lpkcarlson's Journey to Health

[lpkcarlson]

AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!


Well, I feel better already. Dayum, am I ever tired of "I just can't stay on Phase I, I HAVE to be able to party and drink with my friends!" and then "Why, oh why can't I lose this 20 lbs.?"

They are driving me nuts.....I think, for my own sanity, I need to avoid those posts like the plague!

Vent over; back to your regular programming......

[yellobeuty]

lol,

yes you do need to stay away from those posts. like the plague!

Thanks for comming over to my journal. it was great to have you there you always add so much to it.

I liked your scripture on Sunday too.

piano lessons. oh how nice. I tried when I was in my mid-twenty's but my fingers hurt to much. lol

it must be neat to take lessons with your dd also taking lessons.

[lpkcarlson]

Well, I think I've visited nearly everyone's journal today...ooops! Except my own It's been one of *those* days here at the office....phone ringing off the wall, clients dropping by unexpectedly, wanting you to drop what you're doing and get something done for them...how rude

YB, thanks for dropping by...yup, those whiney posts are really getting to me. The one I responded to yesterday continued on (I think into today) and Lynda, oldpjams, Ph.D.2B and I all got blasted for telling it like it is. No more....I'll also be avoiding this particular poster.

I'm actually enjoying the piano lessons, although DD would rather kiss a frog. She was in tears last night during her practice because she couldn't remember the stuff from last spring. My fault--I should have made her practice this summer. But I sat down with her and within about 10 minutes she was good to go. I really want her to keep with this, as she will continue to be exposed to music/musical instruments for years to come. This year (3rd grade) they are required to play the recorder (plastic flute-like instrument) and in 5th grade they are required to play and instrument for band. She's expressed an intrest in the flute and also in the harp. The harp would be a lot of fun, but pretty challenging to find local instruction--the closest I know of is in Boulder--about 30 miles from here. Not very convenient.

B: Not very hungry today....I did have about a cup of sliced cukes & some lf cheddar cheese slices. Coffee w/ sf vanilla & nf milk
S: skip
L: Craving chinese today...went next door for the steamed chicken & veggies w/ the steamed brown rice. Definately not enough veggies...I'll be sure to add a few extra at dinner
S: Pear
D: Parmesan crusted chicken, steamed asparagus, steamed cauliflower, small tossed salad.

Kind of slacking off on the water, too...I need to be more careful about that.

[lpkcarlson]

Proverbs 1:24-33(KJV):
24 Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded;
25 But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof:
26 I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh;
27 When your fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you.
28 Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me:
29 For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD:
30 They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof.
31 Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices.
32 For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them.
33 But whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil.


I agree with the comment from YB (in her journal) that God's people need to repent....before it is too late....

We watched the news special last night about Hurricane Katrina...scary stuff. My MIL is heartbroken...they were just in New Orleans in May & MIL absolutely fell in love with the place. FIL wanted to take her back for Christmas, but it obviously isn't happening. I feel so bad...MIL was in tears, pointing out buildings & highways on the news and saying "we were there"....I pray for those poor people.

Okay, I need opinions. We received a letter from our church in the mail last night. The family of the young man who was killed on the dirt bike last spring (from DD's school) donated a beautiful gazebo for the back area of the school. There's a plaque on it with some bible verses & his name....the church/school paid for all of the landscaping and it looks just beautiful--a very peaceful area. The church is wanting to put in 5 benches and 6 large flower pots in the area and is asking for donations to cover the purchases. The benches are $148 + shipping & then a plaque will be put on each one stating "In loving memory of________" then the doner's name(s). I really would like to purchase one for MIL, but since she is not gone yet, DH is balking at the idea. "Let's just wait", but I'm afraid if we wait, they will be taken. What do you think? I've thought about purchasing it and just requesting that no plaque be put on yet.

Oh, the scale is evil I don't weigh myself real often...but I weighed myself last week and I was up 6 lbs., but it was right at the end of TOM, so I wasn't too concerned. However, I weighed myself this a.m. & I'm still up 3 lbs. I've had probably more indulgences than I should and I know that I've really been slacking on the water. NEED A KICK IN THE A$$, please.....

Here's my planned menu today:

B: Kashi GL w/ blueberries, nf milk, sprinkle of Splenda; coffee w/ sf english toffee syrup & nf milk
S: probably skip, since it's already 11:00 a.m. & I'm really not too hungry
L: Leftover lean hamburger patty w/ slice melted lf cheddar & green chili strips; large serving cauliflower; cuke & sweet pepper slices w/ ranch dip
S: probably my pear
D: Nothing planned yet...it'll have to be something quick--it's parent's night at the school tonight at 7p.m.

I'm thinking maybe I might be overdoing the grains...I usually have 2 a day, but I'm wondering if maybe I'm a little sensitive to them & need to cut back. ARRRGGHH!

Hope everyone else is having a beachy day!

[yellobeuty]

HI, wow great scripture. you are way braver then me. I had one similar in mind but chickened out of posting it. lol

about MIL can't they put in "Honor Of " instead of memory of.

we do that for flowers and stuff all the time. HONOR OF for people alive. memory of for people dead.

