach!!

I'm not sure about the black bean cake...You'd have to ask one of the more seasoned beachers. Such as Kimboroni.

But I just wanted to stop by, and welcome you, and wish you luck, health, and well being!

I'm sorry to hear about your failed surgery, but this is a new beginning for you! Take it as that, and run with it! You'll be successful!

[futurethinmama]

Today was not so hard. I ate alot and felt a bit apprehensive about it, but the great folks on this site took a little time to calm me down.
I am trying to stick to this SBD but I have to admit changing my 7 yr olds medicine this week has made me a little skeptical about taking on a "change of lifestyle" along with everything else that has happened this week, but it has proven to be easier then I first anticipated. I am so grateful that I can actually eat...being an emotional eater this is important to me. Today when I almost lost it I went for the veggies instead of the ice cream and I have to say I am proud of myslef. My son is so hyper he literally makes me nervous. No joke, I love him with everything in me but he is a challenge. Hopefully his new meds will kick in soon and I can stop chewing on celery all day LOL.
Here is my menu for today, feel free to let me know if I made any mistakes. That is exactly why I am posting this information.
B- 2 egg omelet w/about 1 C. mushrooms and onions *sauteed in Pam
2 pieces canadian bacon
S-a celery stalk with light laughing cow wedge
tea...chai tea w/ 1/2 cup light plain soy and sf van. syrup (1-2 tsp.)
L- 2 c. baby spinach 2-3 oz cracked perpper turkey (deli LF) 1TB b.cheese
dressing (I know this is limited just all I had available)
S- another tea made like above and 8 almonds
D-Crustless meat pizza w/olives and
mushrooms on top
D- no sugar added fudge cicle w/1 TB pb and 1TB cw
a small slice of black bean cake w/TB cool whip
I realize that I had 2 desserts, but to the best of my knowledge the Black bean cake only had 30 "bad" calories in entire thing from the 2 TB of cocoa powder. Therefore leading me to believe that one small slice would not be over 2.5 bad cals...I got that figure by dividing 30 into 12 as I cut the cake into 12 pieces. Is that accurate? Anyway if it is I have only had 40 cals in fudgcicle, 20 in CW and 2.5 in cake. Leaving me with a grand total of 62.5. I am under for the day yeah! Well I hope that I figured that cake right and if not tomorrows another day. I will not stress out about a few calories. I have enough to worry about LOL. Well peeps have a wonderful night and thanks for all of the encouragement today. Only 11 days left on phase one. Yeah

[GoodGrl]

Welome, I am a Future SBer... I will start on Friday - Grocery shopping day Anyways Good Luck ! and welcome...off to a good start

[lawn_gnome78]

Hey, Future thinny.

I had to stop by and say that your posts are entertaining. You're so energetic and seem pretty fun. Your menu looks great, too.
I'm not sure about the bean cake - haven't heard about it or what the ingredients are... sorry I'm no use to you for that anyway.

Good luck on your journey!
LG

[GoodGrl]

Good Morning FTM ! I sent ya a PM...Good luck today...

[futurethinmama]

Alright guys I have a confession...I cheated last night . I was on the computer and grabbed a can of nuts...sure enough I look down and they are HALF gone. Not a used can either, it was a new can that I opened at that moment. My seven year old was in bed, I was up all alone so I couldn't even BLAME it on anyone else. I had the worst time after that, my tummy hurt and my feelings (yes I occasionally have some of those ) were hurt due to beating myself up. I went to be and threw in the towel, you know the whole oh woe is me I am a failure ya-da ya-da playing my violin for poor me and all that crap!
I got up this morning and made my breakfast (1 tsp EVOO, 1 1/2 cup mushrooms fresh garilc sauteed with 2 eggs) and AND oh yes it is a BIG and...I made a piece of WHITE toast (no honey not even trying to follow phase 2 by this point and I am still in phase 1...) FUll fat butter and full sugar grape jelly. Sat my fellin sorry for myself butt down on the computer and checked my IM's/posts from this site...guess what??? Should I make you wait....hmmm I guess I will quit torturing ya and tell ya now. I got so much encouragement from all of you that i COULD NOT EVEN EAT MY TOAST. Marched my now HAPPY butt to the trash can and threw it away...I even washed the excess jelly off of my finger instead of the normal "lick it off first method"
Have to say that I will check this site every morning now, it is my daily dose of inspiration. You are all incredible. Even if you just say hi, have a good day,I do not know but Just wanted to let ya know I am here etc. IT REALLY HELPS. Thanks guys, you rock. I will post todays menu and other happenings in my hectic life tonight. Don't go anywhere all the action is right here LOL. Have a great day SBD'ers Reace

