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Hi all!! I have been reading a lot of the journals on this forum and I am amazed at all of the support and encouragement you give to each other. I do belong to the other forum that looks just like this one, but it seems like there are more people on this one. So, since I need all of the support that I can get, I'm joining this one as well. I figure if I post on both, I will have the double the support and find the strength to continue. As of right now, I'm in my 3rd week and I have been mostly good. With only one cheat day, learned a valuable lesson on that day.
A little about myself. I am 30, married, work full-time as a receptionist with an accounting firm(needless to say I have a lot of time in front of the computer), and I started off needing to lose 95lbs. As I stated above, I'm in my 3rd week and have lost a total of 18lbs.(WOOHOO!!) Just like most everyone that I know, I have yo-yo'd pretty much all of my adult life. After almost 10 years of marriage I realized that I was right at 100lbs heavier than when I met my hubby. I've tried almost everything and was successful a couple of times, until something bad happened and I gave up. Usually it was just something small that would get me in an emotional tiff. I'm a huge emotional eater. Have always felt that a big ol' piece of cake or a whole pizza was going to make me feel entirely better, that is until afterwards. Anyway, I'm sure some of you know what it's like.
Moving on, I have found that this is definitely the WOL for me. Not only has my diet changed, but I have also incorporated exercise into my daily life. This has made a big difference for me. My mood was so negative before, that my girlfriend was scared to ask me how I was doing. She just knew that something would be wrong and I would just complain and complain. UGH!! I hated hearing the words coming out of my mouth, but I felt as if I couldn't control it. Until now. For the first time ever, I feel as if I have found truly what I have been searching for and striving for, for all of those years. My head is clearer and my body is really responding to all of the goodness that I am giving it.
Okay, I know that I have just gone on and on, but I get so inspired when I read all of the posts and it makes me want to share my story. I will just go on to my daily routine.
Sun-Fri - 20minutes of cardio(learning a running program)
M, W, F - weight training(mostly just toning)
Su, Tu, Th - 30-45 minutes of yoga(turning myself into a pretzel)
My menu is mostly the same right now.
Post workout
16oz water
Omega-3 supplement
Calcium supplement
Breakfast
30oz water
2 eggs
1cp mushrooms
2 pieces of Canadian bacon(or not)
Daily Multi-vitamin
weight loss supplement
Snack
30oz water
small salad
or celery sticks w/wedge of laughing cow
Lunch
30oz water
6-8oz chicken, sirloin, or fish
1 1/2 cup of veggie
Snack
30oz water
small salad
or celery sticks w/2tbsp of peanut butter
Dinner
16oz water
same idea as lunch
I don't normally eat a snack/dessert after dinner because I normally eat dinner late and it just makes me wake up starving. So, I have just nixed that unless my dinner is early and I get hungry before bad. I am waiting to receive the book and the cookbook. Really I am just winging this from all of the posts and websites that I have gone to. Hopefully I will get the books today(snail mail).
I will end this frightfully long post. Thanks ahead of time for all of your support and I wish you all a great success.
"Success isn't just a number on a scale, it's a feeling in your soul." - ????
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Thu May 20, 2004 5:36 pm |
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Yay for receptionists!!
we sit ...and...yea...we sit!!...LOL
Welcome to the boards... there is lots of support and great people here....
I wish you the best of luck and will totally check up on you often!!
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Thu May 20, 2004 5:39 pm |
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Thanks Faerie!! You are the one that truly inspired me to join this board. I read part of your journal yesterday and had to finish it last night. I wish you all the luck on your wedding!! Don't fret the small stuff, everything will be fine.
Going to what you had talked about in your journal regarding your fiance and porn, I understand your feelings in a lot of ways. I am so sorry for all the things that you have gone through. My problems are nowhere near as extreme as what you had happen, but I have had a few bumps along the way....sexual malestation, by different people, hubby cheated on me just a year after marriage...etc, etc. I had to get to the point, and have only done this recently, to where I had to choose. Either let this consume me or realize that he does love me and I move past it. Well, I opted to let it all go(after 8 years of holding it all in). I felt so wonderful after that moment. It took a lot from him to get me to the point of trusting him once more, but I finally realized that he was in love with me and most importantly I loved him. As far as the porn goes, my hubby used to look at it every chance he got(and still does, just not as much). I used to think the same way about him looking at it....he had to want them more than he wanted me....I didn't compare. But it is just a stimulation for them......we would get emotionally attached as women, but most men, do not react that way. It's basically just something to "relieve" thier frustrations with.
Anyway, I love your ability to be frank and honest. Just put it out there like it is. Thanks for your support.....together we will get through it.
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Thu May 20, 2004 6:05 pm |
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wow sweetie!! I dont know if I could ever handle that... but... you are a fighter!!