ASK WHOEVER is in charge.

ok, now I have to go back and finish reading your posts. lol I quick responded without finishing reading. lol

[lpkcarlson]

Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy leaden and I will refresh you. Matthew 11:28

Prayer can be a refreshment to your soul....I know that when I attend services on Sabbath that I receive a special blessing from that...


We went to Parent's night last night and our Pastor spoke of the many things that we, as a church, will be doing for those who are suffering from the effects of Hurrican Katrina. Several of our church families will be opening their homes to the refugees of this terrible tragedy. We do not have room at our small apartment, but we have offered to help financially with food, clothing, personal needs.

I also made the decision to purchase one of the benches for the memorial area behind the school. I spoke to the Pastor last night about it and they only had 2 still available, so I am glad I did speak up for one. I believe what I will do is have the plaque say something like "In Celebration of _________" and will have MIL's name as well as her mother's name (who died 24 yrs ago of breast cancer) engraved. I believe that "celebration" would be an appropriate wording, since MIL is still alive. We do the Susan B Komen Breast Cancer walk here in Denver every Oct. & this is usually what we put on our shirts.

On the scale again this a.m.--down 1/2 lb from yesterday...maybe I'm still shedding TOM water weight? Don't know... I stayed very beachy yesterday, so maybe that helped, too. Will try to stay withing guidelines, with no indulgences for the next couple of weeks (I usually allow myself one or two small indulgences a week) to see if that helps....I have been losing about 1/2 lb a week with the indulgences, soooo....

B: Starbucks w/ DH-sf nf vanilla latte; slice ww bread w/ melted ff cheddar; a few cuke slices
S: Probably skip
L: Wendy's Chili & side salad
S: ??? I have a few different kinds of fruit here at work
D: ??? Probably out w/ DH, DD, MIL & FIL

[yellobeuty]

I'm glad you figuered out a way to have the benches.

maybe for the families who are being taken in you can cook a meal for them or something.

hay, 1/2 lb lost is better than 1/2 lb gained right?!

[yellobeuty]

You haven't posted since last Friday.

are you ok? just want you to know your journal misses you.

[lpkcarlson]

Yup, had to go to page 3 to find the darn thing

I usually don't post on the weekends....I'm on a computer all week at work, and although we have a computer at home, I rarely use it...it's slow and I'm usually tired of sitting around typing on the dumb thing by Saturday & Sunday.

Had a great weekend, though....

Took off early on Friday and ended up out to dinner with MIL & FIL....those beef ribs and baked potatoes on the menu were calling my name, but I just ignored them & ordered the salad bar, sirloin steak with extra steamed veggies & the fresh strawberries with whipped cream for dessert. I'm pretty sure that whipped cream was the real thing, so I only had a taste, then gave the rest to DD.

Saturday, we dropped DD over at a friend's house for a sleepover, then headed up the hill (mountain) with DH, MIL & FIL to Central City. We stopped for lunch on the way, and I had the most delightful cobb salad (skip the bacon, please) on the most beautiful patio setting (a restaurant called El Rancho--I've driven by it many times on my way up the mountain, just never stopped before). I did endulge in a mimosa, though (champagne w/ orange juice). Then we walked around Central City (an old goldmine town) for awhile (they were having a music festival--so listened to some music, browsed through some stores, etc.), then went down into a couple of the casinos. Dropped in $10 & left with $20...DH dropped in $10 and left with $17. Not bad.

Sunday I took myself shopping while DH helped FIL on a couple of jobs. I went to Target & picked up a few new outfits for DD to put away for her birthday (Oct 31), then over to Kohl's where I picked up a new pair of slacks and a few new shirts; shorts & new polo for DH. Then over to pick up DD from friend's & drop her off at Grandma's (my mom) for a sleepover. Then DH & I went to Red Lobster. I did very well.....had a salad (skip the croutons & those wonderful cheddar biscuits), then had the Ultimate feast---shrimp scampi, more shrimp scampi (i had them trade out the breaded shrimp for extra scampi), a lobster tail (small) and a few snow crab legs. The melted butter was my only no-no. Then we went to a movie - Yesterday was our 14th anniversary, so we celebrated a day early.

Spent yesterday with my family: mom & dad, brother & his wife & 2 girls. We had a cookout & just plain *visited*.

This a.m., I had a wonderful email awaiting me....my cousin, who lived with my family for several years when we were in our teens, is moving from North Carolina to Nebraska to be closer to our families. They leave tomorrow, so please pray for them to have a safe trip. We are more like sisters than cousins, so this is a very special thing to me. Neither of us can afford plane trips to/from Colorado/North Carolina, but I'm usually in Nebraska at least once a year & it's only a 7 hour drive, so we could even do long weekends! YEA!

B: Uncle Sam's w/ nf milk & strawberries
S: Skip
L: Salad & leftover steak (and a little acorn squash) from yesterday
S: pear
D: Not sure yet....

[yellobeuty]

WOW YOU GO GIRL!

you should post that whole eating out thing in my journal. truly mean it.

what determination! wow. you did great!