[cco7128]

WAY TO GO!! The willpower to throw away the "bad" food was so strong, I could feel it as I was reading! I am giving you a great big pat on the back......stop I'm not hurting you........see, don't you feel the love???
All kidding aside.....I hopped into your journal thread here because of your title. I have debated on writing a journal becasue i feel I have nothing to say that anyone wants to hear(read) . Your strength this morning is so awesome. You keep up that great work and keep posting. Some of the people on this forum are so helpful and inspiring, you will receive strength. Your 7 year old sounds like my 8 year old son. He drives me batty at times, but I just smile and move on because I know soon enough he won't want to have a thing to do with me and I will miss these days. We are going through a med change too.....it gets frustrating.

Best of Luck................PM anytime or write, I would be happy to tell you my experience and what SB has done for me.

[lawn_gnome78]

... where's the little emoticon that is cheering and clapping??? I need that one for you right now.
It's such a nice thing to know that this website will help you! I'm so glad that you made that decision to trash that garbage on your plate. You had an sbd friendly breakfast!!!
Way to go! Keep it up, just take it one day at a time. If I were you, I'd plan a week from now to treat yourself to one small thing that you've been craving. If you stick to SBD 90% of the time, you'll still succeed and lose the weight you want to lose. I may get into trouble for suggesting such a thing, but think about it - it may help you tremendously to give you something to look ahead to even if it's just for now till you're settled in. Wait till you're done with phase one to do that, though. Just my advice. Take it or leave it; I won't be offended at all if you choose the latter.

[futurethinmama]

I entered the same post twice...Don't mind me

[futurethinmama]

lawn_gnome from now on I gotta call you
lawny or something, I never think I spell that right!!! I have to say that nobody better yell at you for suggesting a treat, I had thought about that. (and if they do yell I got your back girl ) I think I will have a diet dp with the real cherry stuff at sonic on occasion. I see that you do it right around weigh in time...you know I have not weighed in a while should I run and do that? BRB....Hmm I walked to the bathroom and had to pee. Guess I forgot what I was there for LOL...anyway I want to "weight" til Friday cause that will be a full week and I really don't feel like stripping down necked right now. Oh yeah it is a scary sight but I weigh in my birthday suit. I even take off my watch, ring and hair clip if my hair is up. Is that weird? I sure am glad the folks on Celebrity Fit Club do not have to weigh naked...geez!
cco7128 I felt your pat on the back and it is so appreciated I am all grins and giggles tonight! I think that I feel accountable by posting what I do on this board and it helps. You should do it to, even if you just wanna talk about ear wax, I am sure you will find someone on this board who would love to listen. I would read your journal I am as nosey as they come. Did you ever watch bewitched, well you remember the neighbor Gladys? All my friends call me gladys, no joke so you know you've got one to read it, so start writting! I am ganna PM you when I get a minute I am interested in seeing what meds your son has tried, this new one is killing my babies tummy and he hates taking it. I almost cry when I give it to him. I will chat with you later and thanks again sweety you all made my day!
So about my menu...I think I did not eat nearly enough today. My kid drove me batty (cannot say nuts anymore cause it makes me think about my almonds and pecans in the dumpster LOL) the baby is teething and my X is coming back from pakistan tomorrow so I headed over to clean his place. The only thing to eat there was very fattening frozen puffy bread. I did not have any. So lets see the damage shall we?
B-2 c. sauteed mushrooms and 2 eggs
S-2 celery stalks and light laughing cow wedge
L-salad w/2 c. spinach, boiled egg 2 oz. deli turkey and 1 TB Ranch
S-splenda sweetened B&B pickles (about 6) 1 oz. lf moz. cheese and 2 pieces canadian bacon
D- 1 TB PB/2TB coolwhip lite and 1fudgcicle
Drinks-1 8oz can diet pepsi 2 c. decaf tea w/splenda 60 oz. water

Hmm I think I forgot dinner...I am sure I fed the kids but yeah I did I skipped dinner. How bad is that? Looking over this menu I think I needed some more protein or something. Any suggestions. I wonder how many calories that is, I think I will log it on fitday. com just to see cause I am not into trying to starve myself. Maybe I will eat some cauliflower and ranch before bed cause I missed some of my fats too. HMMM better day tomorrow I am gonna make the curried chicken recipe I found on here for my X. Well guys hope your day was good and have an even better tomorrow. I will post again probably in a few days. Good night!

