Well soccer went great and I managed to fix the kitchen sink myself which was a relief!
So where have I been lately??
Well, I've been struggling very much lately with financial problems. Yeah, most of us have them and I'm no different. But the last few months it has gotten so much worse and I'm officially drowning in debt. That, of course, leads to depression and binging...which makes me feel worse and the cycle continues.
Today I made a positive step in the right direction and I feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted from my shoulders. I decided to "turn in" my leased car (payments were close to $400!) because I just can't keep up anymore. I don't know how I got myself so buried with it in the first place. Anyway, I had to swallow my pride, ask for help, and borrow money to purchase a cheap, reliable older car. My dad met me at the dealership at lunch time and I'm now the owner of an affordable car. Yes, my credit is now messed up, but hanging onto that car wouldn't make things better. This way I can start working towards the future again. And my tax return this year should be enough to repay back the money I borrowed, or at least most of it.
Tomorrow is a truly new leaf for me as I leave behind the leather, power everything, remote start, 6 disc changer, heated seats...and drive a little Cavalier without even power windows or cruise. But at least I'll be able to live with myself again and maybe even sleep at night again. I have a sneaking suspicion that I'll be able to stick with SBD much better now too...
I will no longer compromise myself...I need to take care of ME first!