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Well, here's my first attempt at the SBD.
I had gastric bypass four years ago, and lost about 120 lbs. I was considered a 'lightweight' in the weight loss surgery world. My weight at surgery was 280 lbs. and I got down to 160. During the past year and a half, my weight has gradually crept up and up. I find I am able to eat just about everything, and don't get the feeling of fullness anymore. I am an emotional eater, a boredom eater. I've been going to a therapist for over a year, but so far it doesn't seem that we've touched on my need to stuff my face the way I do.
I am an all or nothing eater. I could go the whole day without eating, but once I eat something, I crave more and more. Like an alcoholic, only with food. I'm hoping the discipline of the SBD will help me get on a regular schedule of eating.
I got on the scale this morning after a terrible weekend of binging on sweets and I was so disgusted with myself. I was 192.6 lbs. - I would like to weigh 165 -170. So I've got my work cut out for me. I started Phase 1 today - had my veggie quiche cups, my V-8 and coffee. I'm hoping to take it one day at a time. I do walk about an hour a day and take an hour tap dancing class once a week. I think I'll try to cram another 30 minutes of walking in as well - even if I just do it 3 or 4 times a week.
I'm sure this journal of mine will be ramblings and musings, but I'm hoping it will keep me accountable and on track. As I said before, I'm an extremeist - I'm either all in or all out. Hopefully I'll stay all in. :wink:
I'm going to journal my food on fitday - I think that helps. I might journal it here too, so if anyone sees any flaws in my menus they can give me a heads up. I have the original book, so I'm going to try and go by that and check the updates on the board.
All helpful hints and suggestions will be very appreciated!!!! :) |
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Tue May 27, 2008 2:47 pm |
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| muffintop
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| Welcome to the boards. We're here to help and support. I'm finding that SB has really helped with my cravings for sweets. I would never have believed that I would last 9 whole days without sweets and startches! |
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Tue May 27, 2008 6:42 pm |
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| Aineen
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I don't know what the general rule here is about weighing. When I diet it's very motivating to me to see the numbers go down, so sometimes I weigh every day. That's just me. I weighed this morning and I was 189 - down 3.6 lbs. since yesterday! I know most of that is water weight - I was up peeing all night and still going strong this morning!! I stuck pretty closely to the menu in the book, the only exception was after my tap dancing class last night we went to dinner and instead of a salad with chicken or salmon, I had a mushroom omelet. I could only eat half, so I'm having the rest for breakfast this morning with two slices of turkey bacon and 6 oz. V-8.
I had a very restess night last night - tossed and turned until 3 AM. Luckily I'm on vacation this week. I kept having cravings to get up and eat something - anything, but I resisted. I suppose that's to be expected while 'detoxing' from the demon sugar..... :P
All in all I'm feeling pretty good, trying to take it one day at a time, waiting for some energy to return - I have lots to do and no energy at all. I did take my 40 minute walk with the dog this morning, so that's a good thing!! |
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Wed May 28, 2008 2:24 pm |
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| Aineen
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More ramblings, some introspection.
The SBD is new to me, but dieting sure isn't. I've been doing it since I was in my teens. I'm also an ex-smoker and a recovering alcoholic, so I sure have that addiction thing going on. When I give myself the luxury of feeling sorry for myself, I tell myself that everything that brings me joy is bad for me. But when I'm feeling more positive, I realize that I'm very fortunate to have 25 years of sobriety and 8 years as a non-smoker under my belt.
I'm always looking for that answer as to why I feel compelled to eat the way I do. It seems like the answer is within my grasp, but I just can't grab it. Well, maybe someday. All I know is I am an all or nothing type. I will follow this diet to a T or I will not do it at all. When I am in my binging/eating badly phases, I don't care that I just finished a candy bar, now I'm having kettlecorn before my bowl of cereal.... :shock: I can eat the way I used to drink - one meal isn't enough and I'm never satisfied. Again, I wish I knew what compels me and why food always seems to be calling to me.