[rknight]

Last night was really hard. I wanted to eat, eat, eat. Real Chocolate. But I didn't. I had a no-sugar added fudge pop. Played with the dogs and knitted some. I was just in the mood to eat. Everyone was in bed - and that's one of the times I treated myself before SBD. There are cookies on the counter that my neighbor brought down. Told her we were beaching it, let the kids have them, she said. So, I have oatmeal/raisen cookies on the cabinet, tempting, sort of. They aren't my favorite - so no real temptation.

It's just a combination of school starting, work (cause I don't want to work - long story), and just normal house stuff. My favorite treat was a hershey bar with almonds, the 1/2 pound size. I put a diet Dr. Pepper in the freezer and had that. Seemed to work.

Well, on to another day.

[cco7128]

Hey! How is your day?

About your menu from yesterday........I think you did well up until dinner. You definately need to eat 3 meals aday. It is so important!!!! Your body will go into starvation mode and not drop an oz if it thinks you aren't eating enough. I count my calories daily on www.calorie-count.com it helps me alot to see what I am eating. My calorie intake ranges about 1200-1500 daily. But I am always full. I really think it is the combo of foods. Your food choices look good. Just get dinner in there. There are some great recipes on this forum and my kid eats almost all our dinners also.

Thanks for the advice about starting a journal. I thought about it last night and I am going to go for it. I think it will help me be accountable like you said. I eat SB everyday, but lately I feel like slipping and maybe this will not let me do it. Anyway, I must get going. Just got done with my workout and need to hit the shower. I am taking my son to the library this morning before I go to work.

later gater!

[futurethinmama]

Alright ladies I am sensing some negativity here...lets remember one thing. We are all trying to do something positive with our lives and it is just one foot in front of the other. Baby steps! We will have have stresses and set backs the important thing is to be strong. Anytime you feel like having a chocolate bar, or some cookies or in my case some toast and nuts Take a walk around the block then e-mail me so I can tell you how BAD it would taste...I am good at discouraging folks. I think this is the best way to deal with temptation, get yourself an accountability partner either here or at home then report to them each night. I know its hard, but WE CAN DO IT!!!

cco7128 Hi, just wanted to say thanks for the advice. I log my stuff on fitday.com and think I have not been exceeding 1000 calories a day. I need to beef up the protein intake a bit, cause I am starting to feel an extreme lack in energy. I think I will try the calorie-count web site you rec. tonight. Fitday is good but I hate searching for the foods. I will check yours out and see if it is less time consuming.
I am SO GLAD you are starting a journal I cannot wait to check in with you. I really do feel like this has helped me, not just for SBD but everyday stuff in general. I think that is the reason that things like weight watchers work, because people are held accountable. Let me know what your Journals title is so I do not miss it. Keep in touch!

rknight So glad to hear from you, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU for not having the cookies or the hersheys bar. It is a great accomplishment to know that you can resist temptation...WAY TO GO!!! Having a really cold diet dp was a great alternative. Do you like the fudgcicle dessert w/pb and cool whip? That has been a blessing to me at night (thats my problem time too) after everyones asleep I go make my treat and refreeze it whils I shower. The entire time I am showering I can almost taste the sweetness. (Oops that sounded kind of pornographic but you know what I mean LOL) I have also seen this recipe...warm brownie....
3TBS nonfat powdered milk
1TBS peanut butter
1TBS cocoa
1 pkt splenda mix these til crumbly micro. 15-20 sec
add 2 tsp sf syrup (probably divinci van or hazelnut)
micro 15-20 more sec then eat up.
I have not tried it yet but I got powdered milk today and I am gonna try it tonight. I will let you know how it is. The black bean cake was surprisingly good too if you need that recipe its onhere too or I can IM it to ya. I find that these things help with my chocolate cravings. The dessert last night (fudgecicle) was actually almost too sweet so that tells me the detox period is working. Keep your head up! You can do this! IM me anytime and thanks for checkin inwith me. Have a stress free day, ok lets settle for less stressed day LOL. Reace

[lawn_gnome78]

Reace - thanks for saying you got my back... just to let you know, someone kinda did lay into me about the treat thing... you can go check it out if you're interested... it's on the phase 2 disussion forum and the title is "to pig out or not to pig out?" Everyone was pretty nice till the end of the second page. I know they're trying to help me, I'm just pouting about it right now. I'm allowed.
Did you try that warm brownie? I love it - but it's just not enough bites for me sometimes! Can't wait to hear if you like it or not. Let me know.
Keep up the good work - your menu looked great, except for the skipping dinner part!