I haven't had that determination lately. but, I'm not doing bad. but so many don't have that determination when it's a holiday weekend.

ok, I feel totally and utterly sinful. lol I am in the precense of an angel. who is so much more worthy then me. You must be an angel to have that kind of fortitude. lol J/K

[lpkcarlson]

*he he he*

Thanks YB...

Actually, I AM pretty bull headed....I guess your term of "determined" sounds much nicer! My wonderful father raised me (and my live-in cousin, at the time) to believe that I could do anything I put my mind to. He used to say (and still does, actually) "Don't ever let anyone tell you that you can't do anything you put your mind to, just because you're a girl". I live by this saying and am teaching my DD the same. I actually did some pretty stupid stuff in my youth while repeating this to myself. (i.e. driving my brother's old Willy's jeep where his friends wouldn't just so I could prove to them that a girl could do it).

I forgot to mention in my previous post about this really disturbing dream I had last night: I dreamt that I was in my dr's office and they wanted to do a test to find out if I was diebetic & I was! It woke me up from my sleep & I had a hard time going back to sleep afterwards. My maternal grandfather was diebetic and one of my first cousins had Childhood diabetes (Type II, I believe, which, from what I understand, is different from the adult onset type). But Steve (my cousin) died 3 years ago at the ripe old age of 39 from complications of his diabetes. He was very sick for years before that.

Stuff like this only makes me more determined to succeed at this!

Thanks for your encouragement, YB. It is always appreciated.

[lpkcarlson]

Oh, yeah....

I AM scheduling a dr's appointment to have my yearly exam. However, I also want to discuss with her my hayfever. Years ago (probably about 18-20), I went to my Dr. with complaints of shortness of breath during particularly bad bouts of my hay fever. He concluded that I had a touch of asthma, which was being intensified with the symptoms of my hay fever. He gave me a prescription for a "primatine"-type tablet to take when it was really bothering me - he didn't see a need for an inhaler. However, I stopped taking the meds when I noticed that they made my heart absolutely race...scary.

Anyway, I've not had another problem with it again....UNTIL....2 weeks ago. I noticed one day at work, that I was having a hard time drawing a breath. I was also getting a major kick in the butt that day from my allergies. I took an allergy pill (zyrtec, which puts me to sleep, so I only take it when it gets bad). About 1/2 hr later, I noticed that I was breathing easier. I've had this problem off and on now for about 2 weeks, and DH urged me to call the Dr. The straw that broke the camel's back came this weekend, when, while we were, ummmmm, uhhhh...doing laundry .... and I nearly passed out....and not from swooning with passion, either. Now he's very adament about the appointment and has text messaged me 3x already today.

[LegalBeagle]

Jeez, you nearly passed out? That is scary! I am glad you are going to get it checked out. Hugs.

[yellobeuty]

yes, activity induced asthma will act up with any ativity. it's not particular. lol and I think Laundry is it's favorite time. I always take my inhaler first. lol

[lpkcarlson]

Good morning & Happy Wednesday!

Another beautiful day here in Colorful Colorado! Yesterday started out as a typical early fall day....cloudy, a little smattering of rain & much cooler. I kind of missed that this morning...I just love fall...*sigh* I have memories of mom making tomato soup and grilled cheese for lunches. Homemade cinnamon rolls & hocus pocus buns (a sweet yeasty dough wrapped around a large marshmallow with cinnamon & sugar sprinkled in...as it baked, the marshmallow would melt, making an ooey gooey mess) and Kraut Burgers! No wonder I'm fat.

We took DD last night to get registered for Adventurers for the season. Adventurers is our church/school version of boy/girl scouts. They earn badges, just like in scouts, but the themes are more christian. She has this year and next year yet, then will move up to Pathfinders...the older kids' group. She really enjoys it & DH helps as a co-leader, so it's time spent with daddy, as well. Kiddo has grown so much this last summer (mostly tall), that I had to order a new uniform for her.

We (DH & I) have been talking about how to discuss the health situation with MIL with our DD. We think she needs to be told. MIL talked to me about it last night and would prefer that we hold off on it until she has to resign from work (which, I'm guessing will probably be the day before she dies, she's so stubborn I guess that's a good thing--it's probably what's kept her alive this long) MIL would like for DD to concentrate on school, piano lessons, her friends, etc. and not dwell on the fact that her Meme is dying.

I called the dr office yesterday, but since the "main" focus of my appointment is my yearly exam, I couldn't get in until the end of the month. I told the receptionist that if I have any more *major* breathing episodes that I will be camping out in their lobby. She said that was fine; just call & they will get me right in. It hasn't been real bad Monday & Tues., so we'll see what the change in weather does...

B: Uncle Sam's w/ strawberries & nf milk; nf pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks--major no-no but I couldn't resist it....I'm just going to have to stay away from that place now that this stuff is back for the season--one of the very few things I just can't resist
S: Triskets w/ laughing cow
L: Salad w/ leftover steak, mushrooms & a little shredded parmesan
S: Pear or apple w/ pb
D: ?????

Hope everyone's having a great day.