I'm going to take up crocheting and maybe find myself a good book for those times that I just don't know what to do with myself (except nosh on something). We'll see how that goes. |
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Wed May 28, 2008 2:57 pm |
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| FiftyToLose
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| Just wanted to say Good Luck!! I just started for the first time on SBD this past Tuesday and I think we're starting at about the same weight.... I gained and never lost my weight after having 2 children, so this is all new to me.... Luckily I found these boards and I should start a journal too... |
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Thu May 29, 2008 4:29 am |
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Hi Fifty!
I had a pretty good day yesterday - stayed on track, tweaked it a bit, but only ate acceptable food and lost another couple of pounds. I did have a lot of cravings, and the fat girl in my head kept telling me that it's OK to have a few pretzels, but I resisted and ate some crunchy cucumbers instead. I'm down 5.8 lbs. since Tuesday, probably mostly water weight, but I'll take it any way I can get it. :wink: I also gained a lot of weight with my pregnancies (20 years ago!) and I found that lots of walking helped too.
My stomach was kind of rumbly yesterday - I'm not used to all of the veggies and I guess I have to get used to that. I bought some Beano, and hope that will help.
I'd love to get down to 160, but 165 or even 170 would be fine (I'm 5'7"). I really am trying to take this a day at a time and plan ahead. |
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Thu May 29, 2008 1:02 pm |
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| FiftyToLose
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Aineen wrote: Hi Fifty!
I'd love to get down to 160, but 165 or even 170 would be fine (I'm 5'7"). I really am trying to take this a day at a time and plan ahead.
I'm 5'7" too... Same height, same starting weight. :lol: :lol: :lol:
Yeah, my screen name is kind of a joke - while I'd love to lose 50 lbs., let's get real 8) I'm aiming for 175 as a Phase 1 goal (so I'll stay on phase 1 until then) and then long term, down to 160, then to 150.....
My only problems so far are headaches every day :? Do you get them too? |
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Fri May 30, 2008 6:50 pm |
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Hi Fifty. I'm really not feeling too badly at all physically. I've read that lots of people have headaches. I did have some trouble sleeping the first couple of nights, but did pretty well last night, so hopefully that passed. Today was the first day I had any real energy too.
I'm having more trouble with cravings - today has been the worst so far - I want sweets; I want pretzels. I'm trying to appease myself with SBD acceptable foods; a little dessert of ricotta cheese, natural pb and some Splenda. Also, I'm trying to eat a little more often and get more water in. I've got to keep going with this. The fat girl inside of me keeps giving me all kinds of excuses, but I'm trying to tune her out! :twisted:
Have you weighed yourself yet? I lost 5.8 lbs. after the first two days, nothing today, but I'm cool with that. I've heard that Phase 1 isn't the losing phase - I'm trying to figure that out. |
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Fri May 30, 2008 9:53 pm |
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| FiftyToLose
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Uggh, been doing ok so far!! I took a nap today when my kids were to stave off going for the sweets! LOL! :lol: I find it super hard though because I have 2 small children to feed and a husband who refuses to diet, or eat anything healthy (and while he is not overweight, it wouldn't hurt for him to lose a few pounds). I feel like I am preparing 3 meals at each meal.... Crazy!!
And no, I haven't weighed myself yet. Was going to wait until Tuesday (1 week), but now I am curious to see if its working at all! I'll let you know tomorrow! |
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Sat May 31, 2008 3:41 am |
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Ok, here I am at Day 6. I've stuck to this new way of eating - who'd have thunk it????? I'm totally committed and I'm proud of myself. I'm down a little over 7 lbs. and that's motivating to me, but I know that that kind of weight loss will not continue, so I'm also celebrating the fact that I am eating normal sized meals, healthier meals, and healthy snacks when I feel the need. I'm drinking my water and so I'm also feeling motivated by the fact that I'm doing something good for myself.
My biggest problem; and it's been my biggest problem for years, is eating at night. That's when every morsel of food in the house calls to me and that's when the cravings for sweets and bad carbs kick in. I've been staving it off with ricotta cheese, almond or vanilla extract, a tablespoon of natural PB and a packet of Splenda, but sometimes I go for a second helping.... :oops: Or if I need something crunchy, I go for some cucumber chips with light Laughing Cow garlic cheese spread.
I'm feeling like I'm getting into the groove now and having a much better idea of what I can and cannot eat. I was never much of a bread, pasta eater, but I am a sugar-holic through and through.