I am glad you and your man were able to work things out... i have always said that i would bounce if anyone ever cheated on me...but i think it all depends on the situation..there is never a blanket answer for anything... otherwise we would all know it all!! hehehehe
the wedding...*sigh*...yea.. it can get overwhelming sometimes...but... you are right...cant worry about all that small junk...otherwise i will go insaine...
We have talked more about the porn thing .. and he says it has not been an issue since we moved in together..and that it is not something he misses at all or even really needs...he says it was more out of habbit than anything..*shrug*... so ... i still panic and worry...but. i am getting better...
day by day right??
Well... i think you are going to do an amazing job with this lifestyle change!! With a husband that really luvs you...and the support you will find here... anything becomes possible!!
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Thu May 20, 2004 6:14 pm |
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hey there!
its amazing how similar some of us are...
i have been through some of the same things u have.. im 30 and married..
i was molested as a little girl, to little to climb up on a bed till i was 7 maybe 8... then i was kidnapped when i was 15.
i was never really thin, but now im not even close. im a thick chic. i was kinda ok with that till my best friend lost 45 lbs and shes so much happier. id love to be truely happy too. ya know? like not wearing a mask all the time. and yes the major thing i love about this board is the honesty and being blunt... say it like it is.. its your journal mama, let it loose
ive yet to vent...
im sure that day is coming close tho.
and when i do, i know that i have lots of people who care here...
welcome!
ill check in on ya often
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| Wow Anita, we are alot alike. I am 30 this august, married 8 years this july, and have 100 pounds to loose. I weigh 265. I love this board and will be reading alot every day for the support and great ideas. See you around. :-D |
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Good morning everyone!!!
Thanks you guys for the positive replies!! It is so great that we can all cheer one another on. It makes you feel good when someone that you don't even know says, "Good Job!!" I know it keeps me going. High fives to all!!
Anyway, I know I seem like I've absolutely lost it, but I really have such a better attitude towards everything. It's just a unexplainable feeling. I can't say that nothing gets to me, back I am looking at things differently and I am not so down on myself. That is a very important thing for me. If I start thinking that I'm not going to be able to do this, then I will quit.....so I am trying to keep the positive energy flowing. Namaste!! Okay so if you don't do yoga...that means; The light in me salutes the light in you. (or I bow to you!!)
Okay...Here it is for today!!
Post workout
16oz water
Omega-3 supplement
Calcium chew
Breakfast
30oz water
2 eggs
3 thin slices of Healthy Choice Ham
sprinkle of mozzarella
(I know...no veggies)
Daily Multi-vitamin
weight loss supplement
Snack
30oz water
Luna Bar
Lunch
30oz water
Going to a Mexican restaurant(probably have taco salad w/out shell)
Snack
30oz water
small salad
Dinner
16oz water
Hubby is supposed to be grilling chicken
1 1/2 cup veggies
So, I know that my morning snack should not be a Luna Bar, but I ran out of things because I desperately need to go to the grocery store. I am a little hungry so I will wait to see if I need it. Basically I'm winging it today.
I did manage to get up and do my 20 minutes of cardio this morning, last time for the week!! YEAH!! I will be going to the gym tonight for upper body toning. I'm trying to stay positive about it and hope that my arms are not as bad as they were on Monday. That yoga is something else!!
Stay true to yourself!!
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Fri May 21, 2004 2:37 pm |
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I just have to say that you guys are truly some of the best people that I know! You all have such great hearts and you are not afraid of using them.
It is really great that we have a lot in common, even if they are some of the worst things, but we are able to support one another because of this. lilgemini, whenever you are ready to let it all go....don't hold back....we are here for you.
14KT - Wow, uncanny how much we are alike!! So, how are you handling turning 30?? I swore that I would have this weight off before the big 3-0, but I didn't quite get there....a little late...but atleast I'm doing it now. Can't wait to see your progress.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!
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Fri May 21, 2004 2:47 pm |
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Okay...so we didn't go Mexican for lunch...we went to a hamburger joint. Now this place is old school, so not a lot of healthy options. Plus, I was craving a burger anyway. I wound up with a mushroom swiss burger, hold the bun and fries. It also had tomatoes and lettuce, so there was a little veggie to it. I didn't drink as much water as I normally do, but I will make up for it during the rest of the day. I knew that I was going to have a bit of an off day today, so I was mentally prepared. Don't need to bring myself down because of it....just learn from it and move forward.
Am I the only one that is sooooo happy that it's Friday????
What a week!! Next week will be a little tough also because I am only working 4 days...taking Friday off to head to Florida for a couple of days...........WOOOOHOOOO!!!!! I really can't wait.
Anyway, I hope you all are doing great and I will chat again later.
