onaMi

[OnaMi]

Since last post,(2 wks ago) up .6..to 153.8.Water weight.Sodium has been killing me lately.Fianlly got a hold of it last week so onward and downwards hopefully.

[OnaMi]

Must strengthen my mindset of "Eat to lose.Not eat to maintain"!!!!!! I'm not where i want to be yet .I'm firming up nicely cause i can see my abs taking shape/forming so can't get comfortable ...

[masm2]

Hey onaMi,

I hear you on the salt...I had too much when I was visiting my daughter-most of the water weight is gone now. Thank Goodness! I also hear you on the mindset of how to eat. I still have to "think" I need to loose weight even when I am in PIII. Otherwise I do tend to eat more off plan.

Take care,
Mary Ann

[OnaMi]

I know Mary Ann..we always have to stay aware of what we eat.We know what foods,when and how we ate them that made us unhealthy so forever finding alternates is the key but in the end..it's so worth it and end the end the alternate aren't bad at all we get use to them and find that we really like them

Spending more time in the gym has been really helping..WI @ 151.4 today.Just a spin class for my cardio and a TRX class for strength training or power pump class every day.Love the classes cause someone is making me do it

[OnaMi]

What's been happening...

WI @ 150.4 yesterday totally unexpected for sure.Thought I had been eating to many strawberries,blue berries and fruit in general.Guess my body was shocked from the change up.

Spending more time in the health food shoppe.Learning about all natural foods.Need to get away from artificial sweeteners,stuff w/MSG and anything that have strange chemicals in them.A lot of that stuff gives me headaches.I know it and i need to stop eating them.I've been doing great though.The headaches have stopped.. yay!!!.

Haven't been to the gym since Thursday.Been busy.Did start back jogging yesterday and today though.

Right now,seems like I can't do anything mostly because of the French Open plus i have other stuff going on too...But through it all..i will jog/walk whenever i can

Next week I'll focus more on the next task at hand.. still focusing on toning up my abs,etc.. and see how i look at 145.

[SBMike]

You'l'l look gorgeous at 145, cos you look gorgeous NOW!!!!

What an increadible inspiration you are. I have read your story several times and just find it so motivating! Thanks for all the honesty and sharing.

[masm2]

Hey onaMi,

You are doing great!

It is funny how headaches and other ailments disappear when you eat right. It is also funny how junk food just does not taste as good any more either! However, I still end up eating some of the stuff that is in the house!

Take care,
Mary Ann

[jhderm]

Hi OnaMi

Will just have to re read you journal and messages to get myself going again. NOT doing well at all. Restart then fizzle out daily.

Why is it SO hard to get into the right mindset? Where did you get the original motivation from? I am not able to stay consistent and give in to temptation against my promises to myself.

(((((


Judi

[OnaMi]

Haven't had much time for the Internet lately..sigh..can't sit still it seems with my new found energy i guess WI @ 149.2 this morning.

Aw..thank you Mike (hug) you are so sweet

Hay Mary Ann..I can't/won't keep any bad foods in the house.Pure torcher.Like sitting a bottle of alcohol in front of someone that's trying to stop drinking.

Aw..Judy,Bless your heart (hug)..Well,it has been a lot of things.reading Motivational quotes everyday.making eating healthy the center of my life(Learning all i can.),Knowing that i can't have just one bite of this or that and think that i can stop there...cause I know i won't.
I see eating uncontrollably,when ever, what ever as being possessed by an eating Demon.Being that I've had to conquer(overcome) a lot of Demons(drinking,smoking) in my life already,I recognized when things are out of control.I pray and lean on the lord for help(strength) to over come things that i don't want to do.
South beach has given us the guide lines to a healthier way of eating.With so many options.We just have to fight and keep on fighting through certain temptations.Then,after awhile, the fighting want be so hard.
The Mind is a powerful thing.Once we get our Mind set on something we really want,we will fight tooth and Nail to get it and keep it.
I say.."I'm just going to do good THIS day and like tomorrow take care of itself"..once I strung a couple of days together,saw how much better i felt,wasn't hungry,Found foods that were satisfying and sustainable,started coming off all those pills,start learning what food were making me fat,refuse to eat them and learn another way to make them..I wasn't happy.eatting all that processed food.Letting that make me happy for a moment.then after that''s gone.Look for some more so that can make me happy...a vicious cycle...It was madness...a Demon..
Eating healthy/exercising has so many rewards.

[jhderm]

Oh OnaMi, you have a way w words. Yes, I feel that eating out of control is a Demon alright. I stopped smoking, drinking has not been a problem but I do have an addictive streak and food is my current one. I try and retry, but I think you put it so well, just one day, and try to string a few together. I feel so bad when I go off, and so guilty and depressed. I just have to muster up the will power and put my mind to sticking to my own decisions. I don't give up though, and am now trying anew. I look to you ( and a few other persistent ones here) for inspiration. I am so happy for you. To be in the 140's....oh my. YOu did it, girl!!!!!

