Sarah's journal: Teacher & Beacher

scgraham · Wed Jun 02, 2004 7:00 pm

:shock: Summer's here, and I'm 9 pounds heavier than I was on the first day of school. I've been putting off being healthy for 10 months, and it's high time that I give it a try.

I want to lose about 15 pounds, or at least the 9 I gained that year. 15 off would put me back at my high school weight. I was so slender then, and ALWAYS felt fat. I guess that's been a recurring theme in my life.

OK, Day 3 was going pretty well, but I may have over eaten on the Chilli concoction I made. Maybe not, though. It had black beans, tomatos, bell pepper, a little olive oil, some 96% lean ground beef and some low fat cheddar. IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD. I feel like I cheated. Did I cheat?

I was feeling really low-energy and achey-breaky, kind of like I had the flu, and after I ate that chilli, I felt normal. I know black beans are allowed, but they're awfully high carb. I had about a cup of the entire concoction.

My next dillema is that I HAVE to go to dinner with the parents of a kid in my class. At their house. I teach first grade, and had the nicest parents this year, but it's still kind of awkward to go to a student's house for dinner.

How can I stay "on the beach"????? We'll see. I'll feel so rude not accepting anything I'm served with a big smile and lots of compliments to the chef. I DO NOT WANT TO BLOW phase 1. :shock:

I've hung around the house all day today, and I'm loving it. I rode my recumbent bike for 8 miles, took a shower, watched a movie, did some laundry, read a book and made that infamous chilli. I LOVE SUMMER!!!!!!!

I should have gone over to school to work on my new room (I'm moving to a bigger, better classroom), but was feeling so yucky until after lunch that I decided to put off decorating my new space. I'm such a procrastinator! I have to work on that. I'll start tomorrow ( :P

Apparently, I also have a hard time saying no. I have so many committments this summer to things I'm not positive I want to do. On the other hand, I do want to be involved with things, and after I've gotten a little break, maybe I can get excited about teaching Vacation Bible School (it seemed like a good idea at the time......)[color=red][/color][/color]

scgraham · Wed Jun 02, 2004 9:50 pm

Ok.... I need to write down what I've eaten so I can figure out if it's too much:

Breakfast: 2 eggs with a little ham, half a bell pepper, a 2% cheese slice, Tea with skim milk & splenda

AM Snack: Low fat string cheese, 2 olives, tea with skim milk and splenda

Lunch: About a cup of chili, coffee with milk and splenda

PM Snack: 30 Pistachios, devilled egg, sugar free popsickle, celery and one T Carbwell's ranch

Dinner???

It seems like I've eaten so much that I shouldn't have dinner, but I'm getting hungry again!

scgraham · Thu Jun 03, 2004 10:38 am

WOW!!!!!!! I got on the scale this morning and have lost 4 pounds since Sunday. Is that possible? I know it has to be water weight. There's no way a person could lose even a pound of fat in four days, especially the way I've been eating.

Last night I had a tomato, drizzled with a little olive oil and garlic and covered with low fat ricotta and topped with a little low fat cheddar. I put it in the microwave. I'm sure it would have been better in the broiler. I thought it might taste like Margarita pizza (mmmmmm..... pizza), but it didn't. It wasn't that good.

It has to have something to do with being home AND my regular pattern (eating well until about three o'clock and then going into an after-school feeding frenzy for about an hour... and then having an indulgent dinner!)

Maybe I just think I'm eating too much. It was all legal, as long as I wasn't putting too much olive oil in stuff.

Today I'll go over and work on my room a little bit, maybe put up my alphabet and cover a few of the bulletin boards. Maybe even go to the teacher supply store and get a new numberline (I know, woo hoo, right?)
I do need to feel like my new room isn't just a big, empty pit, though.

Tonight is that dinner at the little girl from my class' house. Wish me luck. I don't want to be rude and I don't want to deviate very much from the Beach. I have to keep telling myself that it's OK to put myself and my eating plan as a priority, instead of worrying about my "party manners".

JessicaRabbit · Thu Jun 03, 2004 12:44 pm

Hi scgraham. YAY!! on the 4 lbs. Talk about instant motivation. Thought I'd say hello and share an exerpience I had. I was on P1-day 8 and I was at least 5lbs down. My aunt had a dinner party since my father was coming into town. They have a close friend from Tibet and he makes homemade dumplings-the best dumplings I have ever tasted. Well, I knew I was in trouble, but had to go. I just hoped there would be veggies I could eat . my plan was to be nonchalant about skipping the dumplings. Have you ever been in a kitchen when someone is making dumplings stuffed w/lamb and beef? It's heaven sent. End of story, I had 2 dumplings and loaded up on a cabbage salad and bamboo shoots (never had them before-excellent). I did not gain anything and continued to lose the remainder of P1. I think if there is something you must taste go ahead, but use MODERATION! and you will be fine. Try to balance your meal out. Load up on legal foods and if you can't avoid illegal stuff, just have a little.

scgraham · Thu Jun 03, 2004 1:38 pm

YAY!!! Thanks for that story and thanks for being happy for me.

I don't think I'm going to feel like "cheating" tonight, it will just be "a small portion to be polite" syndrome. But if they were serving delicious Asian dumplings, it would be a different story!

I know a few extra junky carbs wouldn't be enough to make me gain fat, but I SO don't want to mess up the karma of phase 1.