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Fri May 21, 2004 5:06 pm |
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oh my gawd... i am extatic that it is friday!! I could not be happier... I need some real time off!!
in the words of homer simpson... "mmmm.....burger" hehehe...
dont you just luv those calcium chews?? i have the chocoate ones...and they are kinda like a treat!! Almost like desert...mmmmm
I wish i was going to florida!! ....man.... 5 more months until my vacation... *sigh*... you better have some fun for me!!
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Fri May 21, 2004 5:26 pm |
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HA HA!!......homer is great!!
I have the chocolate chews and it truly is a great little treat.
Florida is really just going to be a real quick trip, but I love to drive for hours so it should be fun for me. I'm just going down to see my sis and pick up niece and nephew for a couple of weeks. One of my other sis's is going with me. I was hoping to actually get to the beach, but it doesn't look like it is going to happen this time. My true vaca is in August when hubby and I are going to Houston for his little sister's wedding. It should be fun.....I honest to god love his family. Maybe on the way home we will stop by the beach.
Faerie I will try to have as much fun for you as I do for myself. I really might try to hit the beach......I miss it soooooooooooooo much!!!
HAPPY FRIDAY TO YOU!!!!
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Fri May 21, 2004 5:45 pm |
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thanks hun, someday i will let it all out... i have tried but theres always a lil monster that shuts me up...lol
u are doing freaking awsome mama.
thats so great.
i lived in fla for a min...lol
we lived in sebring and titusville
i loved sebring... they have happy hour everywhere...lol
and the food...ahhhh
and , hey, ... ya know,... i guess im glad i moved. id be a lot bigger im sure...lol
dang happy hour and food...lol
i kill me, have fun anyhow hun!
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Good morning everyone!!
I hope that you all had a good weekend. My weekend was actually pretty nice and relaxing , atleast it was on Saturday. Went swimming all day and had a cookout. Sunday I played catch up. Did laundry and cleaned house...all in all it wasn't too bad. I did have a few cheat things on Saturday, but got right back on Sunday. When I weighed in this morning, I had lost another 3 pounds. YIPPEEEEE!!!! I am so happy!! This is really going great for me. The good thing is I have been able to get my cardio in every morning. Starting this morning I increased my jog intervals, so I am now jogging for a minute and a half and walking two. It was definitely a lot easier than I thought that it would be, even though it is only a half a minute more. But when I was doing a minute jog interval, I thought that it would be torture to up the amount any little bit. I pushed through and I hope that the rest of the week will be just as good.
On to my menu!!
Post workout
24oz water
Omega-3 supplement
Calcium chew
Breakfast
30oz water
2 eggs
2 slices Canadian Bacon
sprinkle of LF Mozzarella
Daily Multi-vitamin
weight loss supplement
Snack
30oz water
celery sticks
wedge laughing cow
Lunch
30oz water
8oz sirloin
a medium salad
Snack
30oz water
celery sticks
1 1/2 tbsp peanut butter
Dinner
24oz water
Chicken or fish
1 1/2 cups of green beans
I am going to try to do my weight training again tonight. It's upper body and I'm not sure how I will fare. The yoga I did last night really was a little easier, but my arms are still a little sore. I will just have to take it really slow and use the minimal weight that I can.
Be true to yourself!!
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Good morning all!!
Okay, didn't quite make it to the gym last night for weights, but I did a 15 minute ab routine. Our cable company has new features on it where you can order, for free, these workout routines. They have a section devoted to abs and one of the programs is "Bellydancing Abs". Well I have always wanted to learn to bellydance, so I figured I would give it a shot. I did it for the first time last week and I thought that I was going to cry for the rest of the week. OUCH!! I guess I enjoy that pain because I did it again last night. Boy is it a workout!! It's no wonder those bellydancers have such amazing abs. I'm hoping that it will work for me.
Menu for today!!
Post Workout
24oz water
Omega-3 supplement
calcium chew
Breakfast
30oz water
2 eggs
2 slices of Canadian Bacon
sprinkle of LF Mozzarella
Daily Multi-vitamin
weight loss supplement
Snack
30oz water
celery sticks
wedge laughing cow cheese
Lunch
30oz water
Mexican chicken(baked w/salsa and a sprinkle of cheddar)
1 1/2 cup green beans
Snack
30oz water
small salad
Dinner
24oz water
medium salad
3 thin slices of turkey breast
I finally got my cookbook in yesterday, after I had already gone grocery shopping. But this gives me time to figure out the ones that I want to try and make a list for all the things that I will need. I did look through it and there are a lot that I would love to try. Unfortunately, there are a lot of the Phase 3 ones that I want to try, but atleast I have something to look forward to. I'm sure that they could probably be modified to fit into Phase 2, but I'm so not good at modifying things.
Well, I wish you all a great day!!
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Tue May 25, 2004 1:45 pm |
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oh my gawd!!
so ok...this chick i met who teaches belly dancing says it is the best thing for a womans self esteme... *shrug*.... i think it would be fun....
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