[bethy]

Had to come read a Big chunk of your journal again today, Ona. To get my mind right so I can crawl out from under a pile of salty almonds. They might as well be potato chips, the way they make me act. Thanks again, for the way you say the things you do. 149.2....you, you... toothpick, you! It must feel INcredible.

[OnaMi]

Hay Bethy!

Hay Judi!

3 weeks since last post..WI@ 151.2 today.Not happy about it.Been a crazy Month.Had to fight to get back there.My experimenting with certain foods was an epic fail.It was a learning experience.Even though I read all labels still,certain foods just causes cravings and some foods i just can't eat.Even though what i ate wasn't unhealthy,IDK..Just always have to stay grounded in what I know works that's all.

Order has been restored...Doing 2 classes most days at the gym.Learned how to use the treadmill (it still doesn't beat walking'/jogging outside which i do when my legs will let me) Jogged on a high incline for too long and my leg was hurting for a week.Trying different exercises.Jumping jacks.Jumped rope the other day,that was fun.Would like to do more of that.Learned some abs exercises on that big ball.Still can do TRX everyday but my legs won't let me.Never thought I'd like to exercise.Seeing myself take shape from it makes me want to do it.No pain no gain mentality

Really getting to the bottom of when I'm hungry or just wanting to eat.How I'm hungry after exercising,How I'm not that hungry during dinner time(since i eat in reverse order) so I don't have to eat/want to eat a plate of food if I'm not hungry,thinking that i need it to keep my metabolism up.Working on making meals smaller so come Dinner time I don't have to eat a lot.

More Important I think,,working on finding out how much i eat(feel full) to sustain(support) my weight.

Always a work in progress...

[bethy]

I just wish you'd make a looong list of every "craving causer" you know of after all your experience.
Since we come from the same (Potato Chip) background, I suspect whatever you can't eat would probably be a good Caution sign for me.
I had low fat cream cheese, mixed with cucumber and onion, on a bell pepper and it gave me the munchies. Cottage cheese does too so there must be a connection.
So far, I know I can't have popcorn under any circumstances. Or fruit by itself. Or salty nuts, although I'm still beating my dumb head against those. I want to try triscuits SO BAD but crackers...oh boy. I'm scared to.
I am flat-out starving after exercise too, even though I eat an hour before. That's what I call "real" hungry though, it helps me tell the difference between hungry and just "want something".
I want one of those big balls! (trying to wait till I'm sure I won't bust it )

[OnaMi]

Hay Bethy

It took my like a year before i could eat popcorn.Don't know why.Just keep trying to work it out..when i started pairing the grains/starches or fruit w/ a piece of protein that helped/helps w/cravings a lot.

Yeah..certain foods i just know i can't have around the house cause I'd eat them all I refuse to fill deprieved of anything I really want to eat though.. and have just fought and found away to make them fit into my lifestyle and make them healthier.

I plan my days,So when i decided I'm going to have popcorn( or anything out of the usual) that day,i just work it in (calorie wise) and it seems to have worked so far.

WI @ 152.4 today...just can't get back to 149 for some reason.not for the lack of trying for sure.Might get another scale but it's really not about what the scale says any more.I know I'm not flabby (don't look like i was ever overweight until i take off my clothes) any more cause of all the exercising.Abs/core is looking great.Mentally solid and still treat each day as if it was the first day I started. Been trying to figure out what i did to reach 149 in the first place sigh maybe my body doesn't agree with that weight or something IDK.....Oh, well..at this point I'm just trying to find that certain amount of food where i can sustain my weight.

Really listening to my body of when I'm hungry or not.can eat less but don't think I'll be able to do that for life..IDK..Just keep trying to figure things out.after all this time,thought i would have figured it all out..i guess It's a life long puzzle.

[OnaMi]

Been really busy..spending a lot of time at the gym(which is like a job)/church.etc..WI @ 154.2 yesterday.Satisfied with weight staying around 150-155 these days..seeing that no matter how hard i work, seems like i can't get any lower.Still refuse to change signature..looking (thinking about) at that 149 keeps me fighting.

If one day my body gets to the point where it wants to lose more, I can eat less and I don't feel deprieved with that amount of food,all well and good But If i don't... it wasn't God's Will for me to get any smaller...I'll except it and move on but how do i move on if i Always live with the mentality of as of I'm trying to lose weight..IDK..I guess that's a good thing.

Really glad about all the toning up though The scale is not the center of my life any more.I'm listening to my body more..when I'm hungry and not just eat to eat.and have really started leaning on making foods i like more healthier...taking advantage of all the recipes that are here..Thank God for that revelation and all the people that have taken the time to post them