SBDtheSequel - Journal

[SBDtheSequel]

Hello all that may be reading this. I am a two timer. I did so well on SBD a few years ago and then I just let it all slip away. I went thru a lot of changes in my personal life and that might be why I slipped, but all in all it was the choices I made.
So here I am - not happy with what I see in the mirror each and every day and realizing (once again) that only *I* can do something about that feeling.

My life is not complicated or stressful. I have a good job - but it keeps me mostly sitting in an office. I've found that sitting has carried over to my life after work hours too. I don't do as much as I did before. I have been getting out and walking a bit now and then, but nothing consistent. That all needs to change. Mostly I need to stop grazing like cattle every chance I get. If I don't have it around me I don't want it. So I've stopped buying "stuff" to keep in my drawer here at work.

I just started this today - did I mention that? I *think* I weigh about 274 (heaviest I've ever been) as I type this. I'm 5'9" tall - I've always been tall/big. I'm ok with being bigger - won't be a skinny girl, don't want to be...I do however want to be healthier and happier with how I look.

My goal is to lose about 100 lbs over the next year and a half. I'd love to drop it all in one year, but I want to be realistic - or attempt to be. So I'll give myself until January 2013 to get to where I want to be - I'll be 42 by then - and hopefully celebrating the new year and my new weight.

Thanks for those that read this - my rambling - and thanks to me for decided today was a good day to start appreciating myself.

[SBDtheSequel]

After work, my daughter wanted spaghetti - so I didn't want to let her down - so I made her spaghetti and I had two scrambled eggs with a LOT of spinach and a glass of FF milk. I didn't want to give into the spaghetti, because then it would lead to bread...and butter. So I did well. And even though I've become a creature of habit to have dessert and since I didn't have anything healthy, I just drank more water and went to bed...woke up a bit late this Day Two, but dealt with that as well.
Had two more eggs- I need to get to the store so I can have something else...more spinach...
Snack was a cheese stick...lunch was a big salad - well, lettuce and some good dressing, and part of a frozen lunch - I just ate the beef and the veggies.
Snack at 3 will be pistachios...dinner is pork steaks, green beans, salad and maybe some asparagus if I have any left.

So far so good. Getting a headache right now though - but I it's due to sitting at the computer too long today!

[SBDtheSequel]

Well I need to update my starting weight - I was aghast to find that I was 276 when I started this journey - yea it's only been 5 days, but still...and this morning I am down to 270.2 WOO HOO! I didn't eat great this weekend, but not bad foods, just didn't eat. I wasn't hungry like I normally am. But we were so busy that may have contributed. I know that I need to eat and skipping meals is not good - so this morning I woke up in plenty of time to make my egg beaters, spinach and turkey bacon breakfast...have some cottage cheese...lunch is salad with a chikn patty - pistachios and a sf jello.

So far so good!

[SBDtheSequel]

Spent yesterday walking and walking and walking on a day of vacation - which was good - but eating was not great. Skipped Bfast, ate a chicken quesadilla for lunch and had some corn chowder soup for dinner- including a piece of bread. Started my period. Let's see whatelse coudl I have done wrong? Oh I had a cupcake! So today it was back on it strict... But other than that I think my exercise was much more than my intake - just going to add a day onto my 2 weeks. I'm doing well - I was still at 270 this morning, but I expected that with everything from the day before and being on my period. I've learned to eat something good for lunch so I'm not snacking the rest of the day. That is the big kicker for me. If I don't have it in my desk at work I don't want it! Or rather I can't have it! So that stopped last week - the only thing I have are pistachios (rationed) cheese sticks and some turkey pepperoni
Must keep going!

[susiebroomy63]

Sometimes if you believe the task is too big, simply break it down - ie one meal at a time. Little steps will still take you where you want to go and if you forget to take a step - no matter how big or small - you will, of course, fall down!

This means, don't skip meals or snacks - very important!! And, plan, plan, plan!!! If you don't have good choices available, you will opt for "ugly" food.

You'll get there!

[Cowgirlup13]

and thanks to me for decided today was a good day to start appreciating myself.

Oh I love this!!! Good luck on your journey!!