I'm reading some info on the Beck Diet solution which (in a nutshell) helps you figure out what triggers those urges for emotional overeating. It's funny, for me, Friday night has always been binge night (when I was growing up, Friday night was 'picnic' night and my mom would put a tablecloth on the floor in front of the TV and my sisters and I would have sundaes, or some other treat and watch The Flintstones). I wonder if that has anything to do with my Friday night need to binge? Also, if something good happens, my first thought is to celebrate with some outrageously decadent food. Of course that's also my first thought when something bad happens. So, food is extremely important to me in my life, and I would find myself planning on a big old ice cream sundae or a box of Oreo's and get positively giddy about it. Food = comfort. Food = love. Food = relaxation. Food = reward. That list can go on and on....
Guess I've got a lot of work to do...... :roll:
Fifty - I wish I could just take a nap when I felt like eating!! Sleep is something that doesn't come easily to me - I've got one of those minds that never turns off and of course, when the wheels are turning, they always seem to get to food. I know how hard it must be to cook for three! Luckily for me it's only me and my 22 yo son, who is skinny as a rail and will eat most anything. Maybe it would be easier to take a day and cook your stuff and freeze some. I did that with chicken breasts, chicken chili and the breakfast quiches and that way there's always something to grab. Hang in there my SBD twin!! |
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Sun Jun 01, 2008 2:40 pm |
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| muffintop
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| Just dropping in to say hi. Glad you are doing well. I also struggle with night time eating, especially Sunday night. Good luck. |
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Mon Jun 02, 2008 2:00 am |
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Thanks for your encouragement muffintop!
Well, it's been a week now. I'm getting used to the new way of eating and I have to say the cravings are getting less and less. Of course that can all come back with good news or bad, or whatever it is that flips that switch.
I've been eating my dinner a little later, so that way there isn't as much time to think about snacking. I've also taken up crocheting and actually went to the library yesterday and got a book. I used to be an avid reader, then kids and work and life took a hold of me and somewhere along the line I stopped reading. Hopefully some of these things will take the place of the snacking and obsessive eating.
I've increased my walks to include a 30 minute mid-day walk as well. I know from past experience, even if I don't lose pounds, I will lose inches! |
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Tue Jun 03, 2008 1:47 pm |
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| muffintop
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| Congratulations on increasing your walking time. I am starting to enjoy exercizing again. Are you doing the Beck program? |
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Wed Jun 04, 2008 5:12 am |
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muffintop - I'm not really 'doing' the Beck program, but I am reading the Beck Diet Solution blogs and I have to say, I thought I was the only one who reacted to food the way I do, but it seems there are many people who do the same. I'm getting a bit of a handle on the emotional eating - I guess the first step in dealing with it is recognizing that I doing it. I am also recognizing that most of the food I fantasize about doesn't taste nearly as good as the fantasy. And of course, learning that if I mess up and eat one thing that I shouldn't, that doesn't mean I should give up and have the whole day be a loss.
Like us all, I'm a work in progress!
As I mentioned before I had gastric bypass four years ago. Lately I really have felt that I'm able to eat anything and everything and lots of it, and that the 'tool' that my surgery gave me was broken. Well, yesterday I ate some almonds and whatever happened, it made me sick the way I would get sick if I overate right after the surgery. I couldn't eat or drink for 12 hours. I am able to drink now, but not eat too much. While it's nice to know that my surgery is still working, it's really very uncomfortable when you get this kind of sick. Needless to say, I have eaten very little since last evening - just a bit of yogurt and eggbeaters tonight...and by a bit, I mean a few tablespoons of each. I guess the main thing is that I can drink. If I'm not able to eat by tomorrow, I guess I'll get myself off to the doctor. |
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Sun Jun 08, 2008 2:45 am |
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Sorry to hear that you are not feeling well.
I have been reading a lot online about binge eating and compulsive eating. The 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet site has a section called 'Chicks in Control' for bingers that is interesting. Prevention magazine has a lot of good articles on emotional eating.
The most interesting piece that I have read [I think it was on the Prevention site] suggested that when we feel cravings to really focus on them and to ask ourselves what is really upsetting us and then give ourselves permission to feel upset about it.
It's worth a shot! |
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Sun Jun 08, 2008 8:31 pm |
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