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I am 21 years old. A lot has contributed to my relationship with food today. I went on my first diet whn I was 11. This led to my being diagnosed with anorexia nervosa at 12. I became addicted to ephedrine (a type of speed for dieters) at 14 and consistantly remained around 100 lbs. My life has always revolved around food being the enemy. I became vegan at the same time that my doctor put me on some new on the market anti-depressants. I was hospitalized 3 months later for dehydration and malnutrition. I weighed 88 lbs. I slowly started eating meat again about 6 months after my release from hospital. I eventually gained some healthy weight back. Then I got into a head-on collision with a city bus. My right leg was shattered and I had to have multiple surgeries. Recovery from the accident is still in progress. I was confined to my bed for months. I put on weight from inactivity and constant feedings of whatever I wanted. When I was finally better my long-term live-in boyfriend left me and I lost 20 lbs. without noticing from depression. The weight I am now is a result of the balloon effect of dropping weight too quickly. I am 5'3, 128 lbs. and hoping that this diet will help me.
That's my big story and I think it's pretty obvious that this is my first proper attempt at leading a healthy lifestyle and being a healthy weight. |
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Sat Jun 05, 2004 5:53 pm |
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| B21
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Today was tough. I'm hung over from my big (bad) night last night. I did however, try my best to stay away from carbs and sugar.
I ate:
A plain chicken burger, cooked in nothing
Tuna (1/2 a can)
Daal (east indian lentil soup)
An entire container of 2% cottage cheese (I know, total binge and really gross)
A small bag of really junky smoked almonds (6.0g of carbs)...oops
Dinner for my honey is a taco salad so I'm going to skip the cornchips and sour cream for my self.
I have two major problems:
1) I think I am eating more than 3 meals a day
2) The cottage cheese issue
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Sat Jun 05, 2004 10:04 pm |
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B21
You're supposed to be eating about... 6 times a day. Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, dessert.
yes, the amount of cottage cheese is a lot, but better that then something not on the SB diet!
Also watch the almonds. I believe they are limited (15 dry roasted)
Your dinner sounds YUMMY!
Do you have the Enjoy/avoid food list? here's the link if you need it
South Beach Phase One Food list
Good luck! :)
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Sat Jun 05, 2004 10:52 pm |
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| B21
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| I had my taco salad and I indulged in red wine with dinner. For "dessert" I'm having a diet gingerale. I have decided that I'm going to try and be more strict this up coming week, so keep tabs on me and give me a hard time about it! |
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Sun Jun 06, 2004 1:13 am |
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| kelsey
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Hi B21 wow that was a rough start with food. By the time I was 14 I was a sneak food eater. Always have been overweight. Im glad you made the descision to start a new food lifestyle. Do you like vegetables?
That is also needed on P1. And Im wondering if you need to add something to your meats to make them taste better. The cottage cheese issue may have to be worked on. But Im sure you can do it.
Kelsey |
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Sun Jun 06, 2004 2:38 pm |
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| B21
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Kelsey: You're right, I totally need to eat more veggies. I had lettuce and tomato with the taco salad last night, but that's it. Thanks for your advice. Also, cottage cheese is just too easy to eat for me. It's all creamy and yummy. My mum suggested having strong flavored lf cheese. I wont eat as much that way.
So I have figured out that even though my eating has improved over this past week, I have pretty well cheated everyday so I am looking at last week as a sort of prep period. Today I start!
One thing I've been confused about too is carbs. I thought that we were avoiding all carbs for 2 weeks, then adding 'good carbs' back in. People are giving me feedback which states otherwise. If anyone can help me with this I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks!
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Sun Jun 06, 2004 3:13 pm |
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| B21
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I went for brunch with my mum. I ate:
Coffee, black with 2 sweet & lows* (*absolutely YUCK! I suggest 1 or 1/2)
A western omelette (ham & onions)
House salad w/ balsamic vinigerette on the side
I got the salad instead of the homefries and toast they offer w/ the special.
Did I do good? I think I did. I'm slightly worried about the cheese that was in the omelette. It didn't say cheese on the menu or else I would have asked for low fat or none. |
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Sun Jun 06, 2004 5:28 pm |
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| B21
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That's it for today. I had one meal. I had to give away my kitten due to allergies and I've been too devastated to eat.
I'm sure I'll be starving tomorrow.
I feel so lonely :cry: |
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Mon Jun 07, 2004 3:25 am |
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Oh how sad about you kitten. My daughter was alergic to cats but we got a real short hair one and she was ok around him. You are doing good. Im not sure what carbs you are talking about but for two weeks you are allowed only certain vegetables and certain meats and protiens. Somewhere there is a shopping list for P1. When Im feeling so lonely I just go to other journals and read. I try to write to as many as I can. 2 hours pass by like nothing and Im happy. Hope you can find a pet you are not alergic to. I have a chiwawa never know how to spell it. Hes my baby. Keep up the good work and P1 will be over soon. If you dont have the book I really advise you get it. It really explains how food works inside us and why some carbs are just awful for us.