I just had b'fast:

Half a bell pepper
Half a tomato
sauteed in a little olive oil

with 1 slice extra lean Canadian Bacon
2 eggs
1 slice 2% Cheese

Coffee with Splenda and skim milk

2 glasses of H2O

I can't believe that just last week I would have added a couple of pieces of buttered toast to that. I'm so full and do not need those junky, white flour, sat. fat. calories!

My goal for today is to only eat at my meal/ snack times instead of grazing. I'm going to get out of the house today! :lol: That should help. I'm totally having a mental block against going over to school and working on my room, and I LOVE lounging at home.

scgraham · Thu Jun 03, 2004 3:00 pm

OK.... just worked out and had a snack

I SO did not feel like exercising. My daily goals is 8 miles on my recumbant bike, but decided to excuse myself after 2... then when I reached the 2 mile mark, totally exhausted, decided to go for 4 (half way). Somehow, even while watching a really crappy We Are the 80's on tvo with lots of hair bands to fast forward, I made it to 9 miles/ over 150 calories. Yahoo!

For snack I just had some sliced turkey, a string cheese and about a quarter of a bell pepper. Maybe I can work my way up to having veggies with every meal and snack. So far, so good today. I've also had tons of water already.

scgraham · Thu Jun 03, 2004 3:33 pm

OK... I just ate my 30 pistachios, also. WHY AM I SO STARVING???? I'm going to get out of the house until lunch.

scgraham · Thu Jun 03, 2004 7:27 pm

OK. I ran errands until about 2:00 and then when I got home I was STARVING. I very quickly made chicken salad using chicken breast, hardboiled egg, mayo and celery and ate it, and then had a sugarfree fudgesickle and then had 9 illegal pistachios. I mean, I ate this lunch in the blink of an eye! :oops: And I wish I could eat even more! I definitely waited too long between snack and lunch.

I just finished and it's almost 2:30.....3:00 is my usual snack time! Maybe I'll consider the fudgesickle and over-the-top nuts to be my PM snack, and just have a cup of coffee before I leave for my dinner thing (see, I didn't say "stupid dinner thing"!!) at 6-ish. Hopefully I won't be there for more than a couple hours.....Home by 9:00 at the latest? It's a work night for them.

scgraham · Fri Jun 04, 2004 3:35 am

It's almost 10:30 and I just got home from dinner with a kid's family. It was actually really fun. The mom had made sangria, and I had 2 glasses ( i felt obligated, and it felt necessary to grease the social wheels :oops: ), and two small bites of cake with no icing. Other than that, I stayed basically on plan (steak and tomato and basil salad with a little goat cheese). Before I left I had coffee with about 1/2 a cup of skip milk.

I totally ate a lot today, but nothing compared to how I would have eaten pre-beach (at dinner I said no, thanks to potatos, corn, and bread!) I didn't feel rude refusing those things. The mom said she had made the sangria specially, and it tasted really sweet. It must have had sugar in it, but at least that was the only major deviation from the plan.

scgraham · Fri Jun 04, 2004 3:36 am

P.S. Before I went to the dinner, I also had some ricotta and a sugar free popsicle.

kelsey · Fri Jun 04, 2004 4:47 am

It is amazing how much it feels we are eating and we still lose. But I think if we had kept track of what we ate before it probably was more calories. I feel Im eating more every day but Im still losing good. But in the evening I was a grazer too and who knows what all went in my mouth.
Keep up the good work.
Kelsey

scgraham · Fri Jun 04, 2004 1:15 pm

Thanks, Kelsey! I know you're right. It makes me feel good to know someone's reading my journal and is on my side.

I feel so incredibly crappy this morning. I slept horribly, and feel so nauseated and awful. I know it's from those two glasses of sangria. Not only is it not part of SB, but alcohol has a HORRIBLE effect on me. I can just feel my blood sugar crashing. I'm so, so sleepy but can't seem to rest, and my whole body aches. Just from 2 glasses of wine????

I had 2 eggs with 2% cheese and ham to try to get my blood sugar stabilized and a cup of tea with a little skim milk and spenda.

What I want is lots of buttered toast and a whole pot of tea with whole milk and honey. I know in the long run those junky carbs would make me feel worse, so I'll try to muddle through today. :cry:

Yuck. I have so much I want to do today, and absolutely no energy. I need to tidy up the house, do laundry, work on my classroom....... I feel like going back to bed, but I know I couldn't sleep. Forget exercising this morning. Maybe I'll feel better later.

scgraham · Fri Jun 04, 2004 5:17 pm

I had a little nap and dozed for about 45 minutes, then woke up and made some zucchini, bell pepper, no-sugar spaghetti sauce, Laura's Lean beef and cottage cheese. Sound bizzare? It was a lot like lasagna, very comforting. I also did a little tidying.

I was very, very tempted to forget the whole diet today. I really felt like I should just eat a poptart or a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and feel better and stay chubby. After reading through a bunch of things on this site, I decided to keep trying. Today is day 5.... Only 9 more phase 1 days to go, and then I can have a piece of whole grain bread with peanut butter, or a piece of dark chocolate, or a whole wheat bagel and cream cheese.
The way my body is reacting to this detox is showing me how much I must have needed it!

momof2princes · Fri Jun 04, 2004 9:04 pm

SCGraham-

Keep up the good work. I know there are days that seem tough, but you will make it through! Think of how much happier you will feel when you lose all of the weight that you want. :D

If you need support, come here. There is always somebody ready to give you any support you need.

kelsey · Sat Jun 05, 2004 3:27 am

Its so hard to keep on P1 sometimes and certain foods can make you feel like giving up. But you are down to 9 days. Just be glad its not 9 months. Keep strong will be worth it.
Kelsey


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