Hey Sheena, welcome to theforum.
I'm quite new as well and I'd like to say hi and tell you that my story begins with the cessation of smoking, too. It's crazy how much weight you gain just because you stop smoking and start a 'healthier' life. Not very motivating if you get fat in return...
Bur it helped me for example to put on some makeup in order to compensate my weight. Some mascara, some link removed
, some rouge and I felt much more like a woman (again) and when I saw that men still looked at me, I started not to feel horrible each time I went out anymore. This way, I started to cumulate motivation for my diet.
I hope that you'll find the strengh to lose some weight, to live a healthy life and to stay away from cigarettes