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Mon Jun 07, 2004 3:38 am |
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| B21
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Thanks Kelsey, I really appreciate your kindness.
On the label for my black bean soup it says that there's a couple dozen (I forget how many right now) grams of carbs but all the ingredients are good. That's what I don't know about
Another carb issue, I can't cut out alcohol. It's just not happening. Last night at 11pm my boyfriends friends came by and wanted to grab a couple pints. He wanted me to come with and I had full intentions of not having anything. I ended up drinking 2 smirnoff coolers and a glass of beer. Yikes. The only reason I am no totally freaking out is because I barely ate yesterday.
I know I drank because I was sad about my kitty :cry:
However, South Beach is really kicking in in other ways, for instance I woke up so thirsty today because of drinking. My honey made a jug of Fruitopia punch and downed a glass. I offered to pour him another because I was going to get a glass of water. I just know that there is so much junk and sugar in those punches that I don't even consider having a sip. I'm hoping that will kick in with booze too. Being surrounded by so much alcohol is really hard. If anyone has any coping strategies I'd love to know!
I'm about to go to my mum's for (black) coffee and eggs.
Kelsey give your pup a squeeze from me :)
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Mon Jun 07, 2004 2:42 pm |
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| B21
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I found this on the forum and I cut and pasted the alcohol info for reference. I hope this will help me and maybe even someone else.
Bacardi rum has no carbs and no sugar and only 66 calories an ounce. Paired with diet soda or other non sugar/calorie mixers I am assuming this would be ok to drink.
I think as a rule clear alcohol is the best bet. I used to drink vodka cran's all the time...looks like im gonna have to stick to rum + diet coke now!
does anyone know if the flavored vodkas (I drink smirnoff twist ALL the time) are really bad cuz of the sugar content? I can never find nutrition labels for these things.
The Citrus Twist has no carbs. The Orange and Vanilla are low. You can get all of the info on the Smirnoff website.
I found the following info on the web site. It was in an article about drinking during the holidays.... Hope it helps!
Enjoy, in moderation (limit 2 servings daily):
Red and white wine (one serving = 3-4 ounces)
Champagne (one serving = 3-4 ounces)
Vodka (one serving = 1 1/2 ounces)
Gin (one serving = 1 1/2 ounces)
Rum (one serving = 1 1/2 ounces)
Bourbon (one serving = 1 1/2 ounces)
Avoid:
Beer
Brandy
Port wine
Liqueurs (including Kahlua, Bailey's, Amaretto, schnapps, etc.)
Sherry
Wine coolers (often contain a lot of added sugar) |
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Mon Jun 07, 2004 2:58 pm |
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| B21
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I was feeling great today. I got dressed up in a nice new dress I bought and my new shoes. I walked to the dry cleaners to pick up my favorite jacket and on the way back I ran into a guy I used to work with before I put on weight.
He stopped me to say hello and then looked me up and down and said,
"What are you doing to yourself?"
I stupidly thought he was about to compliment me, since I was all dressed up. He continued, however, by saying,
"You're looking really...thick."
I mumbled something about how I've been working out and I had to run.
I walked home instead of continuing my errand and changed. I got into bed and that was it, my day was ruined :cry:
Anyway, I ate a broccoli omelette and had a couple LF cheese sticks.
Today is not may favorite day :cry: |
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Tue Jun 08, 2004 10:39 pm |
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B21,
What an awful thing for anyone to say!
That said, I'm going to quote you one of my favorite quotes:
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"
in other words-- You can decide how you feel about things... You can be battered around by what people say or you can choose to feel differently. On the same coin, you cannot control/change what people say and do, but you can change how you react - either choosing friends who treat you well or shrugging off rude comments.
YOU DECIDE.
Yes, that's easier to say than to do, but it's the only way I know of to feel sane and relatively content in my life.
You can do it!
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Wed Jun 09, 2004 5:16 am |
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| lilsuz14
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Hey B21,
I am so sorry that that idiot said somethin glike that to u. who knows what his problwm was, a lot of times guys say things without realizing how a womans going to take it. its happened to me and it can be hard to take. its hard being sensitive! i know with me its something i am going to have to work on my whole life, but i have to deal. and u will too, just try to let what the guy said roll off your back. im sure u did not look thick, and u said u felt like u looked good before that. Im sure that u did!
Keep up the good work, and post often. Its good to vent! :) |
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Wed Jun 09, 2004 3:22 pm |
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| Shania1969
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B21-
You were sweet enough to read/ comment on my Journal, so I found yours to do the same!
As far as the nasty little man that said that to you.. he was obviously feeling bad about himself that day, and had to take it out on someone.. unfortunately you were in the line of fire. Ignore it, and move on.. who needs people like that?
I think you are doing great! You havent mentioned your goal- are you wanting to lose weight, or eat healthier, or both?
I am here for u if you ever wanna chat.. I may be slightly older then u (well, ok... more then slightly! :( ) But I am still "21" on the inside! |
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Wed Jun 09, 2004 3:45 